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I'm Applicable

Chapter 18 I'm Applicable

Dea

Finally, the most anticipated day of every week comes too, weekend!!! This weekend will be different. Mother Aya asked me to go to her house to stay there. This time I can't make excuses.

A month ago he had a cardiac arrest, had been treated for 2 weeks at the Hospital Melaka, Malaysia. When I returned home, I did take the time to visit him, but only 2 hours there I was ready to go home. Actually I want to linger with Mother Aya, but I feel uncomfortable if I have to stay one roof with the Azka bang.

I just hope that Azka bang busy in the office this weekend, if you need to overtime, so we do not need to meet at home. But he has a girlfriend, usually a couple like this will spend the weekend together. The thought was quite reasonable and therefore I set my heart to visit Aya's mother this time.

I also miss him, however young, who always accompany and strengthen me in my hardest times. Even if I took care of him at all ages, it would not be enough to repay all the kindness and sacrifice he had given me.

No one could understand my feelings back then as well as Mother Aya did to me. Sometimes I ask, what good have I ever done so that God will bring me together with people as good as Mother Aya and om Arga?

No, not me! But all the goodness and ease I am getting right now is the fruit of the good my parents did, and of course their prayers are answered.

Papa and Mama, the physiques are all I can't embrace, but I can feel their presence in every step of the way.

It is great that those who do good. The roots plunge everywhere, the tree grows towering, the leaves are lush shade and the fruit is sweet again refreshing. Now, I am the one who enjoys the harvest of the good tree planted by my two masters. How grateful I am.

Sometimes I feel that loneliness is the best friend that I will never leave, and I am shown to them the friends of my faithful parents who stand by me.

Sometimes I think, how painful my life is right now, but really I do not lack one anything until this moment, I lost the love of my mother papa, but the love of others always rained on my life.

When I felt that I was the one who suffered the most, I found out how good this life was to me.

Allah is good, and I am still fine. They can still breathe, they can still eat and they can work. What is the reason I am not grateful for today?

Caca was so excited to welcome me, like someone who had just met after so many decades without meeting. He hugged me for a long time, until then I felt his body tremble. I broke down our embrace and looked at him inside..

"Hey, what's wrong with you? How crying?"

Caca shook his head, then hugged me back.

"Sir, Caca is just kangen. Mother always nanyain kak Dea." He said while shrinking his tears.

"Udah.udah..let's meet mommy!" Invite me later.

Caca took me to the 2nd floor where Aya's mother's room was. After that he passed away, it seemed like he wanted to give us some alone time.

Upon entering Aya's mother's room, I found her sitting on her wheelchair enjoying the twilight view from behind the large glass wall of her room.

"Assalamu'alaikum mother!" I knelt down and hugged him. "Dea kangen."

"Wa'alaikum salam. Mother also misses, really misses even." He said with a sweet smile rising from his old face that still looks beautiful.

"How long have you been here?"

"Sorry mother, Dea khilaf." I answered while joking. There's no way I'm saying that because I avoided her son.

"Hilafnya too long, later the mother of the law if tomorrow-tomorrow still khilaf." Threatened her but her face still radiated her sweet smile.

"Every mother, anything for mother. As long as it can make you happy and heal quickly, Dea always, Yes!" I said mischievously while winking one eye at him.

I stood up to take a dresser chair so I could sit near Mother Aya. Long with the position of the feet kneeling like this tired too, pegel instead.

"Yes mother. Whatever. The important thing is that you recover first so that we can cook again the same shopping together, or we are on a culinary tour again. We haven't spent a long time together. Ajakin Caca too, om Arga is not necessary, invite aunt Fira, oma and aunt Lala. Anyway it's the day of all of us, girls' day out!" I said at length, occasionally laughing considering the childhood when we went to the beach with family.

"Then be your child!" Pintanya.

I frowned, I don't understand, didn't he think of me as his own son from childhood?

"You've always been Dea's child, until Caca got jealous." Reminded.

Mother Aya shook her head.

"That's not what you mean, marry Azka. Mother now proposes to you to be Azka's wife and to be the daughter-in-law of mother and om Arga!"

Degs...

"I'm proposed! Can anyone wake me up? Please tell me that this is just a dream!" I was confused, dissolved in a long inner war.

"Hows it? You want to, baby?"

His question awakened me. I'm really confused, I don't know what to answer. Really, until I was 23 this year, I had never really thought about marriage. Especially married to bang Azka, never once crossed my mind.

Married to bang Azka? Nah! I can't. That's not the best option. I want to get married only once in my life, then how could I marry someone who still hates me to this day. How can I marry someone who thinks I'm a parasite in her life.

If I marry her, it is not the heaven of the world that I have but the hell of the world.

"Dea!" He tried to get my attention again.

"Ma.sorry mother?" I lowered my head, my eyes began to feel hot, and a drop of tears had started to fall in the corner of my eyes.

"Why am I mom? I'm just an ordinary woman from a mediocre family, you know that. Bang Azka deserves a much better and more worthy girl above me, mother. I. I am not a woman who deserves to accompany the Azka bang. Bang Azka also has a lover, I do not want to be a woman who destroys the heart of another woman." I let out all my fears, I hope that Mother Aya will understand and understand my rejection.

Mother Aya took my hand, held it affectionately and then looked at me meaningfully.

"Mother chooses you not without reason, but whatever your reason, it is not important you know for now. One thing you need to know, you are worthy and very worthy to be Azka's wife. No one deserves better than you. You want to, honey? Mother please...!"

"Don't be like this Mother! Dea will always be your child, always! But bang Azka, for sure this won't be easy for him. I'm afraid Azka won't accept Dea." Reply lowered.

I don't know, I don't know, if this is the best decision or will be the one I'll regret for the rest of my life, but seeing Aya's mother pleading like this to me, my heart just feels right to see her. How could I make a mother beg me, how could I not fulfill her request?

"That's my business, Azka will definitely not refuse. You believe everything is the same mother." He said convincingly.

I could only nod, trying to show the best smile for the good woman in front of me, then embrace her with a cry without a sound. My heart is screaming at this moment. The fear of being in control of me at the moment.

How do I face the Azka bang after this???

And without them noticing, from just now on, there was someone standing behind the door hearing all their talk...

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Who's yah? Who's yah?

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