A&Z (Love Or Hate?)

Split with him

Now I go to SMK majoring in hospitality, while Arsyad majoring in accounting. I'm still in school with him but I feel pretty happy that I don't major with him.

I went back to class with Stella and Andre. After attending school here, my relationship with Andre has improved even better than before. I really consider her my best friend maybe even more than that, I feel like I have an inner bond with Andre but I don't know what kind of bond it is. I didn't feel awkward at all when I was around him. Almost every time I was close to him.

It was only a few months, I felt calm because I could finally forget about Arsyad completely, suddenly there was someone from my past coming. He did not come directly to me but he came through social media.

She was my first love, I first met her while still in kindergarten. His name is Reyhan.

Reyhan suddenly came into my life. He had just come into my life for a few weeks but he immediately said that he loved me. Of course, I don't trust him. But she kept convincing me of her love, she used to sing love songs for me.

When I started to open the door to Reyhan, that's when I found Arsyad in a student in my class. Her name is Reza. Actually Reza's face and attitude, very much different from Arsyad, but somehow when I see Reza then I will see the figure of Arsyad in him.

My heart is becoming fragile again. I remember my love for Arshad. Reyhan kept urging me to be his girlfriend. Finally I tried to be open to Reyhan by saying that

"I still love someone so much and if that person just takes one step to me then I'll just leave you and run towards that person."

Reyhan continued to convince me that his love would make me fall in love with him. I was still doubtful about my heart, I felt I was starting to have feelings for Reyhan but on the other hand I was also starting to have feelings for Reza, However, I started to have feelings for Reza, I like Reza because I see Arsyad in him.

One day, I realized that Reza liked my best friend Stella, and I easily resigned.

I finally agreed to be Reyhan's girlfriend. It was one of the follies I had done in my life because after one day we were dating, we decided to stop dating.

Initially after we stopped dating, our relationship was fine but here and there Reyhan started to question me who always talked about the figure of 'someone I love.' He assumed that the person I was referring to was Andre.

One day while I was busy helping my mother with homework, Reyhan suddenly sent me a message.

I also took myself to chat with him for a while, but then Andre also sent a message to me. I was overwhelmed enough to reply to their messages and I was busy helping Mom. But I still took the time to reply to Reyhan's message.

"Why is it so slow to reply to my messages ?"ask Reyhan

"Who are you talking to again ?"

"Just like you and Andre." I answered honestly

"Owh.so that's why you're slow to reply to my message.because Andre..."

"No, I was really busy." I replied with a feeling that began to grow angry but sad.

"Yes busy.sibuk reply chatt from Andre right." he said.

I also sent screenshots chatan me and Andre because I fill my chat with Andre only discuss about the lesson.

But Reyhan still accused me of having an affair with Andre. Unknowingly tears began to wet my cheeks and eventually my tears broke.

"It's so bad of you ! I'm so busy today ! But I still took the time to reply to messages from you ! I just want to be honest with you ! I don't want any lies between us !"I said sobbing.

After that day, the Cold War between Reyhan and me began.

I felt heartbreak for the second time. I didn't expect it, after it was abandoned by Reyhan. My heart went numb, even I forgot what it felt like to be nervous.

Long enough for me to heal my frozen heart.  During school I just sat quietly in my chair but Stella and Andre remained loyal to me.

Thanks to Stella and Andre, I was finally able to build a friendship with the students in my class, including Reza. Reza is now one of my best friends.

Since Reza and I were close enough, I finally decided to tell him that

"I've liked you...But I like you because I see someone inside you.and I guess I still love that person..."