Director, My First Love!

I love you

Gita pensive. He could not have accepted Gilvan's heart. If Gilvan knew the truth, Gilvan would have stayed away from Gita. Why would Gilvan like it? This friendship should go well, do not grow love around him.

"Sorry, I can't take you, Van! Please don't ask me why, I can't give you a reason, I just can't like you!" Gita is confused

"What makes you confused? Let me be the solution to your problem, Git!" Gilvan

"You can't possibly. Already, Van. Enough's enough! It's late, I want to go home." Gita stood up, left.

Gilvan followed Gita to his feet. Gilvan still doesn't understand why Gita doesn't like him. In fact, Gita said she just broke up with her boyfriend. During this time, he who is always loyal to take Gita everywhere. He is always there for the Gita, whenever and wherever the Gita is.

"Please give me your reasons why you don't like me?" Gilvan is holding Gita

"You better throw that feeling away. Until I can't get back at your feelings." Gita said in flames

"But why Git? Please, this must have a reason. Give me a reason to understand and not chase you again." Gilvan is serious

"You want to know my reason?" Gita asked

"Yes. Sure." Sure." Gilvan

"Don't be dumbfounded. I'm not the best woman you think I am. I don't deserve you." Gita

"Why are you saying that? You're a good woman, whom I know. I've known you for almost two months. I know you're good Git." Gilvan

"You don't know me anymore. Know it? I am a dirty woman. I'm a woman who's no longer holy." Answer Gita

Gilvan. He was shocked to hear Gita say that.

"Why? you're shocked, aren't you? I told you, I won't return your feelings. You better throw that feeling away."

"That's no problem for me. It's over, isn't it between you and your man?" Gilvan.

"There's one more thing you need to know. I'm not just a dirty woman. I am pregnant too!!! I'm pregnant outside of marriage. You satisfied HUH? Are you satisfied to hear my reasoning? It's already! Throw away your feelings and don't reveal this anymore. I don't want to remember anymore."

Gita goes running away leaving Gilvan. Gilvan was so shocked, he did not expect the woman he liked was pregnant. Gilvan wants to chase after Gita, but his heart breaks. He was shocked by what Gita had just said. Gilvan calms himself, he tries to calm down.

Wh why? Why are you saying something that surprises me? Why can you be like that? I see you're an innocent, innocent woman. Butwhy? You're pregnant? Are you kidding me? If you're pregnant, where's your man? Why would he leave you alone? Are you lying to me, Gita? But.... I remember when I took you out to eat meatballs, you were nauseous and vomiting, could that be true? Then, you were so eager for the stich doll, I gave you another one, you didn't want to. Are you really pregnant?

You should have rejected me outright. Turns out that's why. I'm sorry, who has to force you to be honest like that. It must be heavy for you, you see.. I feel guilty for you, I'm sorry Gita. Where did Gita go? I daydreamed too long, I forgot I had to drive her home, right? The Gita's... Where are you? - muttered Gilvan in heart

He decides to cross the road to get to Gita's rented house, hoping to meet Gita as soon as possible.

A few minutes later, Gilvan sees Gita. Gita was sitting alone at the busway stop. Gilvan's headed straight for Gita.

"Git, I'm sorry!" Gilvan got off the bike and sat down next to Gita.

"Why are you here again? You should have stayed away from me. You don't want to have a despicable lover like me? Already, you better go, Gilvan!" Gita crying.

Gilvan smiled, tidying up Gita's messy hair.

"I have to take you home. I won't stay away from you, not one bit!" Gilvan.

"You're just entertaining me, right? I don't need to be escorted by you, I can go home by myself." Gita

Gilvan let out a long sigh, he began to speak seriously.

"Maybe I don't know why you're pregnant, maybe I don't know why your boyfriend isn't responsible for you, maybe that's not my limit to knowing. I don't need to know why. All I know right now is that you are a good woman who can pull my heart out. I don't care about you, even if your man isn't responsible for his treatment, I'm ready for the consequences, I'll take full responsibility for you and the baby you bear. I know, you're very hurt. Share that wound with me, we go through it together. I will love that child, like my own. You can trust me, I mean it with my words." Gilvan smiled as he held Gita's hand.

Gita did not flinch, she did not dare to answer what Gilvan said. He was afraid of connecting with men again. He was afraid that he would finally part as his story and Rama. To be honest, he was happy that a man would take responsibility for himself and the baby he contained, but he was very afraid of things that had happened again. The trauma is there and will not go away easily.

"You don't have to worry, I want to be the father of the baby you bear. I'm not gonna hurt you and your baby. I just don't want any pregnant woman let alone you, the woman I like standing alone with that pregnancy. I'll be the solution to all this, I'll take responsibility for your parents, you don't have to worry. I will do it with all my heart, all this I do because I love you, I am serious about my love. I accept you for who you are, and the baby is no exception, I will love him." Gilvan hugged Gita

Gita could not bear to hear Gilvan's heart-wrenching words. Gita cries in Gilvan's lap. He refused to answer Gilvan's words, and was very confused as to what to say. It was like a dream to meet an angelic hearted man like Gilvan.

Is what he said true? Will he love me and this baby? I really don't trust men. I don't want to accept the man in my life. But, he said he would be responsible? Will he even be responsible to my parents? Are his words trustworthy? Oh God.. I should how? I don't love Gilvan, I just love Rama. But, to reach Rama it feels like my heart will not be able to, but there is Gilvan here, who is ready to accept all my shortcomings and take responsibility for what he did not do. Should I try it? - Gita in heart-

Gita opened her voice,

"I'm scared. I don't want to be in touch with men anymore. I'm determined as hard as I can be, to take care of myself and this baby." Gita.

"What would you say to your parents if you lived alone bearing that burden? I'll take responsibility. Trust me! I'm ready to be reviled by your mother, as long as you accept me. As for your burden on me, I cannot bear to see my loved one carrying such a heavy burden. Please, just give me a chance.." Gilvan looked at Gita with hope.

*Should I accept it? What about my heart that can't love him? I'm dilemma. One side I'm very happy, but the other side I'm very fragile. What do I have to answer to Gilvan?

Gilvan, you're the angel-hearted man I've found. You always smile, you never get angry, you always understand me. But I don't love you one bit. How can I accept that my love is dead like this? - Gita in my heart*-

*Connected*