CURTAINS OF THE PAST

DON'T WANT TO FORGET

 If you want, what do you want?

Like I don't even remember the past? Or remain like you who will continue to live in the shadow of your difficult past?

There is nothing Iffah wants to know after hearing Toni's painful past, except for Toni's heart and mind problems for life in the future.

“I don't even want to forget how cruel I was as a friend, how cruel I was as a child, and how evil I was as a papa. But I don't want to forget it's Iffah. I want to know all the karma I've gone through to make up for it.

It's not hard Iffah, it's just so unsettling for my daughter's future.

I don't want to forget my little daughter, even though I have no rights to her at all. But she's my daughter. If she grows up, I have no right to her. And more painful, surely, the man he considered father, is also like me..”.

Iffah looked gloomy hearing Toni's words.

“I'm sorry Toni..” Iffah is powerless to see Toni's eyes glazed over.

Toni breathed her heavy breath. “If you are alone?.”

“I also ingiin.. I want not to forget all my past.” The clear circles fall back and tickle the smooth cheeks of Iffah.

“I don't like your tears, get away from your face. Or I'll delete it myself.” Toni's orders are half-threatening.

“I'll have eyes, and I'll have feelings too.” Sumpul Iffah's.

“Later, if I could already touch your cheeks. And lend me my shoulder to be your back.” Firm Toni.

“But you're not mad at me right?.” Iffah slightly awkwardly looked at Toni who was leaning over the Hospital bed.

“Hmmm, slightly. My anger will subside if you feed me.” Said Toni while grinning mischievously.

“I haven't even eaten..” Iffah thins his lips. “And besides, you've recovered. Eat alone.”

“Alright, I'll eat by myself. You go.” Toni tried to grab her food that had just come.

“What have you just kicked me out?.” Iffah asked in an annoyed tone.

“Not you saying, if you haven't eaten yet?. Go find food, your sister and my family must have been waiting for you a long time.” Toni said to relieve the irritation that emanated on Iffah's face.

If pain is better for me, then I will choose pain all the time to muffle your anger.

“Iffah..” Call Toni again stop Iffah's footsteps.

“Hmm, why?” Iffah turned her body back towards Toni who was looking at her so softly.

“If you recall your past, and find hard things there too. Are you going to let go of my grasp?.” Toni looked at Iffah who was silent at Toni's question.

“Why did you suddenly ask him?.” Iffah's eyes are reddened. Something was stirring inside him.

“Forget it, maybe it doesn't matter.” Elak Toni later. Iffah's reaction made him no longer want any answers. “Maybe a better time to answer it.”

“I won't probably let go of your grasp, and more likely I won't remember it even I don't want to remember it.” Tears escaped from the beautiful and rounded eyes of Iffah. Iffah rubbed her tears rough while turning her body about to pass leaving Toni in the room.

Toni smiled, with a smile that was difficult to interpret, at that time she doubted the truth and belief of Iffah's words.

You don't understand Iffah, you'll never understand with my fear. Ghali said, You love him so much Iffah. You love your Arjun so much. How can I be calm all my life. Flavored

fear will continue to haunt my instincts and thoughts until I truly know your consciousness is only for me…

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