CURTAINS OF THE PAST

WISHING IS JUST A NIGHTMARE

Let God be fully sovereign over our lives, for God knows what is right to give us the best.

Iffah still faithfully accompanied her husband in the room. Gently, her hands caressed Toni's head.His husband had fallen asleep in her peace. Maybe his breathing sounds a little rough because he just finished crying. But he had actually fallen asleep on his wife's lap.

The pain may have temporarily disappeared, but no one knows if after he wakes up later. Perhaps the pain will return, or even exceed.

“Milka...” Sounds delirious voice. His tears flowed back from the edges of his eyes that were still closed. His embrace of Iffah's thigh is getting stronger. Maybe it was the pain in his heart that made him like that.

Toni's hands clenched tightly until her nails hurt her palms. The newly realized Iffah immediately forced Toni's hand into the bed sheet. Iffah's breathing was congested at the sadness of her husband. He knew Kamelia's screams had added to the pain in Antoninya's heart.

Kamelia was a mother, and she loved her four-year-old son very much. So unconsciously, Kamelia thought Tonilah was carrying Milka. Kamelia's condition also looked apprehensive at the time.

Maybe I'm not a mother, and I don't know if I can be a mother. What happened to Kamel was a natural thing. He would not be able to just forget his pain. Moreover, he was being affectionate towards the cute girl.

It's just that I couldn't see the wounds on my husband's face either.

I wish this was just my nightmare.

Iffah repeatedly wiped her tears so as not to fall on the cheek of her husband who was sound asleep in his lap.

Stop being sad baby, I can't see it anymore. The first time I saw you, I also saw this sorrow on your face. Then when I misjudged you, I also saw this pain on your face. Then again, on our wedding day. I shouldn't have scratched the wound in your heart. When grandma Tiada, I also saw you like an undead. You seem to die all day. Not stopping there, I made a mistake again. I

get back to inflicting wounds on your life, baby.

And now…

Any lagikah? If there is, then just give it to me…

I'm not strong enough to see my husband's pain…

Iffah held the bitterness in her heart. Her tears continued to break without being stopped at all. It's getting sicker.

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The same thing Kemil did in his room. He held his camera tightly. From now on, if Kamelia woke up, then she was just delirious and yelled for Toni to return her Milkana. Perhaps his fear of Toni who loved Milka so much during that time, made him unable to accept reality.

Not once was Kamelia able to separate from Milka, but for that time she was forced to part with her beautiful daughter and even for good.

Stop crying baby, Milka is also my daughter. I knew you wouldn't be able to sleep without our kids. I know, you don't even think about Milka who was sick yesterday. But you also think of Cakra that lacks ASI, Cakra that is far from your side.

I was also devastated and felt the loss of the daughter born from my heart was dear. Milka. But I can't blame Taqdir either. And taqdir Milka must go first from us.

I can't look at you like this, honey.

Where was my Kamel that was so strong first?

Kemil's tears flowed from the edges of his eyes that looked at his wife's face. Beautiful face that looks pale and sad. Kemil removes the hair that covers Kamelia's forehead, and then taps at the thin skin that stretches there. Soft and warm, he made

The camera fell back into a deep sleep in his arms.

I hope, after you wake up from your sleep later, you will be able to accept the reality dear.

Your happiness is my happiness, but your tears are my pain…

Then please, please,

Be happy…

Remove your sadness and grief, then leave your laughter and joy.

I'm still waiting for you for that…

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