Dandelions

27. Surviving For People I Love

The eyelids covering the blue bead were open. The ceiling of his room that first greeted his vision. He blinked several times before his vision returned to normal.

"Sir-Hali.." call him unconscious.

Hali slightly gasped, a soft whisper that knocked on his eardrum made his sleep piqued, "Eung, Typhoon, are you awake?"

The tip of his lips lifted, forming a faint smile. He still smiled even though his eyes were still drowsy. His hand grabbed the wet cloth he used to compress Typhoon. The back of his hand touched his sister's forehead, making sure her body temperature no longer contrasted with his.

"How are you feeling? Is it better?" ask again. With that frail body lying weak, Typhoon only nodded faintly.

Now comes the blue bead turn to look at his brother sayu,

"Ma-af.."

Hali was still silent, staring at the blue iris that had almost lost its founder.

"I'm sorry. I always trouble Hali. I promise after this it won't be a hassle again. That's why don't leave me." That soft voice escaped his pale lips.

There is a pulsation of pain in the heart of Hali which is usually hard when hearing the speech of Taufan. That weak voice sounded heartbreaking. Tears that he thought had dried again pooled in the eye pelupuk. His lips were tightly clenched, the words that had been at the tip of his tongue were swallowed back.

"No hurricane, no one will ever leave you again. I-i promise. So don't be like this anymore, okay?"

As much as possible he maintained his smile, despite the obvious sadness he tried to hide. The figure of Typhoon that he had always known was filled with cheerful temperament and his nosy behavior now seemed so fragile. His life seemed to be filled with fear. His eyes still seemed empty making him unable to look at the shady iris.

The blue eyelid curtain closed again. Not sleep, just airing the tightness that filled his chest with tired breath.

"Ah yes, you haven't eaten anything since morning, you must have reported it? I've cooked you some porridge. I'll take it for a while."

Hali diverted the conversation, deliberately avoiding sensitive words that could make Typhoon tantrum again.

He returned with a tray filled with a bowl of porridge and a glass of water, then began to feed his sister patiently. The typhoon did not reject the behavior of Hali who softened on him, although it still felt so foreign. Of course, after all these years he received the treatment of non-wearing.

Just two spoons of ravenous Typhoon porridge, he immediately turned his face, about to end the lunch that time.

"A little more, huh?" Persuak Hali's.

Typhoon shook his head, for some reason his tongue was not friendly. Every time the food entered his mouth it was tasteless and bitter. If forced, his stomach will feel nauseous after a while of swallowing food.

"You have to eat more to get your body powered up and recover faster."

The typhoon lay back, drowning his face in the blanket and turning his back on his brother. I don't know what made him behave like that, but he had already disappointed Hali. The breath sounded heavy, and the atmosphere became awkward.

Right now her brother is so kind to her, he can't even remember the last time Hali noticed her like this. But that was precisely what made him not dare to stare at his ruby bead. Yes, his guilt still weighed on him. It was as if he no longer deserved love.

Even so, he hoped that all this was not imagination, not a dream. Even if this moment is only a dream, let him sleep forever. He is too tired of reality. In all, Taufan was very happy.

Ting Tong's...

The sound of a bell echoing in the ravael residence gave a hint of color in the silence that engulfed the occupants of the house. Hali moved, he thought Typhoon was back to sleep because it was silent for quite a long time. Unexpectedly, Taufan immediately sleeves Hali with a clear look.

"Don't go, don't leave me." Lirih Taufan.

The look on Hali's face showed a bitter smile, his heart was slipping at the sight of my eyes staring at him. "Just for a second, I'll be right back. Okay?"

Actually he could not bear to leave the Typhoon for a second to see the figure wrapped in pale skin was only able to look at him pusually with a sad look. But he also could not let his guests wait too long.

Now all that was left was Typhoon Rabael, his eyes staring at the white ceiling in his room. The clock ticking sounded increasingly disturbing hearing. No one knows what he is thinking.

Out there the day has presented a typical orange view in the afternoon. He just realized that he had spent almost all day lying down and that made him sore, until finally he occupied himself. But somehow even though he just woke up, his energy seemed to be drained out until he really felt weak instead of playing.

The sound of slipping footsteps could be heard approaching, following the sound of the door opening, featuring the figure of Hali who came with a sparkling but calm expression.

"Turfan, you have a guest."

A guest? Wh who? The storm is trying to guess who is coming. Those sky-blue eyes were perfectly rounded, his originally clenched lips becoming slightly open.

"Aphon! We're coming!" The noise almost made Typhoon a heart attack. Yes, a voice that was familiar to him. Suddenly Leon entered typical with a cheerful whimper of his.

"Yes! Typhoon, it turns out humans like you can get sick too huh?" the petty ruckus along with the slur escaped from a conglomerate boy in exorbitant style, who else if not Sevan.

