2 BILL
SECTION 40
Flashbacks
For some reason since Raiz and Bina's sister got married, Bilal's attitude changed, he often avoided me, he didn't even sit on a bench with me, I sat down with Ibam instead ,every day he always accompanied me, because my friend from the past was only Bilal, I was never close to other students either girl or boy
Until arriving during school holidays Bilal instead chose to vacation abroad with his father and mother he did not even farewell
A year already the marriage of Kak Bina and Kak Raiz, they live in the city because there Kak Raiz business has started smoothly, today they visit our house, they visit our home,Raiz already knew that his family was vacationing abroad, so they stayed at our house, Kak Bina said he did not want to be alone, the reason they did not go on vacation with the Bilal family, because of the busyness of Raiz's sister who can not stay
"Hikks. ..hiks. ..hiks "!I cried myself on the bench in my yard
"Heiiii. ..What's wrong with this Abimana lady"Sir Raiz embraced me and sat down beside me, and he called me Abimana's mistress, because he used to tease me with Bilal who was very close .
I was still crying and did not answer Raiz's question
"Stop dong don't cry like this, after all, Bilal is not his usual he was so upset when it's like this "Sister Raiz grumbled to himself talking about Bilal
"Whooaaa. ...hikkks...."My crying is getting louder
"Ohh. ..so it's all because of Bilal
"He..hhh. ...Bilal left me Brother Raiz "
"Try Raiz's sister who knows who was appointed "?
"Daddy.kak.."I answered enthusiastically
Tutt...tut....."Until the phone call stopped, no one picked up
"Hahh.
"Maybe I made a mistake so Bilal hates me"
"Heiiii. ..heard Bilal could not hate the person he loved the most in the world, even when asked the same mother more dear where, if what mama he answered his Nabila "
"Truely "I was affected by Kak Raiz's remark
"How about if you come with us to the city so that Bina has a friend so that she is not lonely, just consider it a vacation for you, "
"Yes.I want to...."I jumped for joy, that day, the first time I went on a city vacation
Raiz is so good to me, he's such a great man, he's capable of building a company into a very successful company, he loves my brother a lot, never once did he look at another woman
Raiz's brother Bilal's brother was the one I loved, and now he's my husband, even though I have to be the second what can make Bilal threaten by using Pesantren.
While in the village when Bilal was disguised as Zainab, I asked Bilal the reason he left and he showed me a letter, a letter from my examination
Flashbacks
"This is the reason why I left at that time" Bilal gave me a letter of examination and it was mine
"Where did you get this?
"Actually I found a pill, a small pill lying on the floor of the room you used to use in the headquarters house, I wasn't suspicious at all but just curious so I kept the medicine"Bilal came up to me and sat down next to me, we were sitting on the sofa in my room, Barak had not come yet.
"I suspected that when I woke up one time in the middle of the night, I heard a murmur and a screech, it was slow, but I could hear it, it came from your room, I ran and entered your room, but I saw you sleep well, and yet I saw the tear marks on your cheeks, the small movements in your eyes could not deceive me, you didn't sleep that time, though,
Next I also caught you on your own motorcycle, out of curiosity, I followed you and it turned out that you were
To the doctor, I waited until you came out, I was about to get to you but I saw you make a paper into the trash, and I saw the sad look on your face,I also undo my intention to approach you waiting for you to go from there, after you leave I immediately picked up the paper you threw away earlier, and after reading it I was really surprised and disappointed in myself
I know what you're going through When, I'm sure it's bad and it's impossible not to leave a trauma, the doctor has it on us, but you save, you save, we're glad we're happy you didn't have the trauma, but you kept it all to yourself"
"Why If you keep all your own suffering, I really feel useless "
"No Bilal you don't talk like that" I cried, Bilal put his head on my lap he cried, this is the first time I saw Bilal cry, the last time we lost Brother Raiz, I saw everyone crying, because of Raiz's departure.
"All the attention I give to you When, even I obey you more than Mama, you are very important to me, you are my world If you ,but all that is less for you so you do not want to share the pain you feel for me"Bilal was silent, his shoulder was still shaking, because he was crying, then suddenly he woke up and sat back to me
"If you have..please take tissue dong...sorry your shirt has my snot"This pill is there_anything, again serious even snot, I also wake up and take a tissue without much refutation.
Bilal had cleaned up the snot on his face, then he looked at me again, his hands outstretched and stroked my face.
