Don't Go Again !!!

Episode 8 Farewell

Today is my birthday. There's nothing special. No gifts or speeches. I never attach any importance to it.

When I got to school and went to class. I sit on my bench. When I looked next to the bench, there was only Revan's school bag but he wasn't there. I saw something under my desk. A packet of chocolate that has been decorated with ribbons on it. There is a note there

" Happy birthday. May happiness always be ". I smiled at the note.

" Thank you very much. I love the card." I exclaimed as Revan sat next to me. He just smiled and nodded. Hmhh ... Only he always wishes me a happy birthday.

This is my last year on the Junior High. We are in 9th grade. At the end of this we were busy with evaluation exercises - practice questions and bebel from school.

I usually go to school at one o'clock. Since we have 9th grade, lesson hours plus 3 hours for the school bimbel. And the exculpatory activities for all of us are removed to focus more on national exam preparation.

" I want to see a basketball court" I complained to Revan.

" We want a test. Focus dong." he replied flatly.

" You're not tired of Van, learning mulu. Later back home school is still private lessons too." I asked. He shook his head.

Revan is a child of the family. His father was a prosecutor and his mother a doctor. No wonder if Revan has goods - goods whose price cannot be reached for children like me. Her mother called her home tutor when she came home from school. There was no time to play for him.

He has an older brother, his name is Reihan. Revan's brother has already entered college. Revan said his brother studied abroad because he got a scholarship. That's why Revan was always demanded to learn more by his parents. So that he can follow his brother.

National exam is only a week away. Revan was not at school. My homeroom teacher told me that Revan's mother had died of illness. I was shocked too. All this time Revan never told me in the slightest if his mother suffered from an illness.

Revan was not in school for three days. I've put together a practice study as long as Revan doesn't go to school. I intend to give it to him so that he does not miss lessons when he does not go to school.

Today he entered as usual. He was sitting alone on the bench to do a training evaluation of the problem. I approached him there and then I sat down next to him.

I looked at her face - clingy. His face looks ordinary. Doesn't imply anything. He looked over and looked at me who was still staring at his face. Hit my arm with the ball he was holding. I was also jerked.

" It's still early in the morning" he said. I grabbed her hand and she stared at my hand that was still holding her.

" I'm so sorry, van. I'm sorry I didn't know your mom was so sick." I explained. He clasped my hand.

" I'm good - all right. You don't have to worry. You focus on the test." answered strongly. Even though he looks strong on the outside. But from his eyes the sadness was still evident there.

Since her mother's departure, Revan has changed. He became more quiet. The day I don't talk to him, he won't talk. If you talk, you will be answered only as appropriate. Like her she's reluctant to socialize with us, her friends.

National exams are coming. I left very early. Afraid of being late. My heart doesn't work because it feels. Between anxiety, fear and confusion mixed into one. It doesn't taste so good. I saw Revan has arrived. He sat on the school yard. He was busy turning over the evaluation paper to study again. Our first test, Bahasa Indonesia. It looks easy, but it won't be that easy. If we are not careful, surely we will be stuck with the trap sentence.

I want to feel like I'm approaching him. But seeing her attitude this late, I felt she needed some alone time to calm her heart and mind. I looked at him from far away, and I smiled.

Good luck to van. Hope you can answer all the questions. I hope your sadness passes quickly. I miss seeing your smile . I murmured in my heart.

Test time is 2 hours. I opened it sheet by sheet and I read carefully all the exam questions. I answer with heart. Because this will determine the pass or never course we in this Junior High level.

The exam time passed. All the students came out of the exam room to go home. I'm out of class, I'm approaching Revan's. I see he's still cleaning his stationery. I smiled and waved my hand at him. He just stared indifferently.

After she left the classroom, she immediately waltzed away from before me. Regardless of me standing in front of his class. I called her name repeatedly. But he just kept quiet without even talking at all. The children who saw me running after Revan were staring while whispering. I don't know what they're gossiping about, I don't care.

Why won't Revan see me??. Is she mad at me, because I never knew she had a problem with her mom??. He should be able to tell me where my fault lies. So I can fix it. Not that he's ignoring me like this. He immediately entered the car that picked himself up and passed away. I stared at the car until it was not seen again. I'm sad Revan is like this about me.

The next days are still the same. Revan won't see me. He didn't bother me who kept saying hello and calling his name. With silence he was with me. Increasingly increasing the distance between him and me. Now if Revan and I stand next to each other in the middle of us like a huge wall looming high limits us.

The graduation announcement arrived. All the students gathered in front of the school. All scrambling to find their names. When I saw my name there and PASSED ....

I hugged early. Dini embraces me happy because we are both the same - the same pass. And when I looked back at the mading, Revan's name was ranked first. He got nearly perfect test scores. He became the champion again.

I'm wailing in search of Revan's whereabouts. Early who knew what I was looking for immediately patted my shoulder.

" Revan is not. He didn't come to school." cried early to me.

" Where do you know." I asked. Dini held her forehead.

" So I saw Revan's father walk into the principal's room" she replied. I looked in the early direction.

" I don't know what to do." sob early before I ask again.

Since the graduation announcement. I never saw Revan again at school. I asked my homeroom teacher, and he said that Revan moved in with his father who was on a shift.

That's how he was to me. He left without a word. I still owe him an explanation. Because in being cold and indifferent suddenly arrived at me.

I have to let go of her. And from now on I will bury my love for him. I hope he is in good shape - fine without one less thing.

Good bye, revan ....

Goodbye my first love ....

I will never forget you ....

I will always remember you and I will remember you in the depths of my heart ....

May destiny bring us back together someday ....

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