Don't Take My Son

Hearts as Wide as the Ocean

Kharisa POV

One week I was in Singapore, not for a year-end vacation as planned, but accompanying my hero who was struggling to recover from his illness that almost made me lose it. And tonight, the night of the turn of the year, I accompanied Rakha in the hospital, alone. Rafael was picking up his papa to the airport and taking his mom and dad to the apartment, mama tonight is staying at the apartment with papa who just arrived last afternoon.

I saw that Rakha had fallen asleep, but the time was not too late, the time still showed at nine o'clock at night, yesterday - yesterday he slept above ten o'clock, because he slept a lot during the day. Rakha's condition is getting better, not using an oxygen hose anymore, only the infusion is still installed, because there is still medicine for his lungs that must be injected. The doctor's plan is to go home.

Thank God God for giving me confidence to take care of him. I don't know what would happen to me if God took it, took my life, maybe I wouldn't get excited about it anymore, maybe all my life I would be a self-blame person, blaming others, even blaming God the Owner of the Universe. I know that what we have is not ours, not even our own, but God's who can take it back at any time, but if God takes Rakha now, I don't think I'll be able to, he's my amplifier until I can survive.

Grateful I could still be with him, hugging him, hearing his words, ah.why God loves me so much, still allowing me to be with him. I promise I will take good care of him, educate him to be a child who obeys Him and is devoted to his parents

Rakha's parents of course me and Rafael, momy and daddy.

Degs...

I remembered Rakha's love when she just regained consciousness from her long sleep. He wants to go home to his Daddy, sleep with momy and daddy, it turns out he misses being with momy and daddy, it's his dream to be carried away to his dream realm when he coma.

And yesterday Rafael discussed Rakha's request, when she and I were just the two accompanying Rakha, mom was having lunch at the cafeteria, and Rakha was sleeping soundly after lunch.

"Sa...You know what Rakha dreams of?" I heard Rafael ask me something

"Huh....?" I who was sitting on the sofa playing my HP turned towards him who was sitting on the sofa next to me

"Why?" I asked again, I wasn't focused on Rafael's question.

"About Rakha's dream, have you heard of his hopes?"

"What hope?" I asked again, in my heart I guessed what Rafael's question meant.

"We live together, Rakha wants to live with her momy and daddy." It's true that Rafael asked me this, I actually had a chance to think about it, but I couldn't make a decision, I had a lot to consider. I also shook my head, not daring to look at him who was looking at me expectantly.

"Where's Sa? Didn't you promise to obey whatever Rakha wishes if he regained consciousness from his comanya? Rakha has expressed his wish, now is the time for you to prove your promise to Rakha." Ah yes I once said I would grant Rakha any wish if she woke up from her comanya, but I don't think Rakha's wishes are like this. I got stuck with my own words. Well, I'll consider living with Rafael.

My wish to be with A Isal was not likely to be realized, openly in front of Rakha he said Rakha's desire to be with me and Rafael will be realized after Rakha is healed, that means indirectly it was the answer to my request, but I had convinced him again that Rakha would be happy if A Isal became his father, because Rakha had hoped that A Isal would be his father. But A Isal instead said "I'm sorry, A Isal can only be a brother, a friend to Neng, and being Om who loves Rakha very much, this is the best." I couldn't force him anymore either, although in my little heart I was sure that A Isal liked me, maybe love but never expressed, and he knew that I still loved Rafael.

Before leaving the hospital A Isal also strengthened me to be with Rafael.

"Follow the heart, not out of lust or ego, read His message of love. There have been many clues that have been the answer to the prayer that has been offered so far. Didn't Neng ask to be given the best? God willing, the answer is in Neng's heart." That's what A Isal said as I drove her to the lobby and waited for a taxi to take her to the airport.

"By Rakha, for the sake of happiness Neng too, softened heart to easily forgive, remember MLM? Understand, Forget, Forgive, God willing our lives are quiet." Always that is what A Isal reminds me, I know he also did that, he was easy to apologize and easy to forgive.

"A Isal believes Neng has a heart as big as an ocean. Rafael's mother will definitely apologize and realize her mistake. Forgive me, who knows it could be his way of being a better person." Why is A Isal so sure that Mami Rafael will apologize ? He seemed to change, he seemed to want to approach me, but was reluctant because I always tried to avoid him. For me forgiving her mother Rafael is an easy word to say but hard to do, after what she did to me and Rakha, but I try to digest the words of A Isal, with my forgiveness, can Rafael's mom be a better person? Can I be a good path for him?

And it is true that A Isal said, the next day Rafael's mother asked to speak with me in the cafeteria and he really apologized with a face full of regret and tears. At that time I was just silent, not saying anything, somehow this heart hurt, and the past picture of how Rafael's mother treated me sprang up in my mind.

Until he knelt at my feet, I gasped in shock.

"Tante don't be like this, get up.." I said while trying to make him stand, of course we became the center of attention of cafeteria visitors even though it was not so crowded. The old man squirms in front of the younger one, what's up?

"Tante won't wake up until you forgive Auntie." Mami Faisal was still on her knees holding both my legs, so I remembered when I apologized to papa, I did the same thing as her mama Rafael, did, means mami Rafael regrets and apologizes in earnest. Is it time to forgive him? Forgetting all his treatment that made me hurt.

"I'm sorry, who knows it could be his way of being a better person."

"A Isal was sure Neng had a heart as big as an ocean."

The words of A Isal ring in the ear.

"Tante come wake up, no child seen."

"Tante won't wake up until he's sorry for you, Kharisa." The sound of his voice raspy makes me unbearable.

"I forgive Auntie, wake up." Finally I said the word forgive from my lips.

Yes, I have forgiven my mother Rafael, although not sincere from the bottom of my heart, but I tried to hold my chest to forget all her painful attitude.

Checkered

Someone opened the door, it was Rafael. He looked fresher and changed his clothes.

"Rakha's asleep?" As he walked to Rakha's place, he kissed his son's forehead which looked slender. Then walking up to me, sitting on the sofa right next to me, I shifted my body a little not too close to him.

"You haven't slept Sa?" Questions that need not be answered in my opinion, he can see I have not slept.

"Not sleepy." But I answered it.

"So we can chat dong, continue the chat yesterday that was cut." I know where the chat will lead, he'll ask for my answer.

"It's new year's night, we spent it in the hospital, but I'm grateful to be with you and Rakha." He leaned his body towards me. I still silently did not respond to his words, for some reason I suddenly felt the pounding of my heart, my heart beating faster than usual. I pretended to open a WA chat to dispel the beating of my heart that began to craze, I felt dejavu, had felt something like this when Rafael said his love and waited for my answer.

"It's a new year, a new day, I hope to achieve a new life, a better life than the previous year. Not alone, but with you and Rakha." I saw the clock on my HP screen, at 11:05 Singapore time. Less than an hour away from the year. A new year, a new life, of course a better life, with Rafael?

"I'm sure you won't let me and Rakha down, now there's no barrier for us to be together. There is no reason why you refuse to live with me and Rakha. Don't you?" My heart's pounding why it still can't be controlled, and this mouth why it's so stiff to talk, I want to say something but why does this tongue feel a bit stifle. I will follow my heart to answer Rafael's question.

"Kharisa Maura Pradita, will you accept me, be my wife, live with me, be the mother of my children?"

seriate.....

Hi my beloved reader🤗

Sorry to be late again Upnya, hopefully continue to understand Othor who is busy this🙏🤗

Rafael's supporters must be cheering. A Isal supporters do not run away dong, calm aja soul mate has been arranged, has prepared the best mate for him.😘😘