I'm Not Taking It Again

Spilling Misses

Ever since Niar said he was getting married, Dirga had been getting closer to Niar. The frequent eating and hangouts made Niar more comfortable beside Dirga. Moreover, Jicko is on duty out of town.

Niar Laughter always adorns the days of Dirga making Dirga increasingly fall in love with Niar. There is no stiffness between them. Niar already considers Angga like his own best friend. The one who can make Niar comfortable.

"Your skin is getting white, no. Treatment where?" asked Niar who was walking with Angga.

"It's time, Ma'am. Though only use cream concoction doang," he replied while chuckling.

Niar laughed while hitting Angga's shoulder. They were getting closer and closer like a lover. They've been in one of the food courts in a mall. Niar gave an invitation to Angga.

Dirga's happy face turned mellow, with a slight trembling of her hand opening the invitation Niar gave her. His eyes were nilar, that date was the date on which Dirga had to return to Jakarta. His hope of grasping Niar's hand and taking him to Jakarta is gone.

"I never thought I'd marry someone I didn't really love." Hearing the words from Niar made Dirga look at Niar's face with a flat expression.

"Female, would marrying someone we don't love make a happy household?" ask Niar.

"No, Ma'am. Even the household will be destroyed because it is full of lies" replied Angga.

"Well, I was ready to refuse. But, my father forced me to marry him immediately. Because my father wanted to watch my wedding before he closed his eyes" said Niar.

Dirga got up from his seat and sat down beside Niar. He hugged Niar's body and now Niar's tears are spilling. This was the first time Dirga embraced Niar after five years of separation, no rejection from Niar. Even Niar was hugging Dirga's body tightly.

"I'll show you something. It will certainly make Mbak happy," said Angga.

"What?"

Angga clasped Niar's hand and took him to a barbershop. Niar looked at Angga, just a smile that Angga showed.

"Would you like a haircut?" Only a nod became the answer from Angga.

Niar kept looking at Angga from behind. Angga's hair cutting activities are very long, making Niar bored and choose to play his phone.

When it was finished, Angga looked at his face in the mirror. "Handsome" said the hair-cutter.

Angga approached Niar who was focusing on his phone. "Niar," call Angga.

The voice that Niar desperately longed for, Niar slowly raised his head. His eyes glazed over in disbelief at what he saw.

"Dirga," heeled.

"Yes, Honey. I'm Dirga" said Dirga.

Niar hugged Dirga's body and Dirga was no less tightly hugged Niar's body. "I miss you so much, darling" whispered Dirga.

Only sobbing Isaac became Niar's answer. Niar's hands tightly coiled around Dirga's waist. Her tears had washed over Dirga's shirt.

Dirga loosened her embrace then, wiping away Niar's tears. "I don't like you crying" said Dirga.

Niar's reddened and swollen eyes can only look at Dirga's face. Then he hugged Dirga's body back. Evaporating the longing that for five years Niar pendam alone. No matter, Dirga already has a wife and children. He wants to be selfish tonight. Shedding all the longing and love she had for Dirga. He still loves Dirga very much.

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