"I'm willing to sacrifice anything for you If, my love is so great, but it's not enough for you, I was devastated then, I felt such pain, that I couldn't stand it,I shared it with my father, I know you hate it because of the incident about Raiz's departure, I told him everything, and then you gave me a solution
"It's not just love that he needs Bilal, it certainly looks like dad took a chance in narrowness, but it's Bilal .....When you need strong protection, not only the muscle strength he needs but also,the power of the brain and the power of the power of influence and of course it can all be obtained if you have money and a smart brain"That sentence I immediately understood, all this time my father had offered me to continue my education abroad and leave you.
"I'll go Daddy....please take care of everything"!Dad grabbed me by the shoulder and left me alone, and then I walked away from you, I think by staying away from you before I left wouldn't hurt you too much "
"I left without looking at you and giving you such deep pain.Sorry When...."
"You want to know why I didn't tell you everything, because it's because it's afraid you're going, and I guessed it 'you left when you found out it was all " I stood in front of the window and looked outside
"What....you mean when"?
"You .. Go because you're disgusted at me, girl with a trauma "
"You think like that after everything I've done"
"THEN....I HAVE TO THINK WHAT BILAL "I screamED
"I go away disappointed in myself When, because I am unable to make you comfortable and express your heart without fear "
"Sorry.I really didn't expect me to break you "Bilal hugged me from behind, I silently didn't rebel and enjoyed the calm and peace Bilal gave me, not changing still the same always makes me feel peaceful
"You want to know one more thing Bilal, why I don't want you to go away from me" Bilal kept silent as he waited for me to continue my sentence
"Because you are medicine, I threw away my examination results at that time because of you Bilal, I told all the doctors who handled me that ,all this time my trauma did not recur when with you the trauma was relapsed only when I remembered Brother Bina and saw his picture, but at that time you were able to muffle his Bilal, time in the kitchen, time in the kitchen,when you and your friends enter the house through the window
"Flash"
I was standing in front of a picture of my brother hoping to remember something but all the time I was standing there there was nothing I remembered, my head was dizzy, my body started shaking, my body started shaking,I ran into the kitchen trying to dampen it by drinking water rather subsided
I also busied myself by providing you with drinks and snacks and then you came
"Hey...."Suddenly there was a greeting sound that even though it was very slow sounding just made me surprised
"Bilal you have ngagetin aja .."I pinched your stomach
"Are you not afraid of Abi"?
"God willing
"You answered with a grin
I put back the tray that contained the drink earlier
And look at you meaningfully
"Can I get a hug"?I always ask to be hugged when I feel short in life
you immediately pulled me and grabbed me
"Again sad..hah...."?
"Huh...."!I sighed my breath
Your embrace can calm me down
"Don't ask first "you're just silent and don't protest with my attitude that doesn't share my sadness with you
All this time I knew you
slalu was waiting for me to reveal it on her own without being asked
"I want this all night"!
"But ...."!
"I'm afraid of getting caught up with Abi and Umi you...."!
"If married I'm sincere and happy, but I'm afraid they will misahin us"!
"I can die from not being able to breathe ..because my breath is on you When"!
"AWWWW....."!Your screams because I pinched your stomach, you didn't realize that at that time you were able to treat my trauma, dizziness and tightness and my trembling body all disappeared while I was in your arms
I told the doctor all about it and he said, it's good that means I have to be with you and the doctor gave me advice to be honest with you, but before I come out to you, you're gone....
"Sorry..I'm really sorry "Bilal put his head on my shoulder, we were silent to enjoy our togetherness, only that Bilal told me he did not mention about the existence of Rista among us,I have to accept it all, no matter what happens, I will accept it, but my purpose does not change I must be able to get my purpose when I receive the promise given by Barak, it could be said that I wanted to try a little to prevent my marriage to Barak by looking for something myself without Barak's knowledge.
Tonight I'm in my room, tonight's my last night trying, I've been looking everywhere for evidence but I didn't get it
And the base I found was empty, there was no one in the house, and when I asked the people around them they said the house had been uninhabited for a long time
"Hahh...it is very difficult to achieve my goal, while all the Barak rooms in the office and in this house have been I obrak_abrik but I did not find anything "
More I sleep so that tomorrow can wake up fresher, tomorrow ..tomorrow is the wedding day that has been determined by Barak, I'm confused I DIZZY"ARKKKKHHH. ........"This is all because Bilal should I be able to run this well no need to be dizzy like this, I am married to Barak and Barak will help me achieve my wish is finished.
