DREAM OF THE SHADOW

CHAPTER 20

Why is it so hard to have your heart

Even my present has been worthless to you

What's happening now is that I'm just your halfway house

When you are hurt

And when everything was gone

You just disappeared

If this is hopeless

Why should I be the goal

When your heart is hurt

I'm the medicine

Without ever appreciating

Love and love this sincere

Yuna enjoyed the song that a handsome man was singing while strumming her guitar beautifully. He did not expect Shua's voice to be that rosy, masculine voice with a slight hoarse. 'Is he wrong to say love to a woman like me? Aaa...Yuna, you don't be so confident. When you fall in love with her, she may not love you anymore.' Yeah, well, maybe it happened. As Adit did, when Yuna loved him wholeheartedly, Adit instead pierced her heart with a machete, no longer a thorn.

"My last song is dedicated to first love and if God wills, it will be my last love. Happy birthday to the person who is always in my heart. May your happiness always be a reason for my prayers." The words spoken by Shua were greeted by boisterous visitors to Jupiter that night.

'What's that saying to me? Am I the only one with a birthday in this room?' Yuna glanced around the room, just in case there was a woman suddenly acting like it was for her. But, when Yuna's eyes met Shua's eyes, she knew all those words for her.

As long as this heart beats

I will always take care of you

Until the end of time

As long as this breath blows

There will be no other love

Until Old Together

Please come back in my arms

Look at me without you

Forgive me, my dear

Listen to my promise

'Oh my God, what should I do? Would it be me if my heart was now beating so fast because of a man who is not my husband?' Yuna was swept away in the atmosphere. The place is usually noisy, the night turned into full of romance.

Remembered by Yuna, just before she left the office this afternoon. Adit invites her to dinner to celebrate Yuna's birthday, until a phone Yuna believes from Becca ruins everything. Adit quashed her intention even though Yuna saw regret in her husband's eyes. He left Adit speechless. And now here comes Yuna. Shua picks him up after Yuna agrees.

Shua gave her guitar to a tall man behind her. The pats of the visitors were slowly drowned out by the loud thumping music now. He walked towards a beautiful woman sitting in front of a long bar table. Yuna's black hair that was styled slightly wavy was left free just like that. Shua likes Yuna's casual appearance, white shirt and blue jeans. In line with it, it's just the darker color of Shua pants with a ripped model. They were a little surprised when they met outside the fence of Yuna's house because of their couple-like clothes.

"We're out yuk." Shua pulled Yuna's hand without waiting for an answer from her. He led Yuna to the parking lot and opened the door for the confused woman.

"Where are you going?" tanyakanya.

"Eat. We can't possibly eat quietly in there." replied Shua while wearing her seatbelt.

"Where do you eat?" ask Yuna.

"You choose me or me?" Shua asked back while running her car slowly. Yuna seemed to think before she finally smiled.

"Eat satay yuk yesterday." take Yuna while slightly pulling Shua's sleeve.

"Huh?" Shua glanced in surprise at the next door and only answered with a smile.

"I want to celebrate Yuna's birthday. When we just eat satay? The others huh, we go to Heaven Taste want to? Actually I had a reservation there." Shua explained.

"Catalin only. I wanted satay yesterday. The luxurious eating is only good to see, it feels ordinary. Okay yeah? We eat satay." Yuna said excitedly. Shua could only shake at the whim of the event owner.

"Yunyaku nuts a spoonful of Shua." Yuna's message after they stopped in front of a satay cart.  The atmosphere was not too crowded at the time. Shua went downstairs and appeared to be talking to a moustached father with a black peci on his head. Yuna looked at it from inside the car, looking as Shua gave the code 'four' with her finger to her interlocutor.

"Huh? He ordered four portions?" guess Yuna. Shua walked back to her car.

"You ordered four?"

"Yes already. I'm the deal." said Yuna.

"Yee..Satay turn is you who treat. Change it next time, find a little expensive place. I paid for the satellite anyway." Shua looked at Yuna.

"Are you okay?" ask Shua. He felt that something was a burden on Yuna's mind.

"good. Indeed why? Is something weird?" yuna asked as she held her left and right cheeks.

"It's okay. By the way, happy birthday again huh. I wish you all the best, not for us, but for you." Shua clasped Yuna's hand which felt a little cold. Yuna was a little misbehaved by that touch. Although they were both adults, but in the eyes of Yuna Shua was still the upperclassman she adored first.

"Mmmm..Thank you for accompanying me tonight. I'm like a lonely woman huh hahahah..." Yuna laughed at her life. As if perishing was his hope for Adit. Adit would never pick him up and leave Becca. Yuna's laughter suddenly shook, turning into a sobbing. He can't hold it anymore. His heart ached as he left Adit at the office earlier.

