Feel Engineering

Deal

Chapter 23 The Deal

Dea

I can't wait to spill all my frustration on the Azka bang. His attitude was completely unexpected.

Doesn't he hate me? Isn't he impatient to see me disappear from his life?

But, his attitude was really different 180°. I don't know what his motivation was to do that. Does she expect me to be lulled then after I fall in love with her she'll just throw me away?

Nah! I'll never fall in love with her. It was enough that he humiliated me mercilessly, it was enough that he hurt me with his heartless words last night, enough! I don't want to add any more wounds.

I really hate this situation, why should it be with the Azka bang, why not someone else who married me? I have no problem getting married in an arranged manner, I am not close to any man. I also have no problem dedicating my whole body soul to my husband, but with the Azka bang, I don't know, I started to be overwhelmed with fear, afraid to admire him again, and what I'm most afraid of is falling in love with her.

I am just a human being, my heart can also be subdued if it continues to be near the Azka bang. Because just after the Azka bang revealed once again his scathing words last night, my heart was again hurt. Only bang Azka can hurt me this deep.

In the years I prepared myself and mentally, so that when fate reunited us, my heart would no longer beat so hard to see his face. In fact I failed, sometimes I even forgot to breathe when I was nearby. I hate this feeling. I don't want to be weak, I want to make a strong high wall that fortifies my heart and heart, because again, I can't carry this feeling with me. Feelings of hope and fear at the same time.

I've been trying to kill my feelings for her for a long time, whether it's love or love or maybe even obsession, I never know what I really feel, but what I do know right now is, the person I want to avoid most in my life is bang Azka.

But fate plays me. I am now trapped in a sacred bond with him. Too late to retreat back, there was a mother standing between us. I'm not that bad at breaking a mother's heart. But right now I have broken the heart of Azka's bang lover.

How am I supposed to show my face in front of Chyntia's mom?

What will people say about me?

I feel like I can't face the world when the day has changed tomorrow!!!

"What do you mean to act like that in front of your father? Did you marry me because of force? Then why do you act like this marriage is a happy marriage?" Cecarku as bang Azka opened the door of the room. He walked straight and threw his body on the bed. He ignored my question.

"Sir Azka, am I talking to you again?" I was still hunting him with questions, I pulled the blanket he was wearing over his head.

"We need to talk!" My words were sharp while he looked at me lazily.

"What's? Speaking quickly!" His voice then danced his body leaning against the head of the bed.

"The problem earlier, why are you sober in front of mom and dad? Don't you feel sorry for them until they find out that our relationship isn't like that?"

"Do you want me to be so cool or rude in front of them?"

"If you want to cuekin me, I don't care, but if you try to play rough, I don't accept!"

"That's your business, I don't care either. I only care about your health. This marriage is her wish, you will be very disappointed and hurt if you see we are not happy."

"But-"

"Be like a good wife in front of mom and dad, and I'll be like that too!" The cut left me unable to say anything more.

After thinking for a moment, there is a truth to what bang Azka said, there is no way we show you how the truth of our relationship is. Like the Azka bang, I also have no intention to disappoint you. I got this far just because I wanted your happiness.

"Okay, let's make a deal. I want clear boundaries. I don't want you to expect too much so that when it's time for me to leave, you're not too disappointed with the decisions we're making." I was looking for a middle way.

"Okay, no problem."

"I want to split up the room!"

"Can't!" Resist.

"What do you say when you see us sleeping in separate rooms?"

"Then we live in our own house, or in an apartment, too." My proposal again doesn't lose the idea.

"Okay, but not now. Wait for your condition to get a little better."

"I want as long as I stay here we change to sleep on the bed. If tonight I sleep on top, tomorrow it's your turn."

"Continue?"

"I don't want our marriage to be known to the office people, unless each other's close friends are allowed to."

"Continue?"

"Please don't involve me with the Chyntia mba!" Yeah, I really don't want to deal with Azka's bang girlfriend.

"Continue?"

"Because our marriage is only temporary, so you can't touch me!" I'm firm.

"Certainly? Is there any more?"

"I think for a while it's enough."

"It's my turn now." Speak with a sharp grin.

"First, I will not sleep anywhere other than on this bed. If you don't want to sleep with me, please sleep on the carpet or on the sofa there."

"Follow"

"Second," he interrupted quickly without giving me a chance to protest. "I don't care if the office people know or don't know about our marriage. Please cover it if you can."

"Three." he now looks at me from bottom to top and then brings his face closer to make me lean back a little. "Don't tease me if you don't want me to touch. I am a normal man, locked up both women in a room like this is not closed possibility make me could be kilaf."

I was almost out of breath with our position this close.

"You are halal for me to touch, you are now mine, whatever I want you to be legitimate. So, be nice to me." His whisper in my ear made all the hairs on my body bristle.

I almost dazed backwards if only one hand did not hold my body.

"Cup.." a brief kiss landed on my lips.

"That's a punishment for you for teasing me right now. Next time I'll give you more punishment if you come back to tease me."

He pulled me to sit up and left me in the bathroom.

I still sit still. I was so shocked to get a sudden attack like that.

L tease her? In what part did I tease her?

I stomped my feet on the floor and then drowned my face in the thick blanket that Azka bang had used. My face might already be like a boiled crab by now.

My lips are no longer virgins. What else tomorrow?

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