"Adoohhhh....pusing...I better sleep up to tomorrow ,I...pasrah"!
I began to close my eyes, flipped _back my body right not long turned left, I was silent do not move who knows I can sleep, but long wait my eyes are not asleep, too,I turned my body again to the left and_______
"A_______" I wanted to scream but there was a hand that was holding me
"Enhm. ...."I tried to scream, but was still blocked by the hand
"Promise not to shout, I will open my arms" The voice of the man who smothered me
"Hows it?
"Mmmmm.hhh..."I nodded obediently, the man immediately took off his provisions
"You......how can you enter Hahhhh"
"Bukkkk...Bukk....."I beat Bilal blindly with a pillow, the last time we met when he kissed me when in front of me was Barak
"Awwww.....Sick When, aren't you afraid your fiance will hear,?
"Will not be. 'cause his room is above and I'm below"
"Ohh. .. Good then"
"Well, you son of a bitch, I don't want you to do what you did to me yesterday"
"But at that time you were silent.so I thought you would do that"
"You...indeed really_____"I hit her however.
"Religion......"Bilal caught my hand and pierced and held both hands
"You shut up. or I scream and tell you you want to rape me"
"Hehhh......"I looked at him, Bilal cynical
"Not funny......."
"Ohhhh, thank you I'm cute and funny"
"Hiiiii.....genit...."
"You don't remember that I'm an expert at settling_sticking"
"YES.....Cunning skills that should be proud of i'm proud of you "Bilal fell silent so much with me, Bilal brought his face closer to me so close that I almost turned to the side,I thought he would stop but he put his lips on my cheek, so long as he was silent like peeping all over my cheek while like a smell and sniffing inhaling the scent of my cheek
"I miss you so much. I'm really crazy about your scent when, I can't sleep well ,my sleep was always disturbed by my thoughts thinking about you now living with one roof with Barak, it made me very nervous erratically When"
"Preassess....."I thrashed and Bilal stretched his grip on my hand and I got up and sat down, I glanced at him and looked down again, however I lied my body can't lie either,bilal's actions must have created a red tinge on my cheek, I bowed as hard as I could
I leaned my back on the side of my bed and faced Bilal while Bilal sat in front of me and we faced each other
"You're here to have a purpose, do your thing and leave"
"Hehhh......"Bilal was a bit cynical
"Do you know what my purpose is?
"No I don't know and don't want to know"
"I want my rights....."!
"Bright......"I Gaped and said slowly, somewhat confused to hear Bilal's words
"Right..hak...."
"You don't pretend you don't understand when"
"Ohh.. I guess what right, because all the rights I gave you were gone when you left me"
"And by forcing you to get that right by marrying me"
"Right ...to calm me down..the right to hear the ravings of my heart is the right to be the foundation of our friendship rights"
"If.how many times should I explain to you that I was forced to leave you at that time "
"And at that moment I really needed someone in my life, someone who was able to calm me down"
"Then what should I do to redeem Bilal, what should I do to get all those rights back to me"
"No Bilal..none .. I've tried to make you important again in my life, but something is blocking "I started crying, Bilal he was stuck gulping at me with pity
"And if you want the marriage rights that you're forcing it on now, okay.ayo we do" I kept waiting for Bilal to do something to me but he just saw me empty.
"Let me start....."Because Bilal didn't take the initiative to make a move, I started it,I went forward and sat on Bilal's lap and kissed his lips while removing Bilal's shirt by raising him up and Bilal's shirt came off and now he's not wearing a shirt I'm continuing my kiss, Bilal was silent and at this time I was the only one moving, my hand was walking down Bilal's body from the shoulder down and down and up and down Bilal's back, he was still not moving as still as a statue,I don't care, to further tease her both hands towards her nape and press her firmly to further deepen my kiss
YUPPP......I managed to get Bilal affected he started to retaliate and move like me, I did not want to lose and retaliate until we lay down against each other, because I had begun to lulled, however human I was ,I was lulled with all this even I forgot that right now we are in Barak's house which is my fiancee whom I betrayed as well as what I did to Sajad ,but the difference is I betrayed Barak with marriage, and he doesn't know any of this.
Because it's been lulled together, and Bilal looks still not intend to go further, I took the initiative, membuaka buttons my shirt but...
"STOP. ......."Bilal grabbed my hand and stopped him
"Why.is not.this you want "I tried to pull Bilal's hand over and was about to unbutton my shirt again.
