2 BILL
Section 18
I smiled to myself remembering my memories with my friends_friends, I miss all that
"I miss you Bilal"I realize I can't really get away from him
"It hurts so much Bilal" My eyes flowed profusely
"I used to love it when I missed you but now it hurts, only you understand me the most, only you can treat my pain, my life depends on you Bilal, but you have the heart to leave me"I cried sobbing complaining about Bilal's departure, I was like this when I remembered Bilal, crying hysterically,it's hard to stop sometimes my trauma will be crushed and immediately I immediately take my medicine so that I can prevent the trauma from appearing, I realize since Bilal's departure I so often consume this sedative ,so I'm looking for a cure that has fewer side effects, Bilal's influence in my life is so great, when I was with Bilal I sometimes like to forget that I have trauma .
the trauma only appeared when I saw a picture of my sister .
My body trembled, I had difficulty breathing and my chest was tight, before it got worse I reached into my bag and took my medicine and drank it
I closed my eyes trying to ease the tremors and tightness I was experiencing
"Huh.huh..huh......hufffft..."!My breathing subsided and I now look relieved and breathe normally.
The wind blows cool me and dispels the sweat in my body, it's so cold, I feel calm and I still close my eyes
But something strange, like someone was watching me, I opened my eyes, in front of me stood up
a man he smiled at me and I smiled at him
"Chairman..."It was Ibam, he came straight to me and sat down next to me
"Have you finished college"?Mom looked at me
"It's been...."I answered him calmly, fortunately Ibam came after I cried, I didn't want to make him worry
"Initially ...the one who picks up"I looked at my watch , aware of Ibam's arrival too soon
"Know that I'm here"!I'm wondering if I can find Ibam here
"chairman's story, if the chairman's favorite place while on campus, namely in the park
so when I couldn't find the chairman on campus, I came straight here, remembering the chairman's story..."Ibam explained at length
"pick him up a little early" I looked at my watch when I realized that Ibam was coming too soon.
"The lecturer doesn't exist, so I'm coming home fast"!Ibam.
"The two remember him?Suddenly Ibam
speaking of Bilal, he was able to guess when I remembered Bilal
"My eyes are swollen, huh..?I touched my eyes, and smiled at Ibam
"Yes..."Ibam nodded
"Yes remember for a moment, but I'm probably going to forget her" Babam looked at me worriedly
"Have no worries" I shook my hand
"NABILA...."In front of us was Hima's brother he waved his hand
"Sister Hima" I shouted
Hima ran over to us and she stood in front of us
"Hi Hima's..."Ibam said hello to Hima
"Hey Ibam.."Hima replied to Ibam and smiled at him
"You want to go home...?
"Lt..sister..."!
"Sir Hima finished college or what?
"If we're done coming home together, right...?
"I'm here to take you home"
"Really...yes.already let's go home ,mumpung someone nganterin ,dannn__________
"FREEBIES...."I spoke at the same time with Hima, after saying that we laughed, Ibam just smiled looking at my behavior and Hima's sister
We were already in the car, Hima and I were sitting in the back and Ibam Dong was driving because he had the car....
"Sorry .....Ibam, for a while you became a driver first huh.....?I talk while grinning
"Being the driver of two very beautiful women, anyone would be willing to do it all..."
"THANK YOU...IBMMM..."Hima and I spoke together again and Ibam smiled once more
I am grateful to still be able to smile and laugh even though I was crying because considering Bilal, kak Hima is indeed a person who is quickly familiar, he is able to make the atmosphere comfortable, he was able to make the atmosphere comfortable,that's why I like Hima so much.
"We eat first yuk..aku the tract...!Hima invited us to eat
"Emmm...."Iham still thinks
"Shutt's...."I made a sound while raising my eyebrows looking at Kak Hima
"This is Kak Hima's plan to get closer to Ibam huh ...?I spoke to Hima's sister with a whisper
"You're what_what the hell ah..."!
"Yes.no!Hima tried to avoid
"I agree"
"AYOOO...WE EAT.."I shouted in agreement, Brother Hima looked at me grimacing, looking at my behavior
"If chief..mau, I also want, LET'S EAT"Ibam shouted imitate me, I know Ibam will not refuse all my wishes, that I accept the offer of food that Kak Hima asked, I know Ibam will not refuse all my wishes,but Kak Hima suddenly looks moody, I understand, he must be disappointed to see the behavior of Ibam who looks so attentive to me,and I know Kak Hima took me and Ibam ate it his purpose in order to get closer to Ibam
We arrived at the recommended dining place by Kak Hima, the place is nice, with out door nuances, many plants and flowers_little flowers that surround it
And the floor is grass-floored not ceramic, this is beautiful...
