Allow Me to Be Happy

Chapter 3

Cup

A kiss on the cheek from her soft lips woke Reza from her sleep. Being accompanied by a wobble on his shoulder made him have to open his eyes.

“Pa let's dong get up. Today we want to go to her new home mama,” said Ara her little daughter.

“Iya-iya this papa has woken up dear. Kiss papa again dong let spirit.”

Cup cup cup

“Tu Adek already kiss kids. Come on Papa take a shower. Brother and grandmother have been waiting for Papa for breakfast.”

“Adek down first Papa shower briefly.”

Reza got off her bed, and with a shaky step towards the bathroom. The plan this morning he and his two children and in-laws will make a pilgrimage to Rena's grave.

His head hurts a little. Maybe because last night he was able to sleep before dawn.

After getting dressed, Reza got out of her room and joined the others who were waiting for her at the dinner table. At the dinner table, Ara was busy telling her grandfather, Andra, the first son who was busy with games on his phone, and his mother-in-law who was preparing breakfast for family members.

Reza sits in a chair traditionally occupied by Rena. While the seat next to him that is usually filled by Him seems filled by his father-in-law. Reza is starting to miss him. Missing the noise of his chattering mouth. Can Reza miss him after what he's done?

“Nak Reza after from the tomb later Nak Reza can go directly to the office only. Father, Mother and children were picked up by the driver only later,” the voice of the Father-in-law woke Reza from her daydream.

“Iya Well. Sorry Reza had to go to the office today because there was an important meeting. Can not be represented,” replied Reza.

“It's okay. Just get on as usual, son. Nothing has changed. Our lives must continue.”

Reza didn't answer. The man just kept quiet while drinking coffee and eating breakfast that had been made by his Mother-in-law.

“Lusa Daddy will be returning to Bandung by himself. I will stay here to accompany your children,” continued father.

“Sorry that Reza has to trouble Mom and Dad.”

“No one feels bothered son. Ara and Andra Mother's granddaughter, son of Rena,” replied the mother.

“Kakek want to go back to Bandung? Teyus later Ara play who dong? Brother mah naughty, brother does not want to play with Ara,” asked Ara with his cute voice.

“You're playing noisy Deck. If you lose like to cry so lazy brother play with you,” replied Andra with a direct view on the game on his phone.

“Kaan brother jahaaat. Huaaaaaaaa,” Ara started crying.

“Sst is already adek do not need to cry. Ntar Adem play with grandma yes,” persuade Mom

“Abang save his phone. While eating can not while playing mobile phone,” reprimand Reza.

After breakfast, they all left in a car driven by Reza. Ara's babbling voice adorned their journey. After an hour's journey they came to the luxurious burial place. Rena's grave is right next to Reza's.

“Assalammualaykum mom. Adek came with Brother, Papa, Grandpa and Grandma also you know, Ma.”

“We read the prayer first, baby. Ara memorized Surah Al-fatihah?” ask my mother about her granddaughter.

Finished praying Mother rubbed kissed Ara's tombstone.

“Rena's quiet there, son. Don't think about your husband and children. Andra and Ara will take care of them. Mother also hopes they can regroup with their Mother, Son,” Inner Mother Ratna while shedding tears.

“Ma pray that you can bring Mother to gather again with Brother Yes, Ma. Can Ma?” ask Andra inwardly while sowing flowers in her mother's fountain.

“My energy, starting today I will return to work. The children will be taken care of by the mother. You help keep it from there, yes,” said Reza in heart.

After the pilgrimage, Reza returned to the company he had left since his wife died. The office already needed him back so he decided to go back to work. In addition, he also does not want to be sad. Reza still has Andra and Ara to be happy with. While Andra, Ara, Ratna's mother and Mr. Soni were picked up by Reza's driver.

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In the evening Reza arrived home at eleven o'clock. The first day he entered the office was really draining his time and energy.

The man went up to his room. But just a few steps up the stairs, he was surprised by the call of Ms. Ratna from the direction of the dining table.

“New home Za?”

“Iya Ma'am, there are many reports that Reza has to check,” replied Reza as she stepped towards the dining table where Ms Ratna was.

“The kids are asleep, Mom?”

“Hmm they've been sleeping since nine o'clock.”

“Mother why haven't you slept?”

“Mother is thirsty, drinking in the room is over so mom goes to the kitchen.”

Reza just nodded.

“Za do you know where Dewi is?”

Reza bowed his head and exhaled a long breath. “Reza doesn't know yet, Mom,” Ogre Reza.

“Mom wants to meet Dewi. Mother is wrong with Goddess, Za. I can't take care of the child of my best friend Mother was”, said Ibu lirih. He sounded full of regret from his mouth.

Reza did not answer. Rezapun felt the same way. Regrets always come back.

“Yasudah Za you enter the room immediately rest yes. I also want to sleep again,” said Mother and went straight to her room which was downstairs.

After Ratna's mother left for the room, Reza was still sitting quietly in her place. Where should Reza look for the Goddess. Reza had told his men to look for the Goddess to his parents' house in the city of P but they did not find her. Even according to the neighbor Dewi has not returned there for a long time.

Wanting to ask Om Arya and Aunt Lisa, Reza seemed to have no face to meet them. Reza knew he would definitely get another tantrum from the two like that time because Reza had hurt the Goddess whom they already considered to be like a real child.

Reza let out a long sigh and then went upstairs to her room. Before going into her room to clean up, Reza took the time to look at her two children. He peed at his two children.

“Excuse Papa, Nak.”