Between Hate Love and Revenge
Michells
...Never be sorry...
...I have met him in this world...
...He was looking for a near perfect man...
...It is not you who are lacking...
...Remember the man who is short of it...
...Do not have love as sincere as your love...
...The way you love him patiently...
...Encourage him to live happily with others...
...That's an amazing form of love...
...Because love is not forever held....
...LH...
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The day after Andini and Chandra's wedding. Michell looked very moody, he just kept quiet in the room, his face looked lethargic his eye bags looked blackened and his lips dried up. Not wanting to eat, drink let alone talk, just being silent and silent.
Even if he did not enter work, he deliberately took a week off so as not to meet with others. And coincidentally this month a lot of people who hold a wedding and it will definitely make him remember the wedding of Andini and Chandra. He is like a man who has no hope of living. That's how Michell is today.
Prangg...
As she thought about Andini's marriage, she did not want to accept that fact. He could not let go of the person he loved so far to live with others, not others but his own friends.
Right now he was feeling agitated disillusioned angry disappointed and the only thing that could make him a little calmer was to break, smash, throw, and slam things that were nearby.
His mother, who heard the sound of shards running straight to Michell's room, was worried something bad was happening to him.
"Michell" said her mother who was slightly shouting. But Michell just glanced at the door.
"Open the door, son" said his mother again, then the door opened.
"No, my son, you just let him go, his name is not a fool Nak" said his mother while hugging the eldest child.
"Ma don't I want to be loved ? Less me what ma ?" Do not think that the man is not weak this is proof that a man has feelings.
"You don't lack one son, you're perfect..."
"But why is Ma the person I loved so much, why is she married to someone else Mah why ?" cut Michell.
"No he's good even he's the best for Michell ma, I I just want him mah, I don't want anything else. I don't want him to be with other people" Michell snapped, actually he didn't intend just his emotions were too strong.
Plakk
Mama slapped Michell right on his left cheek
"Conscious Chell you are a man, you are a doctor, there are still many other women who can accept you. Even if you don't have to look for or beg for love, that person will come at the right time."
"Aaaarrrgh.... Go ma go "Michell herding her mama out of her room. That's how if Michell was frustrated, anything would be the subject of his rampage.
"Michell Michell." Mama pushed around the door and shouted to her son, yes he was outside the room.
"Aaaarrrrrrghhhh Andini you can't be Chandra's wife you're mine only, you can't be Chandraa. You can only be like me, I love you, Chandra has never loved you Andiniiii." she cried in the room.
Then he was silent for a moment, while his head kept thinking about Andini.
"I'm broken And, I love you And, I'm always waiting for you And, why you're evil, why you married her, what lack of love I have with you, what lack of love, whatever you want and I'll give you. Even the life I will put" he said weakly then he straightened his cry that became so, because tired of crying he also slept.
Who is not sad, angry, disappointed, if the person he loved from a long time ago could not be with him.
From the beginning he dreamed of being able to live together with Andini, seeing Andini who was so intelligent his mind was open. He went from being a truant, sleeping in class to being a doctor, all he did to being on par with Andini. So that Andini can see that only Michell is the one who deserves that love. Not a Chandra who never even once glanced at him.
Michell struggled to get to this stage even though she gave up her teenage life by studying never once she dated like her friends, she was so guarded her heart only for a Andini.
He thought it was you who changed him to be better. To her Andini was like a fairy who came with a thousand good things for her life.
Forgetting, never for a second did that word perch in him. Even though he hasn't seen Andini in three years, it doesn't mean he can just forget about it. He loves Andini very much.
Actually Michell never moved to Surabaya, he was always around Andini, but Andini never saw him. She very often follows Andini to the bookstore where she used to buy books, she knows Andini's schedule of ketoko, sometimes he also follows Andini to go eat and he also knows the drink that you always order, avocado juice. Sometimes if you are in trouble, he is the one who is silent to help Andini. He lied to Andini if he moved to Surabaya. Because he thinks if Andini knows that he is around, he is afraid that whatever he does will be rejected.
The more he often noticed Andini who was so fond of studying he was motivated to achieve his goals of becoming a doctor, he studied hard to get a scholarship from the famous University in Sydney. During her studies there, she always asked her sister Ayuni to give her news about Andini's condition.
But not unexpectedly for him now Andini is a bomb that can destroy it. For him you never see it, not even a little appreciate his feelings.
He never knew that Andini was worried. Andini actually knows that Michell loves her, but Andini does not understand her feelings because Bella also loves her very much. Andini did not like him and he was afraid of hurting Michell's feelings so as much as possible he avoided it and pretended never to know how Michell felt about him.
That is love, actually not his presence is wrong, love and loved is commonplace only the human mind is wrong.
Not everything you want can be obtained, whatever it is including feelings. Only by remembering that the soul mate has been written in the lauhul mahfudz and leave everything only to HIM.
It's so painful indeed. But on the other hand, it hurts more people who are as sincere as they get someone who doesn't even want it, it will make them tormented with false feelings.
Tossing it is the best way but whose heart will let it go. After what he's done from the past to the present..
seriated
