Don't Take My Son

Time Family

Kharisa POV

It turns out Rafael took Rakha for a walk to the game rides at the largest mall in Bandung. And this is the second time I've come to this place with Rafael. When I was in 11th grade High School I came here with my high school gang friends, all five girls, and Rafael joined, though I told you not because we're all women and my other friends no one brought or made a deal with his girlfriend, but he made it come anyway, fortunately my gang friend allowed Rafael to join, despite the fact that we were separated, the two of me with Rafael enjoyed the rides there. And now I enjoy the moment together again with him but not just the two, three with Rakha beloved baby.

After the dhuhur prayer is celebrated with ashar prayer in the mosque that looks magnificent, not far from the entrance gate, we go directly to the place of purchase of tickets to the game arena. I used to walk with Rafael, now we walk together, the difference is that I do not join directly with Rafael, in the midst of me and Raphael was a four-year-old boy holding my hand and that of Rafael, he was our son who was born out of wedlock. He walked in our midst with a radiant face, clearly bliss on his face. He must be happy because he was invited to the game rides that he had never visited before, happy because it was accompanied by Momy and Dadynya.

Rakha's first trip was the Children's World. In the vehicle there are various games that are suitable for children under the age of ten years. There are Play Carousels, Mini Train, Mini Bumper Car, Tea Cup, Carousel, Jump Around, and Bumper Boat.

I saw Rafael so enthusiastically accompany Rakha, making sure Rakha was safe while in the vehicle. I sat on the chair while watching the two of them, they really looked like a compact father and son. I feel Rafael does want to replace his lost time with Rakha, four years he does not know the whereabouts of Rakha, so even Rakha four years even more when he was in the womb did not feel the affection of his father, and now it's time for them to pour out mutual affection between them.

Since this morning, Rakha's expression was beautiful, happy because he would tell his dady to his daughter Kang Farhan, and his mother's father Faisal.

"Momy I want to tell Khanza that I also have a father, dady I've come home, I want to see a photo of dady with Khanza."

"I also want celita with Aki, same Enin if dady I'm home." That's what he said this morning before leaving for Bandung, of course with his carefree face. Until the time at Kang Farhan's house was right, when gathered in the living room he immediately told me about his dady in front of Faisal's mother's father, also Khanza who was playing with his sister.

" Momy borrowed her HP, I want to see a photo of dady."

"Khanza this is my father.see.this is my Dady." he said proudly, he showed a photo that was with him during the race like a father on stage.

"Aki, Enin, look.This is my Dady..." With the spirit of Raha showing his dady photo to Faisal's mother's father, they did not look surprised, it seems to have known that Rakha had met his father, Faisal must have told me, Faisal was always open to his parents, he said, if they meet will definitely exchange stories, that makes me happy when I get together with the Faisal family.

Ah I remember the conversation with Faisal in the gasibu behind Kang Farhan's house. He can always make my heart calm and relieved, he always thinks positively, never prejudiced badly at others, even though it is clear that others are not well intentioned.

" Raphael was right, Neng's reason for rejecting Rafael's invitation to live together was weak, the engagement bond could have been canceled in a good way on the part of the woman and her family who were proposed, he said, the process does not drag to break the wedding rope. Moreover, the reason Rafael makes sense, for the happiness of Rakha, and Rafael also loves Eneng very much, is not Eneng also love Rafael. So if according to A Isal there is nothing wrong if Eneng accepts Rafael's invitation to live together, in a marriage bond of course, surely Rakha will be happy to be together with momy and dadynya." Somehow I always easily accepted what Faisal said, probably because I trusted him so much. In my heart I will accept Rafael.

"Unless Neng has not loved Rafael, has even found another man to be a companion to life, it might be a good reason to reject Rafael." Said again. That other man is obviously nothing I love but Rafael. Even though my college friends tried to get close to me a few times, I would definitely avoid it, I always kept my heart to my son's father, especially if they didn't know I already had children, it could be that after knowing I have children, they will stay away from me, so before that happens I better stay away from him. So even now at my workplace, doctor Arjuna was clearly trying to get close to me, paying more attention to me, but I was always limiting myself, didn't want to pay any more attention to him because I only considered him a work partner.

