2 BILL

SECTION 29

  The face came again

The face approached me again

That face I miss again

The face was in front of me again

     She's real

     She exists

     He's tangible

    She looks

Usually just a shadow

Usually just a dream

Usually just a flash

Usually just vague

      My heart is still for him

   My heart still beats because of it

Ragaku still craves it

My soul is still attached to it

     I still love him

           I still feel this is a dream, the meeting we did not talk much, just a small debate we immediately talked about important things about our cooperation, after which Barak and I went home

     My bilal is still the same as it used to be handsome sweet cool, second to none, he is also more dashing, I do not recognize the name of his company, because there is no Abimananya appendage"2 BIL "A strange name.....

  Arriving at home I sat on the sofa "Hahhhhh,capek ...."I leaned against the sofa while closing my eyes

   I feel being looked at, ahhhh I am sure it is Barak, let me be lazy to argue this time

"Break for dinner later"So he still wants me to cook, he doesn't know what if I don't' cook, I still don't respond

"Engga' will!I refused firmly without opening my eyes, had I been able to reject a Barrack like this when he had imitated me with that promise, I would have now lived a quiet life _without bother _difficult to hold my heart every near Barak

"You just cook, all the ingredients are already there, how hard is it anyway?"This is how if I live with people who do not know us, I must be told_completely with something that I can not, I cuekin ahhhhh ... lest I know how he feels, I shadow Bilal's face just now,"Yes...God he is more charming, I am always held captive to his smile, the lucky woman who is with him, I develop a smile on my lips, I do not care even though it will be seen by Barak

"www..."I grimaced, suddenly someone grabbed my cheeks, very hard and very painful, automatically opened my eyes

"Dare you not care about me hahhh"When Barak returned my gaze, his eyes seemed to gasp in surprise, I frowned, why was he even surprised to see my eyes, maybe my eyes had dirt times....,but let him also what cares about me, want my eyes there is dirt cake to accumulate also I do not care

"PASSION..."I moved trying to remove the grip of Barak's hand without touching his arm, I didn't want to touch him at all

"You have promised there is no physical contact between us"

"SO YOU WANT ME TO ACT LIKE WE'RE STRANGERS, THEN?Barak shouted and snapped, he had already taken off his hand

"Just realizing that we are strangers" I still spoke in a cold tone, fighting him fearlessly, maybe he could threaten everyone but not me

"AAAARRRKKHHH"Barak shouted

"PRANKKKK"He threw a vase on the table, I covered my ears and closed my eyes

"You why the hell....."?

"From that strange..pengen in masakin lah ..."

"In front of the client says I am your future wife, usually you are concerned about her professionalism you are, now I'm even behaving like this.anehhhh"

"Who is he....?I quietly put on a face not understanding, the question is similar to the lyrics of the song ...."he..he...he..."I laughed to myself but only in my heart

"What does he mean to you?Barak is still asking questions that make me confused, where is the direction of the conversation, why Barak does not' sing anyway........"I still grumble in my heart

      

"MUHAMMAD BILAL ABIMANA" I was shocked, but at the meeting we had explained that he was only a friend of my village, we argued because we were never suitable, but we were not,barak was seen believing in all my words but now why could he think like this

"That other name is him, isn't it ...?

"really so?Barak is very observant I even tried to cover all of it with all my might, but the results are nil

"The weirder you are, what other name is..."

"I go away, rest for a while, and I will masakin dehhhh.as you wish" I walked by into the room I had been living in with him,I didn't care about Barak's gaze as if he wanted to ask me a lot of questions

   Because that jerk was acting weird, he said he wanted me to cook for him, I finally gave up and now I'm here cooking for him, I think he's lacking affection

    With accompanied by a phone that lights up because I was looking at the menu that I cooked, now all easy age, can not cook can browse on HP, just all easy.....

   I remember Abi with Umi, they didn't stop advising me until I got to the front of the car, I understand their concern seeing me living alone with a man_man who is not his muhrim"Sorry Umi, sorry Abi, sorry Abi,I hope you understand all this

    After the show they stayed here and the next morning they went straight home, I really still miss them, but I held it, they went home it was a bit of a relief because I was afraid of the real talk, but I was holding it,because I can't afford to lie to them.

