A&Z (Love Or Hate?)

New school year

I went up to class with a very proud grade for me because my rank was one level above Arsyad.

If only, I was still close to him then I would definitely be happier for being able to taunt him.

After the report division was completed, a long vacation began.

Half a month off school, I began to feel that I had 100% moved on from him, but in fact one day when I went to a minimarket.

I saw him there, I immediately ran into the minimarket and hid behind the minimarket shelves. I saw him hurrying away from the minimarket.

Instantly, the minimarket also tuned a song titled

"I'm willing-SouQy"

Slowly tears fell on my cheeks.

After that, I kept thinking about him. I opened my old diary and I read it sheet by sheet. It was hard to believe what was written in the book because his attitude, which I saw today, was so different from what was written in the old diary.

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The holidays are over and the new school year is starting, a new transfer student is entering our class, she is named Elisha. Elisha had a pure white skin, he was also an intelligent and multitalented student, a dream for all men.

I saw a few days ago, Arsyad kept watching Elisa, even she followed her Instagram account. It hurt a lot to me. Every time I see Arsyad, my chest hurts.

Then I saw Fifi take Arsyad's hat and take him running, Arsyad chasing after him. Unknowingly, tears began to pour from my eyes.

"I will return this hat, but there are conditions" said Fifi

"What ?"ask Arsyad curious.

"TOS first ! One time we tos then Zahra will surround the field twice" said Fifi

Arsyad glanced at me and then he tos with Fifi. Though usually Arsyad is very reluctant to come into contact with the opposite sex.

And now just for the sake of making me go around the field, he even tos with Fifi twice and then he laughs loosely.

I really miss that laugh...

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Doni is also a new student here, but with his cute nature he can easily blend in with us. Fifi likes Doni, but it seems like Doni doesn't like Fifi.

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Sometimes Nafiz tries to get me closer to Arsyad, but in fact it is very difficult to get me back to Arsyad as before.

While I was chatting with Nafiz, Arsyad always sat behind Nafiz. I wanted to say hello to him, but when I looked at him, he always looked at me sharply, which was what made me undo my intention to return to try to get close to him.

~Missing smile

In the past, smiles always adorned your face

But now the smile has disappeared

Where did it go ?

I always smile to cover my wounds

I smile so you smile too

Because it is your smile that can heal the wounds in my heart

If you knew how precious your smile is

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Now that I'm closer to Yuli, Nur, Andre and Nafiz, actually Arsyad has always been around us.

We seven are inseparable. Arsyad is still the same as before, when I chatted with Andre, he must have been in the way

"Is he jealous ? I guess not ! Because she was watching Elisha all the time !"

I saw a smile on her face when Elisha was near her and it broke my heart into pieces.

I can't stand that sight. I must have instantly turned my face away and tears were falling in the follow with my breath that seemed to want to leave me.