Finding My Lost Heart

Chapters 13. Inayah Keikhlasan Aditia's

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Until the direction of the wind led me to a place that witnessed my first meeting with Inayah.

The breeze swept over. As usual, the feeling was always coming, I guess, a pseudo-arm patted my shoulder either by a miss or something that had already passed.

When the nothing about the grounds crept up, I always understood why I was here. Waiting for you, until one day we will meet. Although up to half a century the universe searched, after the light went away. Because God always summarizes memories very well through tears, through the rain, and through a quiet that does not end.

I don't know. Until when I hope to continue with you, Inayah. When you first meet, you are always present in my heart. Time goes with your shadow, wanting it to always be close to you. Is this farewell! tell me, Inayah!

My eyes are straight ahead. The sound of waves screaming towards me. Want to get your love back to reality. When I was in the torment of love, you walked away without ever thinking of me, Inayah.

Why run in a dark? Even the fog would not stop. Let it all pass, I don't want to dream. Even though this miss was made for you.

Is it in your heart that one hopes to promise forever with me? If you were here to reopen the path of love. There is a longing there that fills the recesses of the heart. Do you miss your heart as I feel it?

I know you love me when I see your eyes twinkle when you look at me, shady and warm. I know you're where I lean and take cover.

I heard the wind whisper your message to me. I feel the drops of dew as a symbol of your affection. I see the rainbow of hearts as a picture of your love for me. I feel your sincerity, honesty, and loyalty to me.

Now I realize that you love me so much. But it all feels so beautiful without you. I'll take care of everything you've ever given me, Inayah.

At night I arrived home. Mom's staring. I know they can already guess the disappointment that came back to me.

"We can cancel everything" said the father.

"What are you gonna do? Against that proposal? Even if father's treasure runs out, Inayah will never do that. She is a strong woman who is willing to attach importance to the happiness of her family in comparison to her own happiness. If Inayah can and can, then I can."

"Adit, you're a man. Don't be weak like this, Adit!" yelled Dad gave me support this time.

I turned to look at my father's face. I came to him and said, "I will sacrifice for him. By approaching more the owner of the Heart. Maybe I've been too far away from her all along."

"Does that mean you're gonna give up?" ask dad again.

"Adit, this isn't you!" You may be surprised by my attitude.

"Here I am, Father." Then I turned to the mother who had given birth to me. I saw a sad look on her face. "Mom, don't worry about me. I'm doing fine. My happiness is my happiness."

I left them and went into the room. Since that day, I have decided not to meet Inayah. My happiness is what matters to me.

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I never thought I would be caught up in such a painful feeling. Although it is difficult to control the mind when the heart speaks, as much as I can. My family is everything.

"Dad, then what's your decision? You're gonna turn it down?" ask Raka. "Daddy, your husband's love will be greater than that of an impure love."

I was just speechless hearing Brother Raka lecture me. Until I finally spoke up.

"Just calm down, brother. I will bury in that feeling, this feeling is not halal," I assured Raka.

"Good then when will you make this decision on aba."

"Just meet up, brother. I'll just come along."

I looked towards Amira's sister. Amira looks bad to me.

"Don't feel bad, brother. If I was in your position, I might have felt the same trauma."

Brother Amira hugged me and said, "Together with you, deck. I'm sorry.because I'm you and—"

"No, sis. Brother Aditia may not be my soul mate."

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