Never have I tried to be close to another man, except with Faisal, yes he was the man closest to me.Of course he was the man who always protected me, always there for me, always there for me, always present when I need it, even if just listening to his advice, I feel calm close to him, does that mean I love him? I asked my little heart a few times, Do I love Faisal? I was confused to answer him, which obviously I feel happy to be near him, there is a feeling of calm, sometimes I also miss if I have not met him for a long time, especially when I moved in the beginning and away from him, not only me, Rakha also missed him. I also don't like it when there are other women close to him, does that mean I'm jealous? I don't know if I'm confused about my own feelings as well, and I'm not trying to clarify my feelings, which is for sure before Rafael comes back I really expect Rafael to come back and look for me.

Maybe it was because Faisal considered me a sister, so I also considered him a sister. Different if Faisal has a taste or love me, let alone express it to me maybe I will try to clarify the feelings I have for him. Moreover, mama once wished Faisal to be the destiny of my soul mate, which mother is not happy to have a daughter-in-law like Faisal, it is obvious, kind, intelligent, responsible, always trying to please others, cute again, sober, I would not refuse if destined to be a match with him, is not God who determines who our soul mate, and it does not seem difficult to fall in love with a man like Faisal. This is suppose that if I finally match up with Faisal I will accept it. Oh my God why I think everywhere, not necessarily Faisal also wants to be with me, he is too good, should get a better female soul mate than me.

"Momy..momy..ayo we go to another game." My daydreams were gone when I heard Rakha calling me and shaking my hands.

"Eh is done? Where are you going?" I asked a little nervous when I looked at Rafael who was looking at me fixedly.

"I'm going to ride Momy's gaping hole." Said Rakha who in amazement noticed a pirate sailing ship that seemed to be sailing around looking for wheat fields. Sky pirates, the name of the vehicle.

"Okay, let's go, we get on that ship, we're gonna be pirates." Said Rafael while leading Rakha, I followed him.

"You seem to be daydreaming all the time, thinking what?" Rafael asked, while on a pirate ship, Rakha was engrossed in seeing the scenery below, from the ship it could be seen other rides.

"Nobody.." I answered a lie. If I'm honest, I said that daydreaming Faisal, surely he'd be craving again, jealous of course, like earlier, it looks like he was jealous when he found out Faisal was picking me up and I was at Faisal's family home.

"Don't think strangely, just think we'll live together and be happy with Rakha." He said again without looking at me. I just chuckled my lips at his words, but it seems like I will think about it after getting enlightenment from Faisal.

"Here Boy, let's take a photo first." He pulled Rakha who was looking down at the edge of the ship.

"Rakha can't take a picture of Momi with Dady?" Ask Rafael.

"Can, can Dady, I also like the photo using Momy's HP." replied Rakha excitedly.

"Sip Rakha take photos with HP Dady." Rafael also gave his HP that had been on the camera set, then he moved to sit next to me, he was so close, even his left hand grabbed my shoulder making my heart beat.

"Don't gini El..." I tried to get his arm off my shoulder.

"Picture only." He answered like that without letting go of his hand that was embracing my shoulder.

"It's Dady.but Momynya not smile."

"Once again Boy, once again, smile Sa...." This time I tried to smile, even with a feeling of arrogance because of the arbitrary attitude of Rafael.

"Now we are three. Come here Boy, we're taking a selfie." Rakha moved to sit between me and Rafael, Rafael's hand again embracing Rakha and my shoulder.

"Dady I want his picture on display in my kamal." Rakha exclaimed as she looked at the photo of the three of us, she looked very happy.

Out of the Sky pirates, Rafael invites Rakha to feel like a racer, Car racing rides queue is very long, fortunately Rafael buys VIP tickets, so do not have to wait in line for long.