"This time, Brother Hima brought me here"!I said while looking around
"Ngga' was Nabila, you when you come here will be directly busy with your college business" said Hima
"Yes.sihh.."
"It's really good, brother..bakal became a favorite place ...."
"So the chairman has never been here"?She smiled at my behavior
"Yes.this is the first time"
"I even come here a lot, so it's close to my campus area" Ibam explained
"Ahhh..you cheated..so I'm the first one here" I grumbled with a sullen face.
"Sorry.yes chairman..."
"later I will often invite the chairman here"Ibam stroked the top of my head, seen Kak Hima more moody I feel not' good at heart, as Ibam was used to being cool to me ,but I was even sad when Ibam did it all in front of the women who like Ibam, what else is Kak Hima, a cousin that I love.
"Hee.he..."I smiled with a forced
"I was in the toilet, chief..."Excuse me to the toilet, please,
"Yes...."I nodded
After Ibam was not seen, I immediately looked at Kak Hima
Hima looks very moody and looks disappointed.
"Not so moody" I clasped Hima's hand
"Kak Hima's opportunity is still wide open really..."
"But he seems to like you so much Nabila" Sister Hima looked down lethargic
"He used to like me, but we couldn't be together, later in my house....."I still hold Hima's hand
"Later if you have heard my story, Sister Hima must understand why Ibam's attitude to me seems very attentive
"Yes.I'm waiting for your story"Sister Hima nodded in understanding.
"And don't be so moody, Ibam will see Hima's ugly face before his time"
"What do you mean before time, so there's a time when I can see my gloomy face again"
"Let's have a time..."!
"When is Emang ...?Hima asked
"When it is halal..!
"Yes.if that happens"
"Aamiennn, that's Hima's sister,"
"waaah......!"
lost where the spirit and confident Himaku Brother "
"Know tuh...kemana..kembur river the most"!Hima looked down lethargic
" I don't know Nabila..tasa when he saw Ibam staring at you it looks as if you're the only woman in the world, his attention when he called you, it all makes me jealous"All of Kak Hima's words are true, even from the past until now Ibam never spoke rudely to me.
"Waahh..sampe' level of jealousy yes.I think Hima's brother is still only like Ibam"
"No' you know Nabila , it feels so stifling chest"Sister Hima still lowered her head in lethargy
"Sister Hima.ayoolah"
"Let's talk at home.yes...!
"Tuh...Ibam has come..udaahh..ayo smilem..."We stopped the chat we saw Ibam walking towards us
Mom sat in her place
"Have you ordered food"?Ibam opened the conversation by asking, now I realize that Ibam's gaze was always glued to me even when he asked if we had ordered food, he just stared at Hima's sister at a glance after that he just looked at me
I looked down lethargic, how could Ibam have looked at Hima's brother, and was attracted to him.
"When have you been friends ?Hima's sister ventured to familiarize herself with Ibam
"Since we SD "Ibam answered briefly, I only listened while eating the food we had ordered
"Have you never dated Ibam"?Hima began to discuss personal matters
"Sir Hima .not that I told you later I told you all about it , 'kok even still ask Ibam"!I grumbled in my heart
"Eheehhhh..."She grinned and smiled at me
"Some have given us rules about the ban on dating, he said it does not exist in Islam" the spokesman explained in a cheerful tone
"Who is he..."?Kak Hima asked curiously, I understand about Kak Hima's want to know about Ibam, that's all he did because he was interested in Ibam
"Tuhhhh...alongside you, our gang boss"!He pointed with his face
"Heehhhh" I can only grin
"We used to know.punya Geng kak Hima, and I served as his master"!I made clear Ibam's remarks .
"So you're leading a gang"?Hima was curious
"She..dong.I'm very popular"!I speak with pride, '' Ibam smiled at me
"Ihhhhhh"
"How many members are there ?
"Five people" I replied enthusiastically
"The man_man is Ibam?
"Emmmmhh.no.."I shook my head
"It's more precisely just me the girl in the gang, and I was able to bring the gang to a very high level of popularity" I'm still acting presumptuous trying to make Hima and Ibam not stiff anymore
"Is that really Ibam?Hima asked Ibam not to believe me
"He.ehh"Ibam nodded.
I raised my chin bragging.
We keep telling stories about many things, at least I have made Ibam and Kak Hima not awkward anymore they look more familiar
We've come home from the restaurant and now I'm in my room, I've had a shower, a prayer and______"Tok.."Someone knocked on my bedroom door
"Yes..enter..ngga' in the key"I shouted.