Shua could only hug him. Without asking the reason, he knew why the woman was crying. As Shua promised, he would only always be there without expecting anything. Wishing Yuna would only be a burden to the woman. Although in Shua's deepest heart, of course, he really wants to have Yuna because that is the reason Shua has not opened his heart to any woman. Moreover, Yuna was now in front of her two eyes, something she had never thought of would become real. Yuna's body trembled in her arms. Shua could only rub his back, letting the woman calm down a little. Until the sound of a knock on the window made the two of them let go of each other. Shua took out the four dishes that the brother had proffered. Two plates were placed on a tray and placed in the back seat.

"Drink first." Shua offers a bottle of cold drink and Yuna spends almost half of it.

"Hahaha.sorry.suddenly thirsty." Yuna said with a laugh. He took out his satellite dish that Shua was holding.

"Eat. You must be hungry too." Shua also started eating the food she was holding.

"May I ask something Shua? Since when did you know Adit was in contact with Becca?" yuna asked without any burden.

The deg!! 'Is it okay if I tell you everything?' Adit was afraid that everything he saw would only hurt Yuna.

"Tell me everything. I think I'm strong enough with some disgusting story." Yuna said casually while devouring her satellite.

"I saw them on Harris's birthday, your in-laws. They were kissing near the toilet. At first I thought Becca was his wife, until I finally saw you on stage and someone told me you were Adit's wife." Shua tried to read Yuna's face. He looked a little shocked but continued to eat dinner.

'Why am I not as strong as I thought I was? Oh my God. Strengthen me.' Yuna begged in her heart, she felt as if someone was punching her heart. It's her father-in-law's birthday, even Yuna invited Becca there. They did something disgusting there. Until now Yuna had no idea since when that crazy relationship started. He did not dare to ask with Adit or Becca. Things would not change if he knew it. But deep at the end of his brain, there was an order for Yuna to dig deeper. Who seduced who? How did they get close at first? Did they ever do it at Yuna's house? In office? At hotels? Is...Ahhhh... Yuna's head throbbed a little at the thought of an unfinished question.

"Are you OK?" shua asked because Yuna did not speak a word, just silent as if dragged into her subconscious.

"Mmmm..Delicious sate. After a plate of hahaha." replied Yuna who did not connect with the one Shua asked.

"So what are your plans going forward?" Yuna just kept quiet hearing the question.

"Do you still love your husband? I mean, after all this happened." Shua regretted the question she said. He was afraid that Yuna would give him an answer that would disappoint him, or that Yuna would have negative thoughts about him.

"I.don't know. Sorry Shua, I love her anyway. Then and now, it might be a little different to the way I love her. I don't know, it's just maybe I should take a stand. Otherwise, I would just be a fool in front of them. Only in front of you do I dare to be a stupid woman..Haha... Really, I feel so embarrassed right now. Maybe it's because I'm so lacking that my husband cheated on me." Yuna looked at Shua sternly. He would not cry in front of the good man.

"Shhht...What the fuck? There is no perfect woman Yuna, neither is a man. It is not your flaws that make him cheat, but because he cannot keep his own promises and words. Stop talking sad yuk. Tonight's your birthday. Even if your husband isn't here, there's me.." Shua smiled sweetly. Yuna replied.

"You don't be so good with me. I'll be..." Yuna paused with a sentence she said herself.

"Fell in love with me?" shua continued, she laughed after having her arm pinched Yuna.

'Yeah, I'm afraid to fall in love with you again. But now everything has changed Shua. I am now a wife of people. Even if one day my relationship with her has to end, does a widow deserve to be your companion?'

Yuna opened the gift Shua gave her just after they reached Yuna's house. A box containing a white dog doll. Not too big, with a height of only about 60 cm. Yuna read the card tucked in both front legs of the dog with the red tongue sticking out.

I'm sure you already have a lot of precious jewelry

Luxury bags with expensive brands

Famous designer clothes

I gave you a dog to hug if you were lonely

For you to talk

Consider him to be me

Just call him Shua, I'd like you to equate me with him

Because I also wish I could be by your side just like she is now

I am so happy to see you again...

Your Shua's

Yuna smiled reading the short letter. Throw a dog doll on his pillow.

"I give you the name Shushu. Shua's name is just his." Yuna felt that Shua could always calm her down. For a moment Yuna forgot her husband's whereabouts now.  He wishes he could forget her forever, erasing his memory of how much he loved the man once.

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