The next vehicle visited is the Ocean World Science Center, Rakha looks amazed to explore the underwater world, can see giant squid, and can see giant squid, the world's largest squid in size native and a variety of other marine animals. Even more amazed when he entered the Arctic Adventure with Augmented Reality technology, he enjoyed it very much, even he cheered when as if touching and playing with polar animals such as polar bears, whales, penguins, penguins, seals, and others.

The last vehicle we visited was Marvel Superheroes 4D.

"Dady's got Captain America, like the toy Dady gave me." Rakha yelled while pointing at the familiar superhero. "There's Spidelman too." Excited again. We also watched the superhero movie in the 4 D version. Rakha had started to look exhausted and sleepy, he missed his nap schedule. And it doesn't feel like the time has shown at five in the afternoon.

"El, Rakha seems to be tired, we should just go home, it's late in the afternoon, tomorrow he has to go to school." I told Rafael when he came out of a 4D movie theater.

"Okay, let's go home, can't we find a place to eat?" Ask. He led Rakha who looked sleepy.

"No, just go home." Fortunately, it had stopped by a fast food restaurant on the way to the mall for lunch, had also bought snacks and drinks in the area where the play, so it was still too full to eat again.

"Boy, here's Dady fat, you're sleepy?" Rakha did not refuse to be carried by his dady, he was really exhausted. And not long in his arms, Rakha fell asleep.

During the return journey, Rakha fell asleep, lying in the back passenger seat to sleep comfortably, while I sat in front beside Rafael. We just keep quiet with each other's thoughts, I do not invite him to talk for fear of disturbing his concentration who was driving, confused also want to talk what, afraid the end of discussing our relationship, both of us, and, honestly, I have not been able to make a decision as to what kind of relationship we will be in the future.

It did not feel until we were in the city where we lived, only an hour and a half trip we traveled, even though the toll road is quite crowded with vehicles that will go to Jakarta. Rakha was still asleep when we got in front of the house.

"Let me be fat." Said Rafael, as I was about to hold Rakha. He also carried Rakha following my steps into the house, Mama and Bi Nani welcomed our return.

"Just put her to bed in the room." Mama opened the door to my room, I actually did not feel good Rafael so entered my narrow room, of course narrow when compared to my room in Jakarta. He laid Rakha down, tidied his position to be comfortable, then kissed his forehead.

"By rest, you must be very tired, Dady comes home first." My heart breaks when I hear Rafael's whisper in Rakha's ear, of course Rafael must leave because he can't stay here with me and Rakha.

"I go home first, tomorrow afternoon or evening I'll be here again?" I nodded my head as the answer.

" Thank you." I said before he left my room.

"For?" He asked back

"Take Rakha for a walk" I replied

"I thank you for allowing Rakha to walk with me, with you too." I nodded my head again, I don't think he needs to thank me, because of course Rakha is very happy today, can go out with his lady, enjoy a variety of fun games for him.

Rafael said goodbye to mom, I drove him to the terrace. He got into his car, but he came out again with a plastic bag with the logo of his favorite bakery. Oh yes, before leaving the mall I stopped by my favorite bakery and I also of course, when in Jakarta mama often buy bread with the brand, 'Speaking Bread'. I call it that, I chose two pieces of cheese cake for Rafael, he really likes it.

"Now, I almost took it to the mess." he said, handing over a bag of bread and cake, and I received it.

"I'm saying good again, Assa....."

"Wait El.. This is for you." I handed him two small boxes of cheese cake.

"What's this?"

"Cheese cake." I replied. He took it too.

"Thank you, I still remember my favorite cake." He said smiling happily, I somehow felt happy to see him smiling happily like that. Ah of course I still remember whatever Rafael liked or disliked.

"I'll say it again, Assalamualaikum."

"Waalaikumsalam, be careful." He marked OK with his finger, then headed for his car. I went inside after Rafael's car drove and was not seen again.

Today feels tiring, but this heart feels happy, happy because seeing my son smiling happily, I feel today is Family time for Rakha, time for him to fill the togetherness with his momy and dady. Hopefully in the future there will always be Family Time for him.

seriate.....