Feel Engineering

I'm Strong

Chapter 9 I'm Strong

Azka

I was trying to close my eyes when Aufar arrived. He looked tired and sleepy, just like me. After asking the news of his father he passed to the bathroom.

The sound of an email notification from my phone made me sit down and check it. Aufar came out of the bathroom and immediately lay down. I take the headset and put it in my ear, I'm replying to an important email, I don't want to bother Aufar at this time.

Aufar called mother, actually I want to say hello to mother as well but suddenly Aufar mentioned that name. The name that these few days keeps ringing in my mind.

"Which tea?"

Degs..

My heart skipped a beat hearing his name called. After a while, I could hear her sweet voice coming from Aufar's phone. There was a warm feeling that suddenly filled my chest cavity.

"Hello to Aufar! When's brother coming home? Dea kangen is my brother."

Waitaminute! What say? He misses Aufar! My hands clenched firmly gripping the cell phone that was in my grasp. I don't accept it!

"Wish soon, brother will go home to propose his favorite beautiful adek bang Aufar!"

Especially this? Aufar's gonna propose to Dea? My chest feels hot. I'm not willing! Not really this, this can't be allowed.

The sound of Umar on the other side and the spoiled sound of Dea further caused my chest to burst into flames.

"Okay, are you all right there? Don't want to talk to Azka first? This is the guy there."

My heart is back beating irregularly, come on, want to talk to brother! But, baby, there is no answer. Until Aufar lay down, no sound could be heard from there.

Honestly, I'm disappointed. Is Dea still angry? Does Dea really hate me? Was he so angry that he would not greet me?

Anyway, I wonder, how does it look now? How tall? Is it still as tomboyish and annoying as it used to be?

I was really envious and jealous of Aufar. Dea can talk to him so loosely, even say kangen to him.

If it's the same me? Not kangen?

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Dea

After Aunt Fira and bang Umar came home, I went back to my room and read a book. I'm not in the mood to read books, I just keep busy flipping through the sheets but there's nothing stuck in my head.

I picked up my phone that I had neglected for 3 days. I opened my conversation group with Rara and Storm. There were hundreds of messages coming in and they both seemed to be worried about me.

I replied to all their messages and told them about mama and papa's accident. My phone immediately rang, seen the name of the Storm calling, after which appeared Rara's face.

"Hi dear, who is patient!" Rara said first.

"Do we need to go there?" Ask Storm.

"No, I'm not papa. You guys went to college quickly last night and followed me here. Okay!" I said to calm them both.

"You sure you're there?" Ask Rara worried.

"Yes, here is Mother Aya. There's Aunt Fira and the others. You guys just calm down." Reply steady.

"But if there's anything, let us know, well, Dea." The Storm later.

"Yes, yeah. Sure is!"

I finally felt tired and sleepy. As well as Storm and Rara, despite the Sunday school holidays, but they remained busy struggling with their college assignments We ended the video call and I finally fell asleep.

Azan dzuhur's voice woke me up, I felt like I had just closed my eyes and was now awake again.

"Well, it's sleeping!" It turns out that there is a mother Aya who has not known since when she was here.

"Dea overslept yah, bun?" I asked plain and then stretched all the muscles of the hand to my feet.

"There are two hours maybe, you fell asleep still hold HP."

"Ooo.." I replied.

"Udah, let's get up, pray, eat!" Her orders are typical of mothers who do not like to see their daughters wake up late.

"Ready boss!" I held up two thumbs and then went to the bathroom.

After lunch, I invited my mother to talk about something that I thought was important. I really feel heavy staying at Aya's mother's house just eating sleep doing nothing. Not to mention there's more to it than I'm not the only one here.

When we were sitting on the sofa watching Nat Geo channel. Mother Aya looks very serious listening, happened to be discussing the events of Deepwater Horizon which was made a film with the same title and played by Mark Wahlberg as I remember.

"So seriously, bun?"

"Hmmm.. No, you only remember Arga's father, he used to often go to the offshore Bridge like this. It's cool to see the picture above Helydeck." Aya's mother remembered her husband.

"Yes...!"

"Hmmm." he replied muttering with his eyes still at home on the TV screen.

"Bun, tomorrow I'll start at the office." I doubt.

Mother Aya turned her gaze towards me, she saw me off-limits.

"Are you sure?" I nodded steadily. "Well, you're happy that you feel better."

"Mother can also look at Arga there. Dea has not been left behind by mother."

"But, son. Bun-it"

"Mother should be there, om more need mother at this time. Please!" I interrupted quickly.

"Mother can't leave you, De!"

"Must be able to mother. Dea promise will be fine here. Dea will do whatever you ask your mother to come to Singapore immediately. The person she needs most at this time by her side is mom. Dea please, please!" This time I really pleaded.

I can't imagine what if Arga goes and there's no mother Aya by his side. I will feel so guilty and I will forever regret it for the rest of my life.

Finally, Mother Aya gave up.

"Alright, but you should be fine here and stay home. You can go to work, but you must not be tired and go home quickly. Okay!"

"Okay, Dea promise!" My words are full of conviction.

I have to be fine here, I have to look strong, I don't want to look weak. My heart may cry at any moment it wants, but I will make sure only a sweet smile will be spread to those who care about me. I don't want to be a burden, I don't want to disappoint Mother Aya and Arga. I don't want to disappoint my mom and dad there, they need my prayers, they need me to be strong and do good, because that's what they have to add.

Maybe after this I will cry again, maybe sometimes I am weak, but I am sure, God will not test me beyond my ability. I am strong, God willing!

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