Feel Engineering

I'm Gone

Chapter 49 I'm Going

I woke up as the sound of Adhan broke the sleep of the night to rest. My hands fumbled over the side of the bed beside me. I closed my eyes, shook my eyebrows, then sighed violently, no Azka bang!

Then it's been a day and a night that he left without me. I smiled wryly, feeling sorry for myself seeing my current situation. I pulled the blanket that covered my body and walked to the bathroom, telling myself many times that everything was fine, no matter what happened I had to stay fine.

I must not be selfish by slumping too deep, my son needs me who is in the happy version, not the one covered in sadness.

Although my doubts grew, but I tried through this morning as usual and remained prejudiced, bang Azka must have come home soon.

I prepared his office clothes, continued to make breakfast after that I cleaned myself.

I checked my phone that I haven't touched since last night, there might be news from the Azka bang. A message came in from a number I didn't recognize. When I opened, my phone just fell because it was so shocked to see the photo that appeared. It felt, my feet were not strong enough to accumulate my weight, I decayed to the floor. A little bit of awareness made me think, I might just have a wrong look, I got back my phone with the screen still on.

Nah! All this is true.

"How does it feel to lose her to another woman?"

In the photo, Azka is asleep and Chyntia takes their portrait with her face closer and a triumphant smile.

It's only fitting that Azka doesn't come home and ignores me.

I wiped my tears, gathered all my strength to organize my heart and mind. After quieting down, I walked to the walk in closet and took some of the things I used to bring to this room after being the legitimate wife of Azka bang.

I took my phone, wrote down the last thing I wanted to tell her for a long time.

Dear bang Azka's.

Sometimes, it's hard to find words to tell you how much you mean to me. If I did anything right in my life, it was when I gave my heart to you.

Sorry, but thanks for everything!

Never forget that I LOVE YOU!!!

Again, sorry! Forgive me for the sassness of loving you. But you take it easy, you have no obligation to love me back. Shouldn't love have each other, right?

Say my apologies and thank you to mom, dad, oma, Caca and bang Aufar.

I'm leaving!

I read that sentence a few times and then I pressed the enter button, send! Don't forget I sent you a picture sent by Chyntia and then I captioned it; Happy celebrating love!

As I was about to step out of the room, my eyes caught the white envelope that Doctor Vita had given me as I examined my womb at her practice. My heart's broken, whether Azka needs to know my pregnancy or not, but she has the right to know that there is a developing fetus in my womb, and that is her child. But what if he doesn't admit it? Isn't it in her view that I'm a cheating, cheap wife?

I decided to keep the envelope on the nightstand. The matter of whether the Azka bang will admit the child I have no agau no, I do not care anymore, after all there is no influence on me, he will live with his woman and I will live with my son.

It's my fault that I didn't hold my word at the beginning of the marriage, I was too lulled and lulled by what bang Azka gave me, it made me forget the promise I made before him to get away from his life after his condition improved. But I was too greedy to have the Azka bang at all my age and dreamed of living as a paradise with him.

I wipe my tears, I open my heart, I take my step out of this house.

It's time. I'm leaving!

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Azka's sleep was disturbed when she heard the notification sound of several messages that entered the messaging application from her phone. He was still very weak, after the morning prayers, he vomited again, making him have to rest again for a while in the Chyntia room. Though his intention was to go home to see Dea this morning. Last night Azka failed to return home because Chyntia who raged did not want to be abandoned, even he desperately wanted to end his life.

Namu instantly his face water changed reading the third message and so on, especially when looking at the photo that Dea sent. His hands clutching firmly at his phone then his eyes giddily stared at the sweet smiling Chyntia before him.

****!!!

The insolent!

Azka immediately got up clutching the collar of Chyntia's shirt pushing her hard until it stopped on the wall of the Hospital!

"Gue's been nice to you, and this is your reply to me?" Azka tightened her jaw suppressing her anger. "If something happens to Dea, I'll never forgive you. Remember that!!!" Azka violently throws down Chyntia's body and runs away, hoping she still finds Dea at home.

"Azka!!!" Chyntia Shouts. "Azka, don't go!!!" Chyntia runs amok inside her room but Azka doesn't care anymore.

Whatever he would do to make Dea stay by his side, even if he had to prostrate at his feet, Azka would do, he had already left all his pride, he had, he will be a beggar before the Dea of Dea will forgive him and not abandon him.

Azka drove his car at full speed, several times he was yelled at by other road users because the action of Azka was quite dangerous for himself and others.

Azka ran into the house, calling out the name Dea. Arriving at his room, he did not find Dea. He was like a demon, looking for Dea all over the house until the security guards at his house approached him.

"Den Azka nyari non Dea?" Plain asking.

"Yes sir, do you know where he is?" Ask Azka.

"About an hour ago, Non Dea hastily left, I was offered a driver but was refused, he said take a taxi."

Without responding to the guard's remarks, he ran back to his room, checking Dea's belongings.

"No.no.no.." Azka dropped her body on the floor then grabbed her hair in frustration.

"Don't stay with me, Dea!" Pilu's weeping.

"Don't stay with me, I haven't had time to apologize to you, I haven't had time to express my love to you."

"Deeaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" Frustrated scream.

He got up walking out of the walk in closet, as he was about to close the door of his room, his eyes caught some things on the nightstand. He walked closer to the nightstand.

It was his wallet and Dea's cell phone and an envelope bearing the name of an obstetrician's place of practice.

Azka's hand shook open the contents of the envelope. Two USG photos there and a two-striped testpack. Azka is not a fool who does not understand these two things.

The Azka cry finally broke!

Sorry!!!

"The beginning of anger is madness and the end of it is regret.”

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So, the hope of the readers is fulfilled, Dea goes and Azka regrets😆