DREAM OF THE SHADOW

CHAPTER 32

A gust of night wind blew Yuna's hair beautifully scattered. The night dress was black with a string of white pearls across Yuna's left and right shoulders. Tonight is the soft opening Peninsula Mall in Surabaya. Only certain guests will be present. But Yuna saw everything was arranged in such a luxurious manner as doing a grand opening. What makes it so fancy? Vanya's friend Aprilia, a Raymond Christian, became an MC on the show. The actor who is on the rise and was rumored with Joshua's sister.

A little lazy to blend in with the people there. The presence of her ex-husband's extended family made the night a little gloomy. It is quite reasonable considering this is their company project. Joshua had already told his parents that Yuna was the former daughter-in-law of the Radiansyah family. But still this kind of atmosphere made him awkward. There was Rebecca there. Had his parents been there, Joshua would have invited them, and Yuna wouldn't have felt alone.

"You're alone Yuna?" Yuna turned around and saw a woman approaching her.

"I saw you come out, so I brought this so we could have a chat." Devi gave him a glass of wine.

"Oh Devi's. Ja. I just went out for some fresh air. It's beautiful here. Thank you Devi. You did an amazing job." Yuna greeted the glass and sipped it. He did come out of the room where the party was held because he felt uncomfortable there. The mall does have a multi-purpose hall on the top floor. Relax with a sports center and swimming pool.

"Not a big deal. I always do my job to the maximum. Everything I want, I'll get it." Yuna was slightly goosebumps looking at Devi's eyes in the moonlight.

"I'm going in first Devi. Excuse me." Yuna passed Devi. But before he made it through the door, he felt his legs limp and dragged him down to the floor. Yuna could still slightly open her eyes and hear Devi calling out her name. But Yuna seemed powerless to let out her voice let alone move.

'What is this? Why am I so tired of this? Help me!' Yuna looked at the shadow of Devi's shoes that left her. She felt a very cold chill, with a slightly open dress she lay on the cold floor.

Yuna could not feel her body anymore, suffocating and freezing into one taste. Until he finally felt someone calling his name again. The voice of a man. Yuna opened her eyes as she felt her body being covered by something warm. The man carried her, Yuna felt his embrace. He knew the man's perfume a little. Finally Yuna had a little energy to look at the man's face. Adits. Right, Yuna was in the man's arms. He wanted to rebel but he couldn't.

Yuna knew Adit was bringing her in because the atmosphere suddenly became bright due to the bright light. He could only close his eyes and hope that Shua did not see such a dramatic scene. He felt Adit walking quite fast and ignored the calls of those who asked him about what was happening.

"Yuna, Yuna..You why?" Yuna heard Shua's voice. He saw Shua's face as Adit laid her on the sofa.

"Shu's...Shua." Yuna could let out her voice quietly and felt Shua's warm hands on her face.

"Drink this Yuna." Adit offered a cup of warm tea.

"Let me just." Shua intends to take it from Adit's hands.

"Surge. It's all your fault. If you can't take care of her, I'll take care of her." Adit. Yuna was not ready to argue, she sipped tea that felt warm in the throat until it flowed into her stomach. He can sit now. Glanced at the two men in front of him.

"You sick, honey? We go to the doctor." Shua asked, she rubbed Yuna's palm that still felt cold.

"I'm fine." Yuna felt her strength begin to recover a little.

"What happened to Adit?" Shua asks Adit while removing the suit attached to Yuna's body and replacing it with the suit she just released. Adit was very upset to see him.

"I was told by Devi that Yuna called me near the pond. He said...." Adit stopped talking and looked at the faces of the two people in front of him in turn.

"Say what?" yuna asked curiously.

"She said you were a little drunk. You're lonely, miss me, and need me outside. When I approached you, you were already unconscious." explained Adit. Yuna could only gape without saying anything. As for Shua, he could see that Adit was not lying. He saw Yuna now. Shua did smell the alcohol near Yuna earlier.

He doesn't want to believe Adit's story, but....

"Huh? I'm not drunk. I.I.m sure a little drink earlier. But.but..." Yuna was a little stammered. Honestly, he wasn't sure what was going on. Whether he was drunk or not. But for sure he didn't feel like he was saying anything strange about Adit.

"It's okay. You rest here. Adit, your wife saw you carrying Yuna here. Maybe you should calm him down first, I'm sure he must be upset or angry right now." Shua sat next to Yuna who still looked confused.

"alright. Yuna, I'm out first huh. Call me if there's anything." Adit stroked Yuna's hair. Shua really doesn't like to see it. He wanted to reprimand Adit but he was detained because he did not want to be judged too possessive.

"Shua, I don't..I don't think about Adit, really!" Yuna hugged Shua tightly. He was afraid that the man would believe what Adit said. But he was also afraid that what Adit said was true. Honestly he really did not remember, as if his mind had not worked for a while.

"Calm down. I trust you. Wanna gohome? I'll drop off soon, the party's done too. I can talk to papa." Shua patted Yuna's back gently. He could feel Yuna's extremely tight heartbeat before she released herself from Shua.

"No. I can go home by myself. You finish the show here." Yuna stood up slowly as she felt her head that felt very light, as if she had not stepped on the ground.

'Am I really drunk?' ask in the heart.

"No. I'll drive you." said Shua while holding Yuna's arm slightly staggering.

"Please, Honey. Stay here, okay? I've had enough trouble with this. So don't let you leave this party just to take me to the hotel."

Yuna left the room without waiting for any answer from Shua. Tomorrow he will meet Shua's parents and apologize for not having time to say goodbye, he thought. He returned to the hotel in a taxi still wearing Shua's suit. Arriving in the room he immediately changed his clothes in pajamas without cleaning. Yuna was not wanting to take a bath, she just wanted to lie down and think about what had happened earlier.