  "HAAAAAHHHH Finally finished as well"I patted_applause and saw the satisfaction of all the dishes I cooked, and now it's served on the table while raising my chest,kitchen problems that are messy later can be resolved by the waiter

   I went upstairs to the Barracks room on the top floor, Barak's room was above while my room was on the lower floor, this was my requirement as well,after all this Barak is a man and I am sure behind his succumbing nature, he keeps a sense of high passion a man_man who usually never presents shame in it.

   Until now Barak did not dare to touch me, even holding hands, Barak never dared to enter my room, he always dredged the door first if he needed something, as I do now

"Tock.tock...tokk..."

"Esteemed Mr. Barak Boss who he said he wanted to be in masakin, now the cuisine has been served at the dining table please his Excellency Mr. Boss attend the table and be willing to eat the dishes that I have prepared"I spoke at length, mentioning all the very adoring calls to Barak

   "Let's give up once_is not giving up does not mean losing but giving up is a delayed win.

"Krekkk"The door sounds open, Barak smiles at me, a very sweet smile, combined with expensive clothes that always look new, certainly adds to the good looks of this man"But he's just handsome yet able to make my heart smile sweet, yesaaaa.possibly if other girls must have klepek_klepek see Barak like this, smile cheerfully but not for me.

"Food is ready, want dinner now"?I'm still here to be professional

"Alright come on.we eat"

"I'm sure your cooking must be delicious"Barak spoke as he walked

"Thank God you're sure"!I answered again formally

"But I'm not sure"!I speak for myself in my heart

     Actually I used to cook for all my gnk members, when they tasted my food they all vomited it, they said it was weird, it was weird,they all went straight into the toilet to get the food I cooked out of their mouths, but there was one person who calmly ate my food without complaining and he was Bilal,I put a scowl on Bilal"Have Bilal, if it's not good, don't eat"I'm talking lethargic to Bilal

"That's it...."I brushed off the spoon of Bilal who was about to enter his mouth

"You must be afraid I'm sad, right....?

"Don't do that, I don't do anything 'ok ', I realize I'm lacking in cooking"You're tired_capek cooking when thrown away dear"Bilal still kekeh

"NGGA' USAH BILAL please"

"Behavior, I'm hungry again, so let me eat okay...."

"You know.not only does my heart fall in love with you, but my whole body also includes my stomach, so you know how people fall in love, however much it will feel good,do not be horrified by the words of those who say your cooking is strange"All the sweet talk Bilal makes me blush, I also tried my cooking, I immediately frowned, they all really taste strange.I can only grimace when I see Bilal feed the food his mouth, I until I doubt "If he is not bothered with my strange cooking, I myself am already ogah and do not eat this food, love is indeed strange.

   We have arrived and have sat sweetly at the table that has been filled by my cooking, I am the type of person who never tried the food cooked

   So when the food is on the new table I try it if it's good to eat dehhh....

  I saw Barak, I wanted him to eat this first meal, he was silent for a while staring at my cooking, then he looked at me

"Ayoo...please eat"I let Barak eat,"If it does not taste appropriate, do not hesitate to talk"It seems to my heart ketar_ketir, Barak looks like a jury chef on TV, it looks like,which looks spooky and always gives a SPICY comment CABE BIKES.

   The barracks began to put the food in his mouth, he chewed slowly

"Not bad, it's still worth eating" the barrack swallowed the nut slowly

"But____, tomorrow no' to cook again, let the waiter just cook"I scowled after hearing that"He said it wasn't bad, I said not to cook anymore, basic sycophant, basic sycophant,surely he wants me to be moved, but sorry yes...I am not touched at all, I realize that my cooking is not good.

"So the name that is in your heart, comes from the family of Abimana?Barak started a mouth war with me.

