CURTAINS OF THE PAST

EXPECTING BENALU

I don't know when this love started, but it certainly doesn't end. And I don't know why there's love in my heart for you, but for sure my love for you is unwarranted…

It wasn't your promise that kept me going, but your love that was still hiding kept me convinced to look.

Because hiding doesn't mean there isn't, does it?

Do you still remember? You even keep waiting for me when I think you can't afford me to fight. And even you shamelessly convey your heart first…

You made me unable to leave you…

“So smart are you at the moment?” Iffah asked with a scowled face to Antoninya who was still lying in the same room.

That night, after his family returned home and left the two of them at the Hospital.

Iffah sat next to Antoni, not once did she stop watching her husband who had just woken up from his coma after months. Missing yamg unstoppable as long as it makes him not want to leave Toni even a step.

“I'm glad to see my beautiful wife again. I don't think I want to fall asleep like a mini mala...” Sahut Toni while continuing to return Iffah's gaze. “But why are you crouching like that?” Ask back while gently rubbing Iffah cheek.

“I'm annoyed..” Ketusya.

“Kesal why else beautiful..” Goda Toni trying to make his wife smile.

“You punished me so severely. You knew? Every day I am haunted by fear, fear of the loss of the one I love so much. Because I used to feel it once.” Lengut Iffah's.

Toni looks awkward to hear the words of Iffah, the pain re-crawled her heart at that time. The memory of Iffah's last words before her accident re-spins on her memory. He's not anymore

want to hear the continuation of the story Iffah it feels. But he also cannot seem selfish.

“When I lost Dad it hurt so much, it felt like I was coming with Dad. I am afraid to face tomorrow without him. I don't know where to stand. Fortunately, there was a Ghali

always protect me.” Iffah looks reminiscent, his tears just flow.

“I think, it's Arjuna.” Toni was so curious why it was not her Arjun called Iffah back then, but her father.

“Arjuna. But I've been so protected since I knew him, no beatings, no bothering my mind when away from him. But he could be the safest place for me…

We met when I was in college. He was always a good man to me, until one day he proposed to me. My stepmother, Ghali's mother did not approve of our relationship. Because he really does not want to see me happy, while I claim to love Arjuna very much and want to be married to him immediately. I don't want to live with my mother anymore, and for Ghali I don't have to worry about her. Because Ghali's mother's biological son, and mother loved him so much.

Ghali will continue to threaten that she wants to hurt herself if she treats me too much. And the only way Ghali doesn't keep fighting with his mother is, yeah, I have to get out of there. And Arjun is the one who can take me away from there. I think being married to someone who loves us while we don't have feelings for them can still make us happy. Because by seeing his love, it can definitely make us love him back.

If Arjuna's departure makes me hurt, but I've never been afraid of it. Plus the way God made me amnesiac then, so I could run away from the sadness.

Yeah, I admit. At that time I was too disappointed in myself, I brought Arjuna into my life. And he had to end up that way. The man who sincerely loves me should get

bad taqdir with me. I felt guilty for her, and my guilt made me angry. I don't want to go wrong on my own, by swearing at my stepmother in front of Ghali.

But I was getting more and more guilty of it, intentionally hurting my sister who had been desperately guarding and protecting me all this time…

I've done you a damn thing, haven't I? Already many times I have deliberately hurt you.” Iffah covered her face with both palms. He's sobbing in there.

Toni grabs Iffah's hand. “Can you sleep next to me like that? I really want to hug you and kiss your wide forehead.” Pinta Toni persuades Iffah, she also feels guilty for misjudging Iffah by her hearing. He did not first look for the honesty hidden behind Iffah's eyes.

Toni felt more guilty for making his wife feel fear because of it.

According to Iffah, he got up and lay down beside Toni.

“I'm sorry my beautiful wife, I have made you anxious.” Whisper Toni while peeping Iffah's forehead. His two thumbs gently rubbed Iffah's wet cheeks. “Indeed I have been lying here for how long.?” Tanya Toni lirih's.

“It's been eight months four days, hours, minutes, seconds I forgot. You woke up when I was still asleep.” Follow him with a whining voice.

“Hmm not too long apparently.” Said Toni sneering.

“You wait for me to die first because I was killed miss this you just woke up, huh?” Cursed Iffah. Toni chuckles at hearing it.

“How much?” Ask Tony again.

“Slightly...” replied Iffah while measuring with her little finger, and blinked one eye.

Toni chuckles again, the lie is what Toni misses most from his wife.

“Honest it is?” Ask Tony again, even though he knows the truth.

“I can only be honest once, and that I told you earlier. Wrong yourself, who told you to sleep long.” Iffah Cibir.

“Really?” Toni hugged Iffah and buried Iffah's face inside her chest.

“I have missed you so much all this time. I did not end up seducing Him every night, so that he returned my handsome husband immediately.” Iffah's whisper is shriveled inside Toni's chest.

Toni's tears flowed from the edges of her eyes and soaked the pillow she was sleeping on. Many times his lips rained down on Iffa's crown.

This miss is like a bully growing up hurting my heart, but strangely I don't want him to go and die.

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