Don't Take My Son

When Disappointment Hits

Is that really him?

Isn't that Rafael, her lover, the man she's been waiting for, the biological father of her son?

If it's Rafael, his girlfriend, why isn't he happy to see her? Why did he even feel his heart ache, his chest felt tight? Didn't he wait for five years for this moment to meet a man who has left the seed of love in his womb, albeit unintentionally. Didn't he plan to meet Rafael when he would say "El. The seed you planted has grown into a healthy, intelligent boy who has a handsome face like you, the nature is similar to you, his favorite food is also the same as you, he likes cheese just like you. And she misses you so much, misses her Dady." That is not what Rafael wants to say when he meets him. But why after he saw Rafael in plain sight, he broke his plan? Even his desire to meet him was dashed, because now he even felt disappointment.

Of course disappointed, Rafael who was ahead there was no longer his lover, he already belonged to another woman, was not this morning clearly he heard the chat of Meita and Vania in the elevator, if Yanmed's new manager is Vania's fiancee, Vania's future husband, even he saw a circular engagement ring on Vania's ring finger and certainly on Rafael's ring finger was coiled the same ring. Yes it is not Rafael his lover, maybe even Rafael has forgotten him.

Ah her chest now feels more tight, the pool of water in her two eyes is now getting thickened. He could not be in this room, no one could see him shed tears, no one should know that he was enduring pain and tightness in his chest. As others marched forward to congratulate him, he chose to leave the auditorium

"Kharisa, where are you going?" Apparently Ahmad saw Kharisa turning around.

"I go downstairs first Mas, bring me a laptop." Kharisa replied without turning his head, he walked quickly while bowing his head, directly pressing the elevator button, and the elevator opened, he immediately entered, fortunately, there was no one else but her in the elevator. He washed his two wet cheeks, his tears could no longer be held back from falling down his cheeks. After the elevator door opened on the first floor he walked towards the mushola. He must calm himself, with the usual prayers his heart is calmer and the time has entered the time of dhuhur, he took ablution, then performed the dhuhur prayer. During the prayer he could not hold back his tears, finished the prayer he also recited, hoping his heart was calmer, then prayed.

O Allah, this is your answer to my prayers. You present the person I have been looking for all this time, but why am I disappointed, the situation is not what I want, O God. Servant knows your resolve is best for me, I beg you to guide me not to be prejudiced against you, expand this heart, guide this heart to sincerely accept your decree, and instruct your weak servant what to do, O Lord, that he may not go wrong. Class the servant into those who are patient and sincere, Rabb. Aamiins.

That is what Kharisa can do at this time, begging for spaciousness of heart, asking for guidance to the Determinant of Destiny. He always remembered what Faisal said when he was down because of an unwanted pregnancy.

"God will not test beyond the limits of our ability, when God gives us a test it is a sign that God wants to raise our degrees higher. In order for us to successfully pass the test, the key is sincere, patient and trusting God. Sincere means we live the test, we enjoy it patiently without complaining and trust means we surrender to God, we leave all our affairs, our problems to God. God gives us the test, but God has the answer. So all we have to do is pray for guidance." That was the advice of a 12th grade High School student at the time, and it was always repeated when Kharisa complained

"Remember Neng, sincere, patient, confident."

Kharisa could not deny what Faisal always remembered was true, as he tried to sincerely accept his destiny he also felt calm in his life, no more anger, no more anger, hate even she is grateful to have kept an innocent fetus in her womb. Even after being born, Rakha is the source of his happiness, Rakha is the one who becomes the encouragement of his life so that he can get to the point now.

It is evident when he is sincere and patient he can live his life calmly and happily.

Right now, God is testing it again.

Allah wants to lift up your Kharisa.

Remember that! Sincere, patient, random.

Remember Neng, sincere, patient, random.

He tried to strengthen his heart.

At the moment he misses Faisal by his side.

