Feel Engineering

Debts

Chapter 65 Debt

Aldo

I am happy to see my best friend find his happiness. Never have I found Azka's excited face as excited as she was after marrying Dea. I was a living witness to how Azka held back the magnitude of her feelings for that sweet tomboy girl for a long time.

In the past, I really did not understand, why Azka insisted not to express her feelings, even her attitude was inversely proportional to 180° with her feelings. Though the rival is quite a lot, Dea is indeed a tomboy, but the aura of her beauty cannot be dismissed just like that. He was one of the prima donna when he became a new student in High School at that time. However, of the many who approached him, everything seemed invisible because in his eyes there was only Azka, his neighbor, his parents' best friend's child, the figure of his sister whom he admired and maybe everything.

I like to tease them, they are compatible, both good looking and also equally thin-brained. No woman dared to touch and approach Azka other than Dea. Want to be followed however, Dea remains attached and I know, when Dea does not disturb Azka in a day, it is precisely the tormented Azka because it can not see the cheerful face of Dea.

"Gue just wanted to make Dea my wife, not a boyfriend, but not now. I don't want to ruin him, he's too valuable to me." He said as we stared at Dea who was playing basketball with her classmates.

"If Dea turns out to be owned by other men besides lo, are you ready? Sure?"

"Dea is my destiny, want him to the end of the world though, want him approached by a thousand men, in the end I am sure he will be mine. You'll see." He said firmly and then went to the cafeteria.

That belief really comes true. When Dea suddenly disappeared, I was sure that that was the end of their story.

I have never felt jealous of Azka, even when I knew Chyntia who incidentally is my boyfriend turned out to use me to approach Azka, I did not envy. I was just jealous of his life principles to keep his virginity for his wife and keep the woman he loved in a different way. I'm a sinner, I'm an adulteress, since the first day with Chyntia in first grade High School, we made love. This is what makes me unable to turn away from Chyntia, I am addicted to everything that is on her body. Several times we broke up, but when my passion peaked, I would always come back to him. I'm afraid of losing him, I'm afraid of not getting the pleasure of "it' if not with him.

But, everything changed after Chyntia blatantly expressed her feelings to Azka, I felt like the most stupid man in the world. And since then, I've been trying to change, to become a better me.

Sometimes I think I want to find a good woman like Dea, but my guts are shrinking, which bastard like me deserves a good woman?

When accompanying Azka to be the mosque's marbot, once I listened to the cult, I suddenly jolted, feeling very distilled as the lecture of the ustadznya.

Ustadznya told me that Imam Shafi'i once said that adultery is a debt that must be paid. This began with someone who came and asked the Imam of Shafi'i, "Why is the punishment for adulterers so severe?"

So the face of Imam Shafi'i was reddened, his cheeks blushing. Then he said, "For adultery is a remorseful sin' (great risk). The result will be his family, his neighbors, his descendants to the rats in his house and the ants in the burrows around his house."

The man again asked, "Why is the execution of his sentence with that ? As Allah SWT said, "And let not your mother's taste in them prevent you from establishing religion.”

So Imam Shafi'i fell silent, he lowered his head and wept. After her cries stopped, she said, "The cause of adultery often comes from love and love always makes a person feel compassion. Then the devil came to make us love man more than to love him."

Then the man asked again, "And why did Allah SWT say, "And shall the execution of their punishment (pregnancy) be witnessed by a group of believers ? Is not punishment for murderers, apostates and thieves, Allah SWT does not require making it a spectacle?"

As soon as the beard of the Shafi'i priest got wet, he was shaken. Then he said, "To be a lesson." He said while sobbing.

"To be a lesson." He sniffles.

"To be a lesson." He returned sobbing.

Then he got up from his seat and his eyes lit up again, he got excited again and said, "For know by you that adultery is a debt. And debt is still debt. One of the people in the nasab/descent of the culprit must have paid for it."

As soon as my body felt boneless, my body trembled, I cried all the time. With my son-of-a-bitch man, then who is the good woman I will make his descendants become adulterers to pay my adulterous debts all this time?

Although many of the lectures I have heard say that what determines is how the end of one's life is, an adulterer may at the end of his life turn into a worship expert and a worship expert at the end of his life may become an adulterous expert, but it can't calm me down because I don't know how my life ends.

Even though I retired from adultery a few months ago, being a good person was still difficult for me. At a time like this, honestly I want to go home and keep asking my mother my soul mate with anyone, so my heart can calm down a little.

I thought about Chyntia, how is she doing now? I really feel guilty for ruining it. I wish I could hold back like Azka used to...

"Do.. Aldo!!!"

A clap on my shoulder made me aware of my past thoughts.

"Azka, when are you here?" Tanya I was surprised to see him in front of me was spending breakfast prepared mbak Nisa earlier.

"Lo's got a problem? Lo cry?" Tanya Azka brought her face closer to mine.

My reflexes rubbed my cheeks and there was indeed a wet one I was holding. Goddamnit!

"It's not a cry, it's sweat, dodol." Said evasive.

"Beyond? cold air gini really." He said in disbelief.

But I'm not out of sense looking for excuses. "Gue's out of sport, so it's a memory." There was a treadmill in my room.

"Reason! I know you're lying. This is the file you need to bring for meeting materials with clients at Semarang Restaurant later. Learn it first, don't be dumb!" Said Azka putting a thick bundle on my desk.

"Lo's not coming?"

"No, the mommy doesn't want to be left for long she said, afraid of kangen!"

I really want to vomit, Azka and Dea are like teenagers who are in love. But how do I like to see it?

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