"I want there to be love here" Bilal touched my eyes.
"And the sincerity here "Then I felt the beating of my heart
"I'm sure the beating of my heart was not only because of the lust "Bilal spoke while resting his head on my chest until he heard my beating heart, Bilal took my hand and put my hand on it
"My heart rate is also the same when ..he beats faster like a drum wants war"
"Don't..smile I know I'm not creative so to seduce me imitate the lyrics of the song"I still don't respond silently staring at Bilal flat, but actually I'm a bit chuckling in my mind,I don't want to show her later she's ge er again
"You are silent and seem to be lulled..why do I just continue the lyrics of the song"I smiled this time I really_true smile, but of course Bilal did not see it so I just kept quiet.
"I want to _____
"STOP.......Don't keep going...."I finally opened my voice
"At last you said When....from earlier I thought I was hugging a bolster pillow, but I don't believe, the reason is that the bolster is soft _puk how____....AWWW.....It hurts when "I pinch Bilal's arm, making him scream in pain
"Am I less attractive...?The question of what came out of my mouth, I don't know. When Bilal stopped all this I felt like an unattractive woman at all.
"What..you're crazy to ask all that....."!Bilal woke up from the fall and he looked at me sharply
"You are the woman who most attracts my heart no one is able to pull my heart as you do me no one is capable only of you" I lowered my head, I held back to not ask anymore ,a bit in disbelief because of her status who was already with Rista before marrying me
"What do you think Hahhh......"Bilal's hand caressed my forehead and my wrinkled forehead at the thought of something
"Nothing is "
"Bukkk......"I hugged Bilal, we fell silent in this position, Bilal stroked my hair, which was not hijab, I was going to sleep of course I did not use hijab,fortunately Bilal stole in here which was already lawful to see and touch me, if other people of course I will kick him to be unable to get up and run .
"EKHEMM. .. I think I should go to the bathroom first"
"You're peeing....."?
"You're still asking this, not seeing my situation"
"Your situation ___"I still frowned not understanding, and then Bilal signaled with an eye, and I followed Bilal's gaze
"AHHH_____"Bilal smothered my mouth preventing my screams
"Basic bawdy......"I closed my eyes with both my hands embarrassed to see that
"Who started who was said to be perverted...Where is the bathroom?
"False....."I pointed at the bathroom, still closing my eyes
Bilal got out of my bedroom and went into the bathroom
Bilal was in the bathroom for a long time, about an hour.
"Strlap. .."Bilal came out of the bathroom with the pants on, while his clothes were still on my bed
"Over time...once...big bath sir...."?Bilal threw the towel in his hand, I chuckled a little
"Ihhhh...jorok put it to his place again"I threw the towel again to Bilal he caught it and went inside again and hung it in its original place, I did indeed put the towel in the bathroom ,afraid of forgetting or what.
Bilal approached me, I was nervous he was walking and sitting again beside me, hugging my shoulder and holding me to put my head on his chest, it was comfortable but like growing something because Bilal was not wearing clothes,I also took the initiative to take the shirt and give it to Bilal
"Wear again .. I feel uncomfortable "
"Heee.he...he...."Bilal grinned
"It's uncomfortable what's lustful....."
"Talkain Lust again I will shout "The voice of my threat, Bilal immediately silent.
We were both silent, glaring at each other's thoughts
"Now we should forget tomorrow, no matter what happens tomorrow, we just resigned"Bilal began wisely
"If the agreement happens successful and legitimate how"
"It shall not be lawful if , thou shalt thou.I have bound with Ijab and qobul"Bilal pinched my nose.
"But my goal is with Barak "I insist
"Tomorrow you will get your destination without marrying Barak "
"So you have a plan"?
"Sure donggg....."Bilal answered confidently
"And if the plan doesn't work how is it "?
"Forced PLANE B....."
"What's Plan B?
"There is only Bilal and Bila...."I was silent as if remembering something
"Ohh....now I know 2 BIL it means BILAL AND IF SO... right?
"Ohh..yeah..god.....If...so all this time you do not understand the meaning of my company name"Bilal patted his eel
"So....it's true...?
"How else ... I showed you how much you mean to me when......"
"Yes....it is impossible that I thought that far"
"Love and common sense will never go hand in hand....Love only goes along with insanity"
"So you think the person in love must be crazy?
"What...you don't think...."?