Yuna tried to remember chronologically as she went to the pool. Devi gave him wine. Yuna drank only half of it.

"What is hard wine?" People say that when we are drunk we speak honestly. Is it true that he misses Adit in his subconscious? But when she realized, never terbesit in the slightest thought about the figure of her ex-husband.

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"Maybe catch a cold, Ma. Shua will be in her room for a while." said Shua.

Shua glanced at the clock on her car screen, already at 22:18. He just hoped Yuna hadn't slept. His mind is not bad. He really hoped Adit was lying, but that was nowhere to be seen in his eyes. As for Yuna, she also looked honest. So what really happened. Is it true that Yuna is drunk and does not remember what she told Devi? Shua had heard that if a man was drunk, he would speak according to his heart. Shua gripped her steering wheel firmly, she felt extremely chaotic now.

Ting.mong...

Shua would only ring it twice. If it is not opened, then he will return to his room.

Ting.mong...

Not opened. He was about to turn around when the door of his room opened.

"Have you slept?" Shua looked at Yuna's messy-looking face.

"Yet. Wanna enter?" The man nodded. Yuna invited Shua in because it seemed like they needed to talk.

"This is your suit. Thanks yeah. Did you say sorry to your parents?" Shua nodded again.

"Easy already? Or still not feeling well?" ask Shua.

"Just a little dizzy. But it's okay."

"here. I poked his head." Shua patted her free thigh as she sat down and leaned on Yuna's bed. Yuna smiled, for some reason after the incident she missed her lover so much. Yuna lay with her head on Shua's thighs, closed her eyes, and felt her forehead being lightly pinched by Shua's burly hands but feeling very soft.

"Dear, I'm sorry. I should have never drank wine. I don't know why I got drunk so fast. But you know, I never once thought of Adit. My heart was closed to him. And my heart is now only you. Since there was you, I.mmh." Yuna who was being closed felt something close her lips. He knew it was Shua's lips, red lips that became opium for him. Shua kissed him slowly, slowly, and slowly.

"I know, Honey. I trust you. We don't talk about it anymore huh" Shua said slightly whispering. He kissed Yuna's eyes which were still polished eye shadow with a hint of golden glitter, making those beautiful eyes sexy.

"From this afternoon I wanted to kiss you. You are so beautiful in that dress. Your open shoulders make me jealous every time a man sees you. Especially Adit. His eyes seem to eat you." Shua continued to fumble while kissing her lover.

"But I just want to be eaten by you." Yuna no longer wanted to hold him back. He returned Shua's kiss with a little wild. Yuna wants to prove that Shua is very important to her, not the others.

Shua felt Yuna's lips return her kiss with a hint of heat. Nor does he have the power to refuse. Why is everything so beautiful in Yuna's body? Very beautiful and perfect for him.

Yuna sighed softly. He felt a touch in his body. Ah, it's been a long time that he didn't feel the pleasure of making love. And this time he'll do his first with Shua. His first love and he hopes will be his last love. They now have no barriers. My God, how did you create this beautiful man? Yuna looked at Shua. He knew that Shua had a big chest, but he did not know that the man was also sturdy and perfect for him. I don't know who started it, they started kissing quietly and subconsciously they would have already done it.

"I'm sorry Yuna, I can't help it anymore. I love you, dear." Shua whispered and made them no longer distant. He felt a little guilty for not being able to resist his desires. But here he is. He was unable to resist his desire to have Yuna Sakura. A dream in his past that is now a dream in his future. He hoped Yuna would not regret it. But Shua does so lovingly, hoping her feelings can get through what they are doing now.

Yuna did not have time to answer when Shua apologized earlier. They are at the end of their desire.  And finally all the feelings of love, pleasure, and need blend into one another. The two of them lay on the bed before they finally turned their heads towards each other. Shua stroked Yuna's hair, kissing her forehead.

"Are you sorry? I'm sorry." said Shua. Yuna shook her head.

"If I don't forgive you, what will you do?" yuna Ledek.

"Maybe I'll take it back, all your kisses I'll give you back." They laughed and hugged.

"Thank you, honey. Do I have to go back to my room or sleep here?" Shua kissed Yuna's head again. The fragrance of the woman's body had already become opium to him.

"Go back. It's not good if your parents find out." Yuna replied.

"Are you not afraid I'm pregnant?" ask again.

"If you get pregnant I will marry you immediately" Shua replied.

"Shua, it looks like you should know. Maybe I'm not that easy to get pregnant. I was married to Adit for three years and I have never been pregnant. Maybe that was one of our divorce factors. I don't want you to wish you had a descendant with me. Of course I'll keep trying but I can't promise anything. And I think your parents deserve to know about this too." Yuna explained seriously. This is one of the scourges of his relationship with Shua.

"All right, I'll tell you. But you should know too. I love you with everything you have. Everything was. Your shortcomings and advantages. Of course I wish I had a descendant of you. But even if we don't have it, it doesn't change anything. There's enough of you. Only you. I promise you this."

The first night for them to prove each other's feelings. Feelings that cannot be contained and must be shown.

'Do you love me Yuna? When are you going to say it?' Shua's mind wandered slightly as he wore pants and a suit without his shirt.

'Is this what you call falling in love? I might be afraid of being let down a second time. I want to give a hundred percent of my trust. But what if that hundred percent were destroyed without leaving another one percent of power. I will be destroyed without surviving. Love, it's easy for me to say it. But the deeper I love you, the stronger I must prepare for my destruction. Wait for me Shua, wait for me to become stronger and dare to love you.' Inner Yuna spoke in silence.

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