Between Hate Love and Revenge

Chandra Diary

A month after officially divorcing.

Andini who in her idiom, she did not go anywhere nor did she dress up. He works at his house, and Doni works at his office. In the morning at exactly 08:00 a messenger delivering the package knocked on the door.

"Sepadaa... Package.."

Tok tok tok tok

"Sepadaa... Package," repeated again.

"What's wrong with you ?" ask Andini after opening the door.

"There is no package" said the courier while giving the package

"Package, what's the package ? I didn't miss anything." It was true that he did not order anything from any ecommers.

"Lack of knowing me, ma'am. But this is in the name of Andini Maheswari and the address is right here," he explained again while showing the identity of the message.

"Yes really the same address as his name. But I didn't mess up anything."

"Then I want to be in the game mbak, I can't take it anymore."

"Ohh, I accept it. Thank you very much !!" said again.

"Cih, the mas maksa, really," gritted in the heart.

After he received the package, the courier left immediately. Andini with a feeling of wonder that has been stirring immediately opened the package.

"Hopefully do not bomb," he said his mind has gone everywhere because of the rife news about packages but contains bombs and so forth.

In the notya package, there is a merry-go-round, a book and a cassette. Andini felt astonished 'why are all these items packed for her ?' thought.

Without hesitation he sat down and began to read the book, because in the book there is a number, which is the number 1. On the merry-go-round number 2 and on the cassette number 3.

He opened the book and he began to read it.

Assalamualaik..

The Andini Maheswari

A woman who is tough and can be called the best in the world. I miss you so much my ex-wife. I can't forget you for a moment.

Deg, the feeling between happy and also sad united in his heart. After a month he misses the package comes to him. He continued reading it again.

If you have read the above sentence, you know that I am Chandra. The man who doesn't deserve your sacred love is And.

I'm sorry Andini, this time I teased you again. Sorry, I just wanted to give you these 3 things. Thank you for accepting it.

I just want to reply to all the diaries you've written for me. I'm sorry I read it, but I'm also very happy when I read it. It used to be that you really loved me so much that in any situation you always immortalized me. So I want that too.

A thousand papers are not enough to tell you about yourself, but this one book may represent my feelings..

I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I always hurt you. I've regretted And, very sorry. I'm sorry And.. I'm sorry for everything, even though I know that it won't be enough to say sorry.

And in this book, I want to reminisce a little with you. At that time you were in a state of amnesia, you only remember your 6 year old self.

Andini is increasingly curious about the continuation of the diary, a month ago he tried hard to remember everything that happened to him when he was amnesiac, but no memory that led to that time. And again, again,

I was devastated at first, because you forgot about me. But after I passed, it turned out that I was very happy when you were like that. Humm😊 is stupid not me, a selfless husband.

But it's okay, you know, at least I could've made you smile. I'm so happy that being your husband is a blessing in my life. There are so many who love you. But if you remember you only loved me, I'm very happy about it.

Andini slightly held back her tears no matter what her heart was feeling, then she flipped the other paper.

There is a picture of her and Chandra in the room. Below is writing,

On this page there is a picture of you kissing my eyes, ahh And it feels like making me drunk dear. I always smile to myself if I remember. It feels so peaceful to be kissed by someone we love. I pray that you do this every morning.

Haha..

Andini turned the next page, though,

There is a picture of her kissing Chandra's lips, Andini frowns her eyebrows. Below is another letter.

If this picture, I could only tell the previous incident, I remember I was kissing me, when I opened my eyes it was just a delusion, really my heart broke instantly at that moment. But a few moments later, the fantasy became real. Thank you, you always managed to make me fall in love so many times.

There was a smile on her lips, then she opened the other page again.

There are two photos depicting him eating cotton candy and riding a carousel.

If this is you, before you eat it, someone insulted you. I heard it, And. And it broke my heart to pieces I wanted so badly to slap both the child and the mother. But it's not good, I'll cause another problem later.

And for this merry-go-round, I'm so pissed at you, why do I have to ride this merry-go-round ? We are adults and, very embarrassed if we are in a place where the incident is always played by small children.

But after I rode with you, I knew what happiness meant just by looking at your smile. From that start your smile is like blood flowing through my body. It is very important for my life..

Look at the miniature carousels I sent you, I just want you to remember and smile again even though it's not in front of me anymore. I want you to keep smiling, like this :)

Andini's cry began to break, but she held back because there was one sheet that she had not read. There was the last sheet, a photo of the two of them at the top, as Chandra played his guitar and Andini leaned on his shoulders.

The photo was a very happy moment for me, where I was singing I Love You More from John K and you were holding me against my shoulder, I feel like I'm the person you need most.

And for last, please look at the tape and turn it around. I want to sing something for you, please listen..

He saw in the video, Chandra was sitting and holding a guitar, before long he plucked the guitar and caused a tone.

I tried to reveal this veil

The story between you and me

Separated by space and time

To blame you for leaving me

Chandra's tears began to pool.

I feel like I've lost

Your long lost love

You're going far because of my fault

Who never thought you existed

Asmara tells us

Reminds me of you

The excitement reminds me

That your love has entered my heart

Honestly (to be honest)

I can't (i can't)

Life without you I'm crazy (i'm crazy)

If only (if only)

You can (you can)

To repeat our love (our love)

I won't be wasting you again

Asmara tells us

Reminds me of you

The excitement reminds me

That your love has entered my heart

Honestly (to be honest)

I can't (i can't)

Life without you I'm crazy (i'm crazy)

If only (if only)

You can (you can)

To repeat our love (our love)

Honestly (to be honest)

I can't (i can't)

Life without you I'm crazy (i'm crazy)

I won't be wasting you again

I won't be wasting you again

Seriate..