"Yes.sih...."I sat down for a moment thinking about something
"The purpose of my life is this, so whatever way I have to get to my goal, I will do anything including marry Barak even if I'm tied up by you, I don't care"Hearing my words I knew Bilal was upset, but that was the truth
"Tomorrow.you just have to be quiet and do nothing "Yes.hopefully.but if it is not to my liking, I do not guarantee that I will be silent.
"I wait for it all "I surrender whatever happens tomorrow I will accept with open arms
"By the way_by the way is there no CCTV here?
"Of course not, if there is a CCTV it's called Barak it's obscene "
"Your betrothed won't come in here"
"He's here if there's anything important, he's just being polite, even if he's here he's knocking on the door first, not like you're cheering without permission"Bilal pouted my words that touched him
"Forced dear.if not gini where can we meet "
"You don't have to worry about Bilal, I feel at home here because Barak always values me, even though Barak is a bit arrogant but he always respects me, only I am a bit not free, but he always respects me,mobile phones are tapped to go anywhere must also pack Bodyguard, you yourself have met my Bodyguard right, they are unmatched"
"Muji..terooossss..
"But that's Bilal's reality"
"Yes..yes..reality is always bitter _sebitter Pare"
"You don't want to stay here, do you....."
"I'll spend the night here"
"You're crazy....."
"I'm crazy because of you" Bilal started with his fist.
"As far as you go. I sleepy, I want to sleep, I'll make a decision.
the wedding is at nine and the wedding fairies will be here at 7, anyway I don't care if you're in pergoki and as usual I won't admit you ,in front of people you're still a stranger to me "I'm a lunatic as I lay down my body to sleep on Bilal's back
"When.......When....."I was silent not responding
"Crazy...When...."
"What.sihh....Bilal I sleepy nihhh....."Forced me to face him, it turns out he also stretched his body so that our faces were very close
"That's what......"I squeezed Bilal's nose hard
"Awwww...sick When. "
"Your noses are tuhhh..nyebelin ,why can it really be like that , it almost hit my nose"
"Why do you lose your nose...."
"Your noses are tuhh..."I put on a frowny face
"Sleep Bilal. .. I sleepy "I couldn't close my eyes but somehow after Bilal's arrival I got sleepy and wanted to close my eyes, once again I turned my back on Bilal
"But.can hug yes...so this is a foreign place to me I'm not used to "
"Hehh...who told you here is who now even..mengeluh kayak a child, yes"
"Truly...excited. ...."Bilal wiggles _shake his body move not because of pleasure
"Diem..
"YES.....YES...I silent my wife"Deggg.
"But you're here dong...."
"Come do it or_____
"Yes.yeah.yeah, I give up"Next Bilal put his hands to my waist and close his body to me, I smiled at Bilal's behavior, he always was with me ,then with Rista_______Astagfirloh it is not willing to share this annoying Bilal attitude with others, there is a sense of tightness that cannot be clearly described, it sucks but it makes me smile happily
This morning we had already done dawn prayer, worship dong.and this is the first time we do ,coffer prayer with husband.
"I'll go out ....you go , fortunately all the goods _goods for the wedding are in another room, I'll be there for makeup "I turned around to pass
"Wait....."Bilal stopped me and I stopped, Bilal approached me and hugged me
"Fixed. ..calm I won't let this marriage happen "Bilal stroked my back, then he took off his arms, I guess he'll let me go ehh, I resignedly accepted it she was entitled to this, the length of the kiss happened like her we were never satisfied we were not willing to stop and....
"Tock...tock...tok..."Still don't care about us
"Tock....Nabila hasn't woken up yet....."?It was Barak's voice, I immediately pushed Bilal away, and regardless of us staring at each other, Bilal wiped my lips with his finger
"Yes...have gone out there..."Bilal turned my body and pushed towards the door
I opened the door and there was a smiling Barracks
"His order. ...has come...."
"Yes...I will go there "I stepped out and closed the door of my room, I'm sure Bilal must have hidden so I relaxed facing Barak.
"We have breakfast first...."We walked to the dining table, there was Umi who was already here two days ago ,everything was taken care of by the Barak man so we just relaxed and waited for everything to be finished
"Pig.....Umf....."I approached them both and hugged them.
We've been sitting quietly at the dinner table, there's nothing we're talking about ,Barak was not very familiar with Abi from the beginning My relationship with Barak 'they were like building a wall of their own ,just shaking hands and smiling at each other that's all they do no more.
