Director, My First Love!
meet at the hospital
three months later -
After that meeting, Rama and Gita never met again. Gita felt guilty for Rama. Gita tells Rama to go away and throw away all his love for Gita, because Gita will live happily with Gilvan. Rama relented, unable to force Gita's will. Rama only hoped that if they were paired, they would meet again.
Rama is devastated, he is indeed wounded. But, this time because Gita told him to go he could take it. Not like before, when there was no farewell from the Gita. Rama tried to crush the Gita, even though it was very difficult.
Rama went through a difficult time without the Gita. He learns to accept the fact that he and the Gita cannot be united. Rama tried to be strong when in front of his friends, but when he was alone, he could not resist his longing for Gita.
The gita is like that too. If in front of Gilvan he looks warm and affectionate, but when he is alone, he cries considering how cruel he is to Rama. He regretted doing all this. If the Gita had not made such a difficult decision, he and Rama would have been able to unite and live happily.
Pretending is hard. But, if you have to dissolve in sadness, life will be more messy. Life must go on, Rama spirit lives his days. He understands that his love is flying around, and will return to his cage when he is bored.
***
Gita pregnancy has entered the second trimester, or has gone six months. Gilvan does not want to force the Gita to work, Gilvan does not have the heart with the Gita's growing stomach.
"Darling, you better stay home, don't work anymore! You must be tired, pity our baby!" Gilvan
"But I'm bored at home! I want to do something, Mom!" Gita used to call Gilvan Mas.
"You can play at your mom's place! That wouldn't be boring, would it?" Gilvan
"Same mother Daddy will soon be returning to Bandung! I'll be alone here." Gita
"You want to go home too?" Gilvan
"Maybe?" Ask Gita
"Why not?" Sweet Gilvan
"You're serious, Mum?" Gita
"I'm serious, we just move to Indonesia. Soon you will give birth, we must be close to our brothers." Gilvan
"What is your job?" Gita's a little worried
"I have enough savings for us, later I will find a job in Jakarta. But, are you okay living in Jakarta? I already have a house there!" Ask Gilvan
"I'm so glad to hear that, Mom! Thank you" Gita hugged Gilvan
Gita is used to Gilvan's presence by her side. She does not love Gilvan, but Gita tries to think of her as a husband.
Gita's mother and father will return to Bandung. Because Gita's father's contract is completed this month. How happy Gita was to hear Gilvan also let her go home. The Gita misses Indonesia, misses its people, and also misses its food.
Missing, a word he really wanted to say to Rama, the first love that always stuck in his heart. Longing, a word he wanted to say to Rama, without longing his heart would be empty, Longing that was very torturous, soul-stifling.
***
Gita and Gilvan prepare for their return to Indonesia. His mother and father went home first. The Gita will follow in a few days, as it completes the process of terminating employment with the companies they work for.
After the preparation was completed Gita immediately informed his friends in Bandung, with enthusiasm. Fortunately, Gilvan never forbade or was angry with him. Whatever the Gita likes and wants, she will agree.
***
The Gita is now in Jakarta. He was so happy to be able to set foot again in his beloved homeland. Gita lives in Gilvan's house, the house is not too spacious but still comfortable. Gilvan makes his house very comfortable, so that Gita feels at home living here.
Gita's been at Gilvan's house for almost a week. His stomach was getting bloated, he could not go anywhere, to just buy vegetables in the future he was getting tired often. However, his activities in Jakarta are really boring. I think Gita wants to see her Mom and Dad. He wants to go to Bandung. He wants to meet his friends.
"Mass?" Call Gita
"Why baby?" Gilvan answered, spraying the plants
"I miss my Mom and Dad, I miss my friends too!" Gita said
"You want to go see them?" Ask Gilvan gently
"Yeahaaaaa!" Gita nodded her head
"All right, we're leaving tomorrow. Get your clothes ready, you can stay there as long as you want." Said Gilvan while gently rubbing Gita's hair
"Thank you, Mom. You're a good husband." Gita
Gilvan never rejected all of Gita's will. In fact, if Gita asks him to leave, Gilvan will definitely leave. If Gita chooses Rama, he gladly releases her to make Gita happy. But Gita chose him and left Rama.
Gilvan borrowed a private car from his parents. He does not want to bring Gita who is pregnant with his motor, he is afraid of anything happening to the fetus that is being conceived Gita.
"It's okay Mama's car is used, Mas?" Ask Gita
"It's okay. He told me to bring a car. Do we buy a car later?" Ask Gilvan
"Don't be, we have many other needs. Before you get a job, we've got to skimp." Gita
"You are a good wife" Gilvan said
The trip to Bandung takes three hours. Gita has arrived at her parents' house. Gita is very happy to be able to gather in this house again with a complete family formation. His mother was happy to hear Gita's pregnancy, he did not think that Gita was pregnant out of wedlock, because everything has been manipulated by Gilvan, the contents of Gita written only five months, so that his parents believe.