Apparently, the mushola was starting to look crowded by hospital visitors who wanted to pray, making Kharisa move from there, but he did not want to go back to the auditorium, or to his study, or, not wanting to meet his co-worker who will definitely ask why his eyes are red and swollen, let alone meet with Rafael, no, he is not ready. Didn't Mr Andre say he would introduce his staff to the new Yanmed manager? No, he was not ready, what would he say to Rafael when they met, what would he do? Now is not the time, he has to make plans again what to do, considering Rafael is now Vania's fiancee.

He then moved his foot outside the hospital building. He wanted to breathe free air, so that his tired brain filled with oxygen that he could breathe freely. Working in the hospital made her feel even more grateful, when some patients need extra oxygen because of his inability to breathe free oxygen he can freely breathe free oxygen that God free for all the creatures of his creation on earth. Yes gratitude also turned out to be able to calm his soul, also make him happy.

He chose to sit in a park next to IGD which is usually used by families of IGD patients to wait. The park was not so crowded, there were only four people sitting in a small gasibu. The garden chairs looked empty, Kharisa was sitting on one of the chairs under a row of towering spruce trees. The afternoon weather was cloudy, indeed since this morning it was also cloudy, the sun seemed reluctant to emit its rays as if supporting the mood of Kharisa who was foggy.

"Cock is here? The others at the meal above." Suddenly a heavy voice made Kharisa surprised, then turned towards him.

"It must be daydreaming, to such surprise, usually the beautiful girl daydreams because she misses her heart, right not my guess?" The owner of the heavy voice was now sitting next to Kharisa.

"Doctor Juna why are you here?" Kharisa asked in surprise, shouldn't he be on the sixth floor gathering with his new boss.

"Doctor Juna followed me?" Arjuna nodded his head.

"When I entered the hall, I saw a beautiful girl who was dumbfounded with a pale face, then came out with wet cheeks, I was worried about the girl, I followed, thank God it turned her into a mushola, I'm afraid he's crossing the street without looking right left." He said again while grinning. When entering the auditorium, Arjuna was immediately looking for the existence of Kharisa, in order to sit close to him, but when he found it, he undoes his intention to sit nearby, he chose a seat some distance away but could watch over Kharisa.

"Astaghfirullah, doctor Juna iihh." Kharisa looks scowled.

"Ha..ha.ha...sory..sory...fortunately my guess is wrong, the girl turned out to be strong-spirited, she chose to sit daydreaming in the garden to calm her heart." Kharisa's face looks reddened with embarrassment, it turns out that since there was someone who saw him, watching him, especially the person is Doctor Arjuna.

"What's up Neng? Suddenly sad? Did any family deliver the sad news?" Tanya Arjuna was curious. Kharisa shook his head while looking ahead.

"Is there someone in the hall that makes you sad?" Ask still curious.

"There's nothing, doc."

"Well, if you don't want to tell a story." Arjuna looked a little disappointed, but he hoped he could be a place where Kharisa complained. He took something from inside his doctor's suit pocket.

"It's for you." Arjuna thrust something rectangular in purple.

"Say chocolate can make people happy." His word. Kharisa looked at Anjuna for a moment, then at the chocolate that was still in Arjuna's hands.

"Get it, then prove it true it can't make you happy, if it's true I'll bring it to you every day." Arjuna's words made Kharisa hesitate to take it, but Arjuna grabbed Kharisa's right hand and placed the purple brown wrapper on Kharisa's palm.

"Heiiiii..pantesann sought above does not exist, even dating here." Meli said with high vocal sounds.

"Kharisa was sought after by Mr. Boss, from earlier nyariin nyariin you, let's hunt up, want to be known to the new Yanmed."

Deg.

Kharisa felt like his heart was going to fall, he was still flinching, it felt like he wanted to go home, but what was the reason.

"Come Neng Kharis, Mr. Bos waiting, Doctor Arjuna, rich doctors are also on the gathering above deh."

"Well, let's go upstairs." Take Arjuna.

With a gontai body and a pounding heart, Kharisa followed Meli and Arjuna to the sixth floor.

bersambun........

Finally Up in the morning before noon, while stewing time in real-world activities. Sorry last night wasn't strong.

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