Hima's sister smiled as she walked up to me and sat on my bed
"Debt the explanation of the story"Sister Hima said sweetly
"There is still less explanation of the story, so Ibam has told most of it."I stare at Hima's sister
"Sorry..."!Hima can only grin
"had been told wait at home later, I'll tell you everything.this is it...."I pretended to be upset
"Yaa.don't be angry dong Nabila, will you apologize, I also don't' intentionally that"Kak Hima memelas.
"Strouble yes.if it's interested half dead, all the talk is not' mempan"I still pretend to be upset
"Nabila..don't get angry dong...."Hima's sister shook_shaking my shoulder
"Yeah..ngga' so dong story"Son Hima looked down lethargic, he just wanted to get off my bed.
"KIDDING...."I held his arm and shouted
"You're not making me feel good" Sister Hima smiled
"I'm not angry Kak Hima"
"Pura_pretend to tease Kak Hima"
"I also understand, that's all Hima did because of Kak Hima's interest in Ibam"
Thanks....."Hima's sister hugged me, I smiled, then we went back to each place_each and started the story
"We're friends starting SD, we
famous for our uracin nature and slalu make trouble, but we remain an idol because we do come from a family that is and also looks we are included in the average_rata
"Nihh..photo album"!I gave an album to Hima's brother, the album contained all of our photos from SD until we last took a photo of that time on KPSD
"Ibam behaved like that because it was just me being close to her and the other Irfan , Roy and______" I stopped saying her name,when he realized he was not with me and didn't want me anymore.
"And who...?Hima's sister broke my daydreams, I seemed to be silent for quite a while.
"And Bilal...."After saying that name, flow all the stories about our closeness, but I didn't tell you about the trauma I had, I haven't been able to be open about this.
"So we can say we are bound because of Bilal .
"Bilal was my childhood friend then he introduced me to them as the girl they should protect and also love but as a brother should not think of me more than that ,because the one who has the right to think of me as more is just him .
" That's what Bilal said to Hima, I have no intention of bragging" I tried to smile at all the tightness I felt because I remembered Bilal again
"Then where is he now, can't he let you here, only in Ibam's company?Hima asked about Bilal
"Hhhhhh"!I exhaled my breath
"HE'S GONE"
"Daan_____there was no reason why he left, even the last time we heard the news he said he was married"
Hima's sister fell silent, she looked at me regretfully for telling me about my wounds
"So that's why you moved here?
"Yes...."My tears began to drip slowly, I lowered my head
"Husss..already, here I hug"Sir Hima hugged me, I cried even more.
"Have not cried, you must keep the spirit, and make him regret for leaving you ."Hima's sister held both of my shoulders in spirit
"But Ibam said he said you gave him the rules not to date, but why are you dating"!Hima tried to melt the atmosphere
"Who's dating?I looked at Hima's brother in wonder, I wiped my tears provoked by Hima's words
"You're the same as your Bilal"
"We're not going out with Kak Hima, Bilal just claims me as his, but I also issued the rule because of Abi's ban."
"O.iya.ya..yes, I forgot you had Abi a kiyai" Kak Hima patted her forehead.
"Iaa.lah if until we have a courtship can be damprat same Abi all out_"I shook my horror shadowed Abi's anger.
"Then others where is..only Ibam who slalu riwa_riwi near you"?Hima asked about the others
"Ihhhhh..sangking ngga' relanya Ibam close to me, sampe' sebitunya yes.."I pinched Kak Hima's arm gemes
"Aduhh..sakit Nabila"Kak Hima rubbed_snab his shoulder.
"The others went to college too.but outside the country"!I explained
The conversation went around me and the others, but most of Hima's sister asked about Ibam
" If if Kak Hima and Ibam are paired I hope that Kak Hima is not angry with the closeness of me and Ibam, and someday if Ibam is more concerned with me than Kak Hima ,Hima wants to understand that...."I looked at Hima's sister for approval
"But if Ibam changes his attitude towards you and is more concerned with me, are you jealous'?Hima's sister looked at me intending to tease
"Inshaallah engga' kak Hima.but.yes.ijin met a little bit like that , make a vent, so Ibam most understand me , and he's a nice person when invited to vent, make it,Kak Hima try once_times to talk to him together Ibam he. his people are fun to chat with"
"Nihh.I give you Ibam's phone number"
I gave no Ibam to Kak Hima, he said later he would try it.
After chatting with Hima it seemed to somewhat reduce the burden of my longing for Bilal, even though I felt that I had become an insignificant person in Bilal's life ,but I still pray that he is always happy there without me, and let me here languish and long without him .