"Darling, tomorrow we have to go to the hospital!" Gilvan
"Let's go to the gynecologist, we do an ultrasound for this little baby" Gilvan stroked Gita's distended stomach
"But I have no complaints!" Gita
"There should be no complaints. USG is important for fetal development. Is his position right, is his weight balanced with his age, is there an ari-ari rope wrapped around his body, it's all important baby!" Gilvan explained
"You know what the hell!" Gita
"This is why I'm here. I'm helping you, I'm the solution to your problem, right? If I hadn't asked you to marry me in the past, would you have paid that much attention to your baby?" Ask Gilvan
"I'm sorry!" Gita looked down
"Here you go, let's go to sleep!" Gilvan
"I want to apologize again!" Gita
"Why again?" Ask Gilvan gently
"I have not been able to fulfill my obligations as your wife. I'm not ready, I'm so sorry!" Gita
"I understand. Already, you don't have to think about that. Just think about your baby, don't think about me. I'm okay." Gilvan
Gita smiles. Gilvan didn't demand that she be his wife as she should be. For some reason, Gita was like traumatized by something like that. He didn't want to do it. Gilvan never forced, he was indeed a kind man who descended from the sky.
The next day, Gita and Gilvan go to Theresia's hospital. It is the largest Hospital in Bandung. Not far from Rama's company. While on the way, Gita passes through Rama's company, Gita sees around him, many memories that perch in him. He saw the front gate of the company, he remembered when Rama forced him to take Gita home with his heart like pierced with sharp ducks.
Arriving at the obstetrician, Gita waited until the doctor arrived. Fortunately, that day not many patients who control to the obstetrician.
Before long, the Gita is examined and immediately at the USG. Not much time-consuming, baby Gita is very healthy, weight in accordance with his age, but his heart rate is very fast, like he was nervous or worried.
The queue waits for the drug very long, as it is put together with other patients. Gita was very upset, and was bored. Gita decides to go to the hospital park, and Gilvan waits for the medicine queue.
Gita walks enjoying the view around the Hospital, the air is very fresh. He saw many butterflies that perched on the flowers that had bloomed. There is one butterfly that makes the Gita interested, the butterfly is pink and golden, a very unique color. Gita wanted to reach him, walking towards where the butterfly went. It was hard to find, until one day the butterfly fell on a flower next to a man sitting in the garden.
The man was sitting alone, and the butterfly approached him. Gita also approached, but why the closer she stepped towards the butterfly on the man's back, Gita like to recognize the body. Gita looks like Rama from behind, but it's impossible, he thought.
Gita was curious, he still approached the man because he wanted to immediately catch the butterfly he had wanted since. Gita held the man's shoulder. But the butterflies were not caught.
"Eh, sorry! I'm so sorry." Gita
The man looked over, and how shocked the two of them were.
"Sister Rama?" Gita gawked
"Gita?" Rama was shocked
Gita approaches Rama,
"Sister Rama how are you? Long time no see." Gita is very happy
"I'm doing fine. You've come home!" Rama said without expression
Why is he used to seeing me? Why doesn't he miss me so much? Why does he seem to care about me now. I hurt, my heart hurts. Has he found a replacement for me?- Gita in heart-
"I miss brother Rama!" Gita said bravely
"My baby's been big." Rama did not take Gita's words
"I'm running out of USG today." Gita was a little sad
"How is he doing?" Rama asked with a casual look
"He was healthy, just that his heartbeat was beating really fast, like he was worried." Gita
"That's because he's going to meet his father!" Rama said sharply
"Eh, is that right?" Bumbling gita
"Please take care of my baby, someday I'll take it. Don't say no! I'm also entitled to custody of this child." Rama stands up and leaves Gita
"Sister Rama why is this? Why'd you change?" Gita started shedding tears
"You asked me to, I followed your wishes. Only, I'll take my baby when he's born. Luckily I met my baby here. My business with you just got there. Because you've said goodbye to us." Rama with a cold look
"Sister, please don't say that. Heart hurts!" Gita
"Oh, you go back there! Your husband is waiting for you! I'm leaving" Rama left Gita
Without Gita noticing, Gilvan is looking at them. Rama, realizing Gilvan's presence, decides to leave. Lying is painful, pretending to be strong is really painful, lying to the heart that wants to express the desire of hidden longing so far, really makes it worse.
Rama tried to accept the reality. Trying hard to face all this, even though he had to pretend not to care about Gita, actually in his heart he really wanted to embrace Gita, saying the longing that he had been longing for, he had longed for, only Gita is in her life. But ego beats everything. He was forced to be indifferent to the Gita, only caring about the baby she contained.
*Connected*
