Is It Wrong Not All Right?

He's Really Win?

Fina walked to her class with a cireng and a cup of iced tea. He just came from the cafeteria. Fina continued to walk down the corridor with relaxed steps. From the opposite direction, it appears Win who was walking to the cafeteria, following his friends who had already left. While in the cafeteria, Fina had a brief glance at Win's desk and indeed she did not find her figure there. There are only his friends.

Fina and Win kept going. Their distance is getting closer. Until they finally meet.

Wussh...

Everything goes so fast. Not a word came out of the mouth of one of them. Fina's stunned. I stepped on the brake pedal by myself. 'Is he really Win?' his inner. Fina looked back. The guy kept walking on his back. And he's really Win. 'Didn't he see?'Fina asked once more. But it seems like the second question sounds absurd. Fina was in front of him and Win must have realized that.

Fina's disappointed. Why didn't Win reprimand him? He expects too much. There was a sense of tightness blending around his chest. I don't know why it hurts so much to be dumped like that. They became two strangers. N-no! Although Win's stranger has never been this rowdy. Before they knew it, Win had even been with Fina. It was as if it wasn't the Win Fina knew.

Fina continued her steps. Heading to class feeling tight.

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Fina tries to find an answer as to why Win is being indifferent to her once she is at home. Fina sat in her bed, daydreaming. Half his heart still said that it wasn't Win. Win was still being friendly to her last night. Why did it turn 360 degrees the next day? 'Does Win have a twin?Won?' His mind predicts other possibilities. Nah! Fina had to accept that the guy she met yesterday was Win. The question now, why would Win behave like that to him?

It seemed like Win was angry because all this time was considered the wind by Fina. But is it overkill? Feels not. Fina only realized that it was considered non-existent by the person she loved was very painful. It is more painful than getting direct anger from the person.

It felt like Fina wanted to cheat on Win to apologize. But, he was still confused for now. About Win. Relationship in the future. About Felisha. About that threat. Fina canceled her intention. He switched to calling Lindy to accompany him to buy ice-cream at the Mall tomorrow. Tomorrow is saturday, a school holiday.

“Halo, My Brother,” call Fina. They're familiar enough.

'Yes, brother?' lindy's reply made Fina amusedly want to laugh.

“Tomorrow can take to the Mall not buy ice-cream? Want to fix mood”

'Why not?' I love es-krim too

“Yeay.. Thanks Kalin!” new call from Fina for Lindy: Kalin.

'Your welcome, cutety...'

Fina turned off the phone. He was grateful to have another good person in his life. The one who could be a big sister figure to himself.

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Lindy and Fina go to the Mall in Lindy's Honda Brio private car. Arriving at the Mall, they went straight to the game. Fina raises a doll's claw machine.The first attempt he failed. The clamp only carries the wind. Lindy's turn to try it. Same result. They failed to get the doll. But they did not give up and kept trying. Until finally Fina conquered the game.She got a cute dinosaur teddy bear in green.

Fina jumped up and down in excitement. Bertos-ria with Lindy.

“I name who, yes, the doll?” Fina asked Lindy for advice.

“Gerald aja,” Lindy filed. “Upload Gerald to two.”

Fina laughs. I don't know where the twin side is, but that seems like a good idea.

After the game, Lindy took Fina to the clothing store, looking at the clothes.

“It looks good in you.” Lindy matched one of the clothes on Fina's body. His eyes squeaked, making judgments. “Funny.”

“You want?” Lindy offered.

“I don't bring much money, Kalin.” Fina refused.

“But you like gak?”

Fina nodded.

“If likes must be had. Let me pay.” Lindy was kind.

“Truly, Kalin?” Fina felt bad. Lindy nodding. Fina hugged Lindy's body tightly, grateful.

Fina walked out of the store with a paper tote bag containing the clothes that Lindy had just bought. His lips were smeared with a smile. He's very happy today. Fina and Lindy walk to buy ice-cream. Suddenly his pleasure all day collapsed just like that when he saw a man who was walking along with a woman. Win and Felisha. They cross. Fina's tongue feels mute, can't say anything. Win was silent. He also did not expect to meet Fina here. Instead, Felisha smiled happily and forcedly shook Win's hand.

“Are you OK?” ask Lindy who feels Fina has a relationship with the guy she just passed.

Fina forced a smile. He didn't want to ruin his happiness all day.

“I’m OK” Fina lied. They rushed to the ice-cream booth.

“You'll want to order strawberry-flavored ice-cream. Yeah, right?” guess Lindy.

Fina. “Kok Kak knows?”

Lindy looked slowly. “Volcanner.”

Of course Fina did not believe Lindy's words. He was still confused as to why Lindy could figure out his favorite ice-cream flavor. But a moment later, he forgot about it.

“You wait here, yes. Let Kalin pesenin.” Lindy was kind.

Fina waited for Lindy who was warming ice-cream for both of them. He sits propping up his chin, daydreaming. Why should Felisha? That one question was in Fina's head. Fina's lips curved downwards. Will his relationship with Win really end?

Lindy came with 2 cups of strawberry ice cream. Fina straightened her body, showing her smile.

“Its OK to not be OK. If you are sad, be sad. Not to be rejected. We are human beings who are rich in emotions, not robots. Nih.” Lindy gave an ice-cream in her hand to Fina which accompanied the surprise of seeing Fina grieving.

Fina's smile was gone when she heard Lindy's words. He showed his feelings at this moment.

“I myself do not know why I am sad,” said Fina limply.

“Cowok that was your friend?” Lindy discusses Win.

Fina nodded.

“You like, yes same him?” guess Lindy.

Fina was shocked to hear Lindy's question. He just puts his shoulders.

“Same girl she's her boyfriend?”

Fina turned her shoulders again. Maybe they are dating now. “But I guess they're not dating.”

“If not, how come you still limp like this? Reach dong.” Lindy is encouraging. A spoonful of ice-cream went into his mouth.

“Kalin, I want it deh.” Suddenly a question popped into Fina's mind.

“What?” Lindy answered kindly, inviting.

“If you like people, but there is a risk waiting, what will you do?”

“Hm..” Lindy seemed to think for a while. “It depends on you. Obviously, losing that person is also a risk. Its your choice.”

Fina's heart was moved to hear Lindy's answer. Perhaps losing Win was the biggest risk Fina had right now. Fina can't imagine her life without Win. Is there anyone as good as Win ready to accompany him through periods of destruction?

“If the risk is Big Brother will be shunned by people just because they know who Big Brother really is?”

“If you are shunned by people just because you are what you are, you will be grateful. Because big brother so know people who really sincerely love the same big brother, the same who hingga. Just be who you are while it's not a mistake, Fina.”

Fina got enlightenment from Lindy. Suddenly he felt naive for his attitude the past few days towards Win. Why should he avoid Win just because of Felisha's threat? Just because Fina was afraid of people's thoughts. As Lindy said, isn't it better to be ourselves while we're not doing anything wrong? The words of that man are not important. Why should Fina be afraid of being shunned by people if she has Win who accepts her as she is.

“Still, Kalin.” Fina smiled back. An honest smile. Lindy's answer was very helpful. He continued to spend his ice-cream.

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