I'M Sorry To Hurt You [Last]

THIRTY

“Purnama.” I opened the door to the room. Wiping the sweaty whirlpool that flowed profusely at the temple, as well as the breathless roar as it ran with all its might from the hospital lobby towards my wife's room. My eyes were immediately fixed on the figure of my wife, packing her things. Actually tomorrow he was declared allowed to go home from the hospital, but today he forced to go home immediately.

Beside him was Mommy, she helped Purnama fold her clothes into a suitcase. Mommy looked at me who was still standing at the door. He smiles. I nodded my head back. Then I turned to look at my wife. Purnama did not turn to look at me, even his facial expression was so cold as he folded his clothes. He was not at all disturbed by my presence. On her beautiful face, I could see her look of disappointment and hatred towards me.

Mommy stood up and walked towards me. Gently squeezed my shoulders.

“Solve your problems well, Mom wants to go to Edgar's room first,” whispered and passed from before me.

After Mommy came out and the door closed behind me. I took my foot to the bed, where my wife was still folding her clothes.

“Pur-”

“Get your hands off!” Purnama screams. Waving his hand violently as I held his shoulder. I sighed, heavily moving my hand away from her shoulder.

“What are you doing here, I don't want to see you,” he said.

I didn't answer. Looking at my wife. In a rude and hasty manner, he stuffed his clothes into the suitcase. Seeing that he was not speaking anymore, I forced myself to touch his hand, preventing him from reinserting his clothes.

“I told you-”

“I know. You told me not to touch you. But, I'm your husband, Purnama,” I said fiercely filled with emphasis. My voice intimidated him. The full moon clenched her hand in my hand. Teeth grinding. Finally he looked at my face and smiled sinisterly.

“My husband? After making my brother miserable and not telling me to meet him. You still dare to say my husband! Basic *********!”

Full moon smacked my chest. I can only be silent not against him.

“Purnama, I-I want you to come to New York!” I said nervous.

The full moon stopped the act of hitting my chest. Staring at me fiercely and with a red face. “Ke New York with you? And back to being treated harshly by you, is it?”

I fell silent and gulped at the saliva hearing it. The back of my harsh treatment of him for these two years came to my mind. I bowed, staring at the hospital floor. Regret comes back and fills my heart.

“I'm sorry, Full Moon. I know I've been rude to you all this time, but ... at this time please, Purnama. Come back with me to New York. There's a pent-” thing

“No! I don't want to come! I want to be here. Being on the side of Edgar.” The full moon came back crying and slumped on the floor. My heart feels torn to see it like this.

“Purnama-”

“No! Nah! No!” Purnama shook his head. I exhale.

“Purnama ..” I paused my sentence for a while and took a breath, looking at my Purnama who was still sitting on the floor while covering both ears. “...a-please, Purnama. Just this once, give me a chance to correct my mistake. I-i promise. I won't repeat the same mistake again,” I said quivering.

I moved to sit in front of him.

“I didn't hear. And do not want to go,” reject Purnama by slipping his head to the side of the bed. The clothes he folded back into a mess.

My eyes are starting to heat up. Seeing it as fragile as this my heart throbbed pain. I told him to touch his shoulder again, saw that he didn't react to my touch. I'm getting brave enough to touch her. I hugged her body from behind, my hands tightly coiled around her waist. My palm touched her distended stomach. I leaned my head against his smooth shoulder while closing my eyes. I bit my lips very strongly as the clear liquid started to jostle out at the corner of my eye.

“Purnama, I stick with my decision. Taking you to New York,”, I said raucously and hardened my heart.

“No. I'm not leaving this room.” Purnama roared and hit my hand.

I'm unmoving. I harden my heart as steel. This time, let him hate me. When I'm in New York, I'm gonna change my attitude. I grit my teeth, I promise in my heart, I will keep the Full Moon as Edgar wishes.

“Purnama, if you're here, who will take care of you and the baby you bear. While in New York, I'm taking care of you, please. Just this once, listen to me, your husband, Purnama,”.

“No. In New York I was alone. At least here, there's Edgar I'm looking after. And without having to bother to understand the language there. Huks ... I don't want to go back to New York anymore. I can no longer bear the pain you gave me.”

I couldn't speak anymore hearing his groan. Is that how deep I put the wound in his heart? It's like re-tearing his old wounds when I take him to New York. But I couldn't break up with him. Deep down, I began to love my wife, deepening in love with her. I was determined to make her happy.

