Between Me, You And Them

NOT A RESPONSIBILITY

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I'm rattled. Like he was really mad at me. In her eyes I must be like a bastard out there.

After yesterday's incident, his behavior changed 100%.

Don't wanna look at me, don't wanna talk much. And it doesn't seem like it's going to meet me. Because he didn't go to school yesterday.

Fortunately, his friend Purna contacted me. So I can get her HP number.

Even when I went to class, he and his girl friend looked confused to see me coming.

What else when I said I wanted to return Elsi's stuff. Clearly, it was just a lie.

Because I panicked, and was nervous when I came, Elsi was not there. So I had to lie when asked what was necessary.

Since that incident, my sleep has been bad. I kept thinking about Elsi and all my stupid actions back then.

I regret it, if I hadn't, I would have been closer to him by now. Without any awkwardness between us.

But I realize it wasn't a mistake. I really like him...

I almost didn't go to school yesterday, but remember there was something I had to finish with Elsi, and remember my friend's friend had rame on the grub because I managed to "wrap", If you know what I mean.

In the least I have no such thoughts. In the beginning of the room, we wanted to use it for us to rest after our party.

If I don't go to school I'm getting mocked by them, because not yet what they have said, "Nanda won't go to school, cuy, cause it must be the slobbery of rodi's work."

Seeing them noisily about me on the grub I could only shut up and ignore them. I'm lazy to put their nosy. Just add to my mind.

I dared to send her a message on whatsapp this morning. Offered her a school pick up so we could talk on the way.

"At 4pm, at the Cafe near the school. You right?" Said the time I offered to go to school together.

Oh, that means he doesn't want to go to school with me.

Without asking too much, I made her offer. Like he needs time for me. Like her.

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I've sent her a message saying I've arrived. It's not his time yet.

But better than me being late. There are still 15 minutes and I ask him not to rush to come.

I was willing to wait all day.

But not long after that my HP sounded.

On the way.

it turns out he's ready, too. I replied to her message again,

What would El drink? Let me order first. You can eat too..

My bargain. But silence alone is not repaid nor is it read.

After school, I hunted to go home. I want to go home, take a shower, and get ready to come here.

I noticed that Elsi in class just didn't go anywhere. I tried to come to her, but I broke it off because we were committed to meeting after school.

When I came home I saw her coming home with her friend. But I could only watch her from afar without her knowing. I don't want to make him any more uncomfortable.

Before long, I heard the door open. I'm just relaxed I don't think it's possible for Elsi to come this fast.

But it turns out I was wrong, it turns out it was really him. He looks around. I stood up and raised my hand waving towards her.

He looked at me and walked up to me.

She's still wearing school clothes, just like before. Did he not come home?

"Not come home from that?" Ask me when I let her sit down. I helped put her backpack on the chair next to me.

He nodded while smiling. And we fell silent. He took the HP in his pouch and opened it.

"I'm sorry El didn't read." He said after realizing I was sending a message.

"Father El, so what's El going to drink? Want to eat? you haven't eaten, have you?"

He nodded and looked around. I gave my HP to him.

"Look here just the menu, my brother has scanned." My bargain. With doubt he took my HP.

"Have a drink of boba brown sugar." He said while returning my HP.

"Eat?" Ask me.

"Got bang."

I'm nodding. I entered the order from my HP. Shortly after that the waiter arrived.

"The order is 1 boba brown sugar, 1 caramel macchiato huh? Eat her french fries 1. That right?" The waiter said affirming my order.

"Yes, the mba. Thanks ya..." My reply, He passed.

"El really don't want to eat?" Ask me again to make sure.

"Really bang..."

"Oh yes, if you are hungry say yes, or if you want to eat somewhere else say yes. Let's get there." My neighbor again. He just fell silent and smiled.

I realized, I had to be extra active to open the chat. Because now he's not like the first time we knew him that night.

"Not bang. It was in the canteen."

I was just about to answer that I saw her coming home, but I remembered and I broke my intention. Than I would later be considered a stalker. I better shut up.

"Oh... If you had gone home first. Hehe..." I said while laughing. I know he didn't ask me this unimportant info. And in the sight of using eye seeds, people will know I'm out of the house.

"You know El was straight from school, probably brother too. Let's meet her soon."

Elsi fixed her seat. This time his face looked serious. More serious than that.

"Any brother's contact?" Ask her.

"Yes there's El, morning time's up. We're probably on our way to Elsi's house." Obviously me.

"So what's he talking about?"

"He just asked for my WA number. Yaudah brother love. Because he said he was Elsi's friend."

Elsi is still taking my story seriously. I continued her.

"Keep him WA brother. He said he saw El gak. He apologized for asking. Because he said he didn't know Elsi. But he said he didn't know who else to call."

"Keep brother said if Elsi same brother?"

"No chance El, the phone's closing at the same time he. And not long after that he chat again apologizing, Because it turns out you can already be connected."

Elsi breathed her breath. He seemed very happy to hear my story. I get it, she must be afraid of being caught with her friend.

"El.... You're really sorry, yeah.." My word. This time I was serious.

Elsi gave her a look.

"Elsi if you want to slap brother, or want to flush brother use a drink later also brother accept. I know my brother is wrong. You are ready to accept the consequences."

"Not a mistake..." Her words are lirih. Still holding their eyes. I'm speechless.

"It's not your fault. It's Elsi's fault, too." she continued.

"Abang apologized before her, but what you did at that time, not because of a prank, not because of mistakes. For brother because brother is indeed...." I hung up my sentence. It tastes "crocodile" once if I say I have a taste for it.

But how, that's how I feel.

He looked at me, waiting for me to continue his sentence.

"I'm sorry El if it sounds so sweet. But that's the reality." I still can't express my feelings. Because I don't want to be considered a sweet-mouthed jerk.

"That day you couldn't sleep thinking about this." My word. This time I was the one who fell down.

"Big Elsi's mind. Honestly, I'm afraid that Elsi won't see my brother again."

He still listened to me.

The waiter came to bring us our ordered drinks. Breaking the silence of both of us.

I let Elsi drink it first. I am the same.

I put my glass back on the table after taking a sip.

"El..." Call me slowly. I looked at his face.

"Don't want to get stale..." I said again.

Elsi put the glass.

I continued my sentence.

"Eltrus... Want to be your brother's girlfriend?" I said in the end.

He was silent to hear my words. Me too. But I'm relieved, it turns out that this is what makes me nervous from yesterday.

Elsi Dropped again while speechless. He plays his fingers while thinking.

"Dear to like Elsi. Brother wants us to be..." Continue me again.

"No need to feel responsible." Disconnect her. I'm appalled.

"There's no need to feel guilty because we both slept together. No need to feel responsible for it. I'm not papa."

I'm speechless.

His response was not as good as my expectations.

"I just asked my brother not to tell anyone what to say. Enough we know. We just have to continue living as before." Said again. Quite emphatic. And enough to make my heart hurt.

Just as I was about to open my mouth, he stopped me.

"I don't think there's anything to talk about. Quite clear. We're staying back as we used to be. And again don't feel responsible for dating me..." He said as he picked up his backpack and prepared to leave.

"El brother doesn't want to." I said as I looked at him expectantly. But the hunt was cut off again.

"I'm a bang. Thank you for drinking it."

He stood up and left and I died.

Again, I was confused by him.

But this time my heart hurt.