Behind him, Arga followed with a face that as he usually sees every day. Relax, despite the look of a worried face but he managed to cover it with a thin smile.

"Yes! How are you doing?" her greeting is warm.

"You guys, how did you guys get?" Typhoon surprised.

Really, he was not at all ready to meet them, especially Leon and Sevan. Her Netra glanced towards the door, where her brother stood while commenting on a smile. And somehow the story goes, Arga-Khai-sister was also there to say hello while waving his hand.

His lips are now tightly clenched. It was as if his throat was blocked by something that was holding his voice back from coming out. He was at a loss for words.

"He's sick, why are you bringing doughnuts!? You should have brought some fruit!" sevan spray while ruffled waist.

"Haaa? Can sick people eat donuts? Still mending I will bring something, compared to you who did not bring anything. He said rich." Sindir Arga does not want to lose.

"So I hunted here, where I was brought by." Sevan's law doesn't accept.

Dukes...

The imaginary crossroads that appeared in Leon's fist successfully made the rival speechless instantly, "We're here to visit. Why are you even fussing over food?" exclaim Leon mediate.

Meanwhile, Typhoon was silent. His head bowed deeply, his teeth grinding loudly. His fingers were tightly clenched to the point that his nails were bleached. "Hiks.." His sobbing was held back, his tears fell followed by a word that had been stuck at the tip of his tongue. "Sorry." she said lirih

"Eh?"

"I'm sorry.. Hiks. because of me.. Yuki.." His breath choked. His emotions might soon explode.

They exchanged looks, communicated through the eyes. The occupants of the room swallowed the bitter reality. Their faces were adorned with bitter looks, remembering Hali's words before they met him.

He explained the condition of the Typhoon and asked them not to offend sensitive things that allow the Typhoon can tantrum again.

Though they did not intend to offend Yuki's death at all, Typhoon said it blatantly. They were sure it was a heavy burden for him.

Sevan let out a long sigh, "That's it, so you feel guilty for Yuki's death?"

"If I hadn't left the house, you wouldn't have gone looking for me and Yuki wouldn't have left so soon."

Seeing Taufan still blames himself makes Hali's sympathy provoked. Just as he was about to calm his sister, Khai's hand restrained him. Highlight his eyes saying everything, asking Hali to give them time to talk.

Sevan again sighed in frustration, "Ah, I thought it would be this way. Your view is too narrow, Fan. Indeed, Yuki's death was very sudden, I myself could not accept it. But besides, you can't judge yourself as if you were the cause of his death. At least I want you to know this.

...Doctors once said that Ice was only able to survive until the age of 15. But when our band formed, Yuki was 16. Well, the point is that death no one knows, how or when we die is a secret of God.

...And I'm sure the short time we spent together meant a lot to him. When we perform at the cafe that night, practice music together or when climbing the mountain even though it does not reach its peak, it is the best experience for Yuki who has been imprisoned only in the hospital. Without you realizing you've made the most beautiful memories for her. I'm on Yuki's behalf, very grateful for everything."

Silent..

From behind his glasses, the bright iris stared at Typhoon who seemed still immersed in his chaotic mind. At least the traces of her tears were still imprinted on her eyes. What did he say was not enough to stop his guilt?

"Stop crying! You brat! You're a guy, right!? At least say something!" sevan spray.

"I'm sorry... Sorry and thank you."

Typhoon cupped his hands, hiding his face that had returned with tears.

Relieved. Very relieved, a feeling that described his current mood. It was as if a burden had lifted off his shoulder.

Arga smiled faintly, "Already, stop. You're not ashamed to cry like that little boy? It's also big, seen by many people." He said while randomizing his best friend's hair.

"Everybody has the right to cry." The protests of Typhoon are beginning to return to his personality.

If the previous afternoon the sky was adorned with grief because of the passing of a significant person. The twilight of the time recounted the sorrow that became laughter. The high looks brighter than usual, so it can melt the sea of ice into tears of warmth. Surrounded by people who sing her, it may be the most beautiful blessing for her who has long craved attention.

A heart that feels pressured by something heavy..

A dizzying feeling that makes the..

Where it all ended, my pent-up emotions exploded..

At first I thought I wouldn't be able to face life.. So I want to take a shortcut..

I want to rest and forget everything.

At first I always thought the same thing to cry over my life every night. And every time the day changed, I guess my life in the real world has been slowly falling apart.

But today I was able to fight and continue to fight as I could after I wiped my tears..

Someone once told me, "Whatever little time you have in this world, keep living your life to the fullest."

All I have in mind right now is to keep on holding on, because I have people who deserve to fight for. For those who love me and for me who live for others.

I have found a reason to live.

That was the first time I could be grateful for my existence in this world. ~Turfan Rabael

TB