But now ...it seems like hope is drowning in a sea of hatred. It was as if I was climbing a mountain that did not reach its peak. Stay stuck in the middle of the road. Not until the peak of happiness, Purnama has given up on me.

I exhaled a rough breath into the air. My life is so hard this way. Why is it so hard to find happiness. Everyone I loved left me one by one. From my biological father, my stepmother Kalina, Edgar and now .. my wife, Purnama also wanted to leave me.

A long void filled the space between the two of us. Only the faltering roar of breath from Purnama mixed with the sound of his stuffing filled the room.

“Alright, you stay here, Purnama.” I decided to give up. I rubbed his distended stomach. Yes, this was for the sake of her calmness and the baby in her stomach. I don't want to push him to the point of putting him under pressure and being fatal to our baby.

“But, please, Full. Think back to my request tonight. Never mind, you better get some rest!” I said exhale.

　

　

　

　

　

　

I opened the door to the inhouse. I hope today my wife has changed her mind. My eyes were immediately fixed on her, well dressed, her face facing the window with her hands propped up. No more clothes on the bed. Could it be .. My eyes turned to the suitcase that was lying beside the bed.

I sat by his side. Purnama did not rub my presence with the view still fixed out the window. Grab his hand and hold it. He's staying quiet. Unresponsive.

“Purnama, have you changed your decision?” askaku expectantly.

Purnama let go of my grasp and shook his head. My chest ticked. My heart throbbed pain looking at his arm, meaning he would still be his decision last night.

“I stay here, with Brother Edgar,” he said coldly. He stood up and moved away from me. Closed my eyes for a moment and breathed air. No, I can't just let go of the Full Moon. Who's gonna keep him here? I'm afraid Purnama will be the target of Jeremy's crimes again.

“Purnama, please. Come with me to New York,” persuade me. I hugged her from behind, preventing her from walking further and further away from me. My nose can smell the shampoo in her hair; it flows the calmness in my heart.

Purnama was silent for a moment, not continuing his steps. Then he started to hit my hand that was coiled around his waist.

“Get your hands off, Elias!” The full moon raised the volume of his voice.

I flinch, even increasing my embrace. I gasped in shock as I felt my hand get a droplet from above. When I put my head on his shoulder. I saw clearly, a circle of tears fell on his eye sash, soaking both hands coiled in his stomach.

“Elias, let me here. I-I don't want to be with you,” the stuffing.

My heart throbbed even more as it felt its tears falling on the back of my hand. Especially when I say I don't want to be with me anymore. I was worried, my heart was screaming not to let go. But on the other hand I can't bear to see him continue to fall like this.

“But, how about Edgar alone come with us?” my proposal.

“You're crazy, Elias! Edgar's brother is very sick. He can't travel far. The condition can drop immediately. You intend to kill him slowly while on your way.”

I'm woken. Speechless.

“You are indeed evil!” his screeches. Forcibly releasing my backhug on him. He turned his body. We're facing each other.

I looked into his eyes. “But, Full. No pill-”

“NO!”

I was shocked to hear how loud Purnama was squealing. He touched his stomach. Sighs for a moment. Turn your face the other way. Trying to remove the tear point that wants to go down. My heart could not bear to see him so fragile, sad and angry. My fingers slowly wiped the tears on his cheeks, no more resistance from him.

“Alright, you can be here. Caring for Edgar,” I said hoarsely withstanding the pain that was increasingly piercing my heart.

“But, please let me now embrace you and our baby-to-be,” I continued pleading and looking into her eyes, hoping that she would agree to my request this time. He was silent, that was his only reaction. I assume he let me fulfill my wish.

Biting my lips hesitated and started to step into her arms. The more I held my arms around the body of the Full Moon that remained unmoved. When satisfied to embrace him. I switched to aligning my body with her stomach. Kissing her distended stomach while closing her eyes. To channel my guilt to the baby in the womb, because all this time I have not paid attention to its growth.

Forgive Daddy, Son. Forgive your selfish Daddy for ignoring you and your Mommy all along. Daddy please don't be naughty, make your Mommy comfortable here. Believe one thing, that your Daddy loves you and your Mommy more than anything. I love you, my son.

Many times I kissed her stomach, hoping that it would reach my love for the baby in the womb Purnama. Re-establish my body, re-hugging my wife. Rubbing his back.

I’m sorry, Darling. I can't take care of you here ... I hope you're okay here.

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