Between Hate Love and Revenge

Guilt Feelings Always Blanket

Ten days later...

Andini is still unconscious and Chandra still faithfully accompanies her tirelessly and without giving up. Now the hospital is like a second home for him, even office affairs are always done in the hospital. Chandra does not want to miss a little bit about the current condition of Andini.

Sometimes Chandra often invites him to pray together. Although in the quotes Andini only worn mukena only. For him it was enough to make him feel that Andini was still with him.

As they are today, they perform dawn prayers together, then Chandra chant some holy verses. Once he was googling about the condition of people who are in a coma. Some say that people in comas can still hear what is happening around them. For that he hopes Andini hears his voice while teaching.

Andini's wisdom to be in a coma is that Chandra is increasingly aware that she can't live without Andini, usually early in the morning she likes to hear Andini cooking. But now the sound of the twang of the frying pan has become the voice he missed. Usually when about to leave Andini likes to kiss his arm but now the touch can not be felt.

After he kissed his wife on the forehead, looked at her and apologized to her and prayed that Andini could get back together with her, that was all he could do at the moment.

"I miss you Andini... The proverb says, "The peace of the world and the coolness of heaven still if there is no you live feels like hell." That's the situation I feel right now. It was even more empty when Dad died. I feel like there is no purpose to live." He held tightly to Andini's hand, sometimes he also played his fingers. Then he put his head on top of Andini's hospital bed. Her tears were back on the bed.

After a long time he was self-defeating finally drowsiness came back to attack him and then he fell asleep.

At the hospital where Agas was treated.

"Doctor doctor... Please !" Mang Samsul shouted for the help of the Doctor.

Doni has been in contact several times to call the doctor. Soon a group of doctors and nurses came running.

"I'm sorry please wait outside" said Sister. And they came out with a face so worried.

"Don.. Mamang was afraid something happened with Mr. Agas" said the Mamang with a pale face.

"Mangs.. We doain aja Mang I hope Mr. Agas is okay."

"Aamiin Don !" They are waiting back. Because of the anxiety of Mang Samsul to walk pacing while Doni he was sitting with his hands holding his head and sometimes massaging his temple.

60 Minutes ago, exactly at 05.00 WIB. Pak Agas is eager to perform the morning prayers. For that Doni and Mang Samsul agreed his wish. Doni helped Pak Agas in taking ablution water while Mang Samsul prepared a dish for them to be two, because Pak Agas would pray by lying down.

Their prayers are done. Engraved a sweet smile on Mr. Agas' face. Feel happy because you can still perform congregational prayers. Then Doni and Mang Samsul accompanied him again, Doni was on his left side while Mang Samsul was close at his feet. They listened to stories about Agas in childhood. Interspersed with laughter and also feelings of sadness due to the unusual life experience of Agas.

About half an hour Agas told them until Agas finally felt thirsty. When Mang Samsul picked it up, Doni suddenly shouted.

"Bapaanakk......."

"Yes Allah Mr. Agas." said Mang Samsul who was no less surprised to see Agas who had slept quietly.

Mang Samsul immediately ran out to call the Doctor, while Doni was busy squeezing contacts near his hospital bed.

Fifteen minutes later.

Chequek.

"What is the condition of Mr. Doctor..?" ask Doni.

"Sorry sir, he is dead.."

"What's.."

"Try it again doc, check it again."

"Sorry sir he really died, when we just arrived here he was no longer there."

"Chandra should know about this.." he murmured.

Then he fiddled with his phone.

After five unconnected. This time he was connected.

"Hallo Tuan .." he said trembling.

"Yes what's up Don"

"Mr .. Mr. Agas, Mr. Agas is dead"

"What ...."

Tak... Chandra's phone fell. This time it was not a cry but he was silent. I don't know what came to his mind this time. He saw Andini then he hugged her, "And... I'm sorry.." Only guilt is what he has now. He was crying right on Andini's boat. Failing as a husband as a daughter-in-law.

"It's all my fault if you're not like this then Papah won't die this soon. I'm sorry "he said, hugging Andini.

Tests..

Feeling wet on Chandra's cheek but not from her tears then who ?

He saw Andini, there was a small river flowing on his cheek. Chandra still couldn't believe what he saw. He held her cheek, it was true it was water, Andini's tears.

Andini crying, it may be true that people who are in a coma can feel what is happening around him.

It makes Chandra feel guilty.. "Andini...." In her tears she kept calling out to Andini. There is no other change in you there is only a drop of tears. Chandra knew that Andini was still in a coma so she didn't call the doctor.

A few moments later.

"I have to go to the hospital, I have to see Papah one last time. I'm his only son right now."

Then Chandra immediately called someone to accompany Andini.

"More.. Hurry to the hospital, my in-laws are dead. You, you have to wait for Andini here" Chandra said on the phone.

After 15 minutes later Rendi was already in the hospital replacing Chandra waiting. Chandra really does not want to miss a single piece of information about the state of Andini, when he is not there.

Chandra has arrived at Agas' house. On the way to the hospital, Chandra gets a call from Doni that her in-laws are on their way home.

Chandrapun directly plugged the gas, turning the direction towards the funeral home. Once there he and others immediately do what is an obligation for those who are still alive to the dead.

After disholati, the body will be buried immediately. Chandra recalled Andini a few months ago asking her to take Andini to the funeral. He also asked Doni, lucky Doni knew that in the TPU there was a tomb of Agas' wife, Adilla's mother Andini. Agas was buried close to his wife's grave.

All the processes have been done. He crouched in the tomb of Agas accompanied by Doni and Mang Samsul because Bik Ijah and Bik Sri had returned home.

"That.. Please forgive Chandra pah, not being able to be a good son-in-law, who can take care of his wife and also Papa. For our conversation the other day, Chandra promised reward, Chandra will hold Chandra's own speech, Chandra will always take care of Andini, always reward no matter what the circumstances, Chandra will always be there with her reward. Papa is calm there" he said.

seriate..

sorry I just got up

his condition is here in emergency department😢😢