Don't Go Again !!!

Episode 111 I Promise

Atmaja often give books or pieces of articles - articles about anything to read at once in the discussion right with Kinanti. That is what makes Kinanti and Atmaja have their own charm in their eyes.

" Kinan!!" exclaimed a beautiful girl with hair that was always braided. Kinanti whose name was called turned her head and smiled towards the girl.

" Ifa. You've come home from tutoring?." asked Kinanti. The beautiful girl smiled too. Name's Asifah. He's a Kinanti playmate from childhood. They also went to school and went to school together.

Although Ifah's son from the family is, but she is not an arrogant girl. She's a very nice and friendly girl. He often helps people who need any help from him. He became a regular donor at an orphanage not far from his home with his own savings.

Ifah was the only child of a well-known person in their village. Ifah's father was a Mantri in the village. While Ifah's mother was a representative of the camat in the village. His mother and father loved him so much. Whatever Ifah wants, it is impossible not to be realized.

" Ehh there is Atmaja. No college mas?." asked Ifah with a shy blush. Atmaja smiled looking at the girl.

" It's hard to go home." replied Atmaja.

I don't know since when, Ifah put his heart with Atmaja. He was so happy when he met the man. Because Atmaja is famous handsome among their friends and among the youth in the village.

The three of them often spent time together. When Atmaja invites Kinanti to go for a walk to the night market or just a snack or meatball. Kinanti always invites Ifah.

Not anything, Kinanti herself was a little afraid and embarrassed if only two ways with Atmaja. Especially if you hear the gossip of the neighbors who are not - not for him. Therefore, to avoid such things. Kinan always took Ifah wherever they went. And Atmaja did not mind that either.

So often they meet, finally growing the seeds of love among the three. Kinanti saw Atmaja as a firm, wise, warm man. He began to take heart with the man.

" I love Atmaja's mas." Ifah told Kinanti one day. Kinan who was sitting on the green expanse of grass immediately turned his head towards the girl who blushed in shame.

" Kinan, help me tell Atmaja. I'm ashamed to say it myself." asked Ifah to his best friend.

Kinanti just remained silent. Like someone throwing their head with a thousand stones. Be ill. It was very painful when I heard Ifah's words.

" Kinan you why?. Why are you silent?." asked Ifah when he saw his best friend just silently looking at him.

" Eehh. I'm fine." said Kinanti clapping a smile on her lips.

" Where?. You will help me, right?." asked Ifah expectantly. The girl's eyes were so sparkling when talking about Atmaja. Kinanti also nodded at the request of her best friend.

" yes. I'll help you." replied Kinanti.

Finally a very bright afternoon. Kinanti asks Atmaja to meet her somewhere they used to meet. Atmaja who at that time also felt happy when he knew Kinanti asked him to meet just alone. He also had something to talk about with the girl.

It was seen that the girl was sitting on a green expanse of grass with long hair unraveling. Atmaja smiled when he saw Kinanti had come waiting for him.

" Kinan." cried Atmaja to the girl. He turned to the man who called him. Atmaja came with a new red rose in his purchase on the way to meet the girl.

" This is for you." explained Atmaja. Kinanti looked at the man's face fixedly. Atmaja just looked at him with a smile.

" I wanted to tell you a long time ago about how I feel. But only now do I dare myself." said Atmaja. Kinanti was still silent.

" Kinan, will you be my lover?" asked Atmaja.

" I have long harbored feelings for you. I want to be the man you love as a lover. Not as a sister. You want to accept my feelings?". asked Atmaja again while looking at the face of ayu Kinanti. Kinanti was silent without a sound.

He wanted to say, I have the same feelings for you. But he promised Ifah. That he would help Ifah to express his feelings. He did not want to betray his best friend since childhood.

" Kinan why are you silent. Will you accept me to be your lover?." asked Atmaja again. Kinanti brushed off the smile on her lips. The girl grabbed the flower that the man gave her. Atmaja also seemed happy to see what the girl was doing. Then suddenly Kinanti threw a rose to the ground. Atmaja was so stunned to see that.

" The Atmaja. You misunderstood me. I have never put my heart on you. I just think of you as a brother and a friend. No more." replied Kinanti. Atmaja choked to hear the girl's words. Like something was breaking in his heart. Atmaja was silent looking at Kinanti's face.

" And then?. Why did you ask me to meet you two?. Then?. What has all the attention and the meaning of your smile and the look in your eyes meant to me?. You are playing me huh?." asked Atmaja did not accept his love in raw - raw. Kinanti looked at Atmaja's face with a cynical smile.

" It wasn't my fault. It's your own fault. Why do you misinterpret everything?. Why are you using your feelings?." said Kinanti bluntly. Atmaja was so stunned to hear that. He was also so disappointed and angry with Kinanti's words.

Never once did Kinanti speak like that to anyone. He never said rude or hurt people's feelings all this time. Especially to the man in front of him. He never thought in the slightest to speak rudely in front of this man he loved. But he made a promise to Ifah. She promises to help the girl express her feelings to Atmaja. So he alone would bury his feelings deeply - deeply towards this man.

" good. All right if it's like that. I don't think we have a reason to see each other again" Atmaja said. Kinanti was so gasp at hearing that. He didn't want that to happen. He always wanted to see this man he loved.

" I'm not going to see you again. I won't ask you to see me again. Thank ye. Receive the love of Kinan. Thank you for breaking my heart." said Atmaja then left. Kinanti turned towards Atmaja. The man had already stepped away bringing disappointment and heartache of rejection from her. Kinanti fell to the ground. She was crying there. He was crying over the passing of the man he loved. He cried while hitting his chest that felt so tight.

" The Atmaja. Ii'm sorry. I love you so much. I really didn't mean to hurt you. But I also love Ifah my best friend. I don't want to disappoint him and be sad. I'm sorry mas. I'm sorry." said Kinanti as she continued to cry.

But Atmaja had already disappeared from the sight of his eyes. The man had already gone far from before him carrying the wounds and heartache he had given.