A&Z (Love Or Hate?)

Ending & Messaging

With a blank look, I walked my feet straight towards the classroom.

I saw from a distance, my friends were already waving their hands at me.

When I got to the front of the class, my friends realized that my facial expression was very sad

"Zahra, what are you doing ? Usually you are cheerful, your tumben becomes quiet." asked my friends began to worry.

I just smiled at them. Without saying a word to them, I went straight into the classroom.

One by one the disciples came, but the person I was waiting for did not come.

Maybe today he is not present anymore, because indeed some days he did not enter because of illness.

Time keeps going. But I just sat quietly in my chair, without a word coming out of my mouth. Until finally

"Zahra ! Arsyad is dead !"raina shouted, shaking my body.

Raina's cry broke, followed by my tears that began to flow with a rush on my cheek.

On my birthday, I have to lose the person I love the most. My heart hurts so much, my breath starts to feel tight. I let go of Raina's embrace and ran towards the gate.

When I reached the front gate of the school, I suddenly heard the voice of someone calling my name, a familiar voice in my ear.

I turned to look at that person, he smiled at me then

"I and you.you and I.a difficult love story.cannot be expressed in words..."Muhammad Harreza Arsyad began to sing

"Reri Meri's..Meri Teri's...Prem Kahani Hai Mushqil's...Do Lafzoon Mein Yeh Bayaan Na Ho Paaye..."My reply was in Indian, singing the same song that Arsyad was singing.

Arshad opened his hands to greet me.

I couldn't help myself anymore, I ran straight towards him, and hugged him tightly. Tears kept flowing down my cheeks

"Arsyad, I'm so afraid of losing you." I sobbed.

When I was so late in my crying. I remembered Arsyad's eyes that were always filled with hatred. Slowly I started to take my arms off her, then ran away from her.

All of a sudden all my friends came up from behind the gate and they pelted with flour. Then they approached Arshad with red roses.

Arsyad took the flower, then walked up to me and said

"I'm sorry, I always hurt you by saying rude things and looking at you with hatred. I was forced to do that because, I don't want you to cry over my departure when I give up my illness. But because of your love, your smile and your prayers. The disease is no longer in me. To be honest, I've been in love with you since I first saw you. Now I know that you love me very much. Will you be my life partner ? Will you accompany me until the end of my life ?"Ask Arsyad

I just kept quiet, then I turned around and ran out the gate leaving her with my mixed feelings. Suddenly

"Tittt !"the sound of a car horn that sounded loud in my ear

Followed with blood coming out of my ears and head.

Instantly all my memories with Arsyad were clearly visible in my eyes. I smiled, but I heard the sound of my friends crying hysterically.

Now my head, covered in blood, is in Arsyad's lap. He was crying hysterically but I smiled happily because I could see his handsome face, before I closed my eyes forever.

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The text above it is my delusion 👆

However, I want to really tell this story as it is even though there are some events that I have edited.

I do not know how the end of my love story, for sure, I still quite often see Arsyad and the smile that once disappeared, now again adorn his face again.

But I guess my feelings for her are no longer there, now I just want to spend the love I have to love my family and all my friends.

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I think it's enough to get here first, I'm telling you about my love story.

I was finally able to write my love story with Arsyad to the end, after several failed attempts.

My only difficulty in writing this story is laziness. Laziness opens old wounds.

I shed tears several times while writing this story.

This story doesn't really end, because life is still going on, there are a lot of things waiting for me out there.

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~Your coming

Your arrival brings a fresh breeze into my arid life.

Your coming is like the dawn rising in the morning,

Eliminate the gripping darkness.

Your arrival graced my day with joy, as bright as the color of a sunflower.

However, the sun will certainly sink in the afternoon.

Anyway I tried to hold it

Still, I'll never be able to stop him.

I let go too.

I never thought before that you would never rise again in my morning.

You left me alone in the dark of a gripping night.

But, I was lucky enough that there were moons and stars that remained faithful shining down on my silent night.

At first the silence tonight really tormented me,

I really miss the sun

But the presence of moon and stars that continue to faithfully accompany my night

It finally made me realize that now they are part of my life.

I forgot the sun and lived happily with them

Before the end the next sun will pick me up and take me away with him.