"I___not___understand___what _____means of this conversation"I spoke indifferently and avoided

"Are you jealous of that new man"?I'm trying to relax

"It's up to you not to be honest"

"For sure from now on____"The distance stopped

"From now on I want to strive to be the only name you have in your heart"

"Are you not exaggerating" I frowned in wonder, instead he knew I hated him so much so it was likely that I would put his name in my heart, it was like something impossible

"Isn't that something impossible to happen"

"Bright.ha...."Barracks laugh at me

"When nothing is impossible in this world" she looked down at me

"I'm sure I can make you have feelings for me" I rolled my eyes lazy

"You don't have to bother trying to make me have feelings for you, no. I already have feelings for you" I replied cynically.

"O....yahhh...What feeling is that?Barak replied to me casually I think he knows what I mean

"Yaaa....I know for sure the feeling of hate, right?He preceded me wanting to say that

"Thank God you already know"

"Means I don't have to bother 'talking"

"He.he..If ___When you don't know that hate is different from love, so I'll erode that thin difference until it's gone until hate is fused with love "Barak grinned with satisfaction when I saw me speechless, I was aware of this, a lot of sihhh..People who said that, and had experienced it, I was afraid this was all happening, I really_don't want this to happen ,I don't want to feel love for Barak, I don't want , he's the one who's caused me to have nightmares, instead of punishing him for time' I'm giving him a gift of love....that's a terrible thing.

"I'm done"

"Thank you for cooking for me"Barak stood up to get out of his chair, I just stared at him lazily

"I think it's a good thing, to start a feeling of love" Barak stopped stepping and talking like that

"THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN" I cried hysterically, Barak stopped stepping again he was like waiting for what I would say next

"If I were to feel love for you and fall in love, then I would break my heart to nothing" I said cynically, nothing Barak said, he did not return my words and continued to walk away

    My breath goes up and down, Barak really ignites my emotions, in addition to holding me now he also wants to rule me, with love, will I make sure it will not happen,"Remember Nabila , if you put your heart on him, ' said Nabila,then not only Barak will I destroy but you also Nabila"I'm lecturing myself

   "I'd better take a shower and rest, so that my head is cold"Every day that's what Barak did to me, intimidating and talking about the things that ignited my emotions .

   Today we work as usual, busy here and there, meet with clients, by the way_by the way about clients, Bilal is on that list, our next meeting schedule with Bilal is still a long time.

   How is Bilal's life now I don't know, when I started college I rarely open my own account, even can be said never, I did avoid the news about Bilal, I did not know,I was afraid that the more it hurt, I also started to focus on my goals .

    Yesterday when I met Bilal I went to tolilet for a while to vent my emotions, and my tears flowed there but I tried to get in the way of him, because I didn't want my eyes to swell.

    But when I came out of the toilet, I didn't think there was someone standing in front of me, I tried to get through with my head down, I knew who he was, I memorized the smell of perfume I liked,she should have changed the perfume she was wearing, so I told her to wear this perfume, and she should have used it while she was with me, if not with me I forbade her to use this perfume,and he obeyed me, sweet he was ...but why after all that sweet attitude he started from small to me, it changed in an instant,really it hit my soul so much that it made me fall, I was able to rise after meeting Barak, he changed my life purpose.

  I was still trying to get through it but he was facing me, so I was upset and raised my face trying to look at him even though my heart was beating unbecause of earlier

"Ohhhhh......"I breathe feeling tired

"I can pass by, I'm waiting for my future husband" I looked into Bilal's eyes trying to intimidate him, saw him clenching his teeth and his jaw hardening, I knew I had ignited his emotions.

     But what Bilal did was beyond my expectations

"Brukkkk"Bilal held me in his arms, I gasped in shock, but I just kept quiet, we hugged for a long time, I missed this warm embrace that always made me comfortable,it felt like I wanted to cry and vent all my longing but Bilal's whispering brought me to reality

"I'll take mine"After whispering like that Bilal pulled my shoulder gave distance and then he looked at me and spoke

"For ever Bilal and when there will always be"Then Bilal took off my shoulder turned and walked away"Do Bilal mean he still has feelings for me,after everything he's done left me when he knows I can't live without him, and now when I've recovered from my wounds he says Bilal and If there's going to be bullshit,

that's not possible

"INDEED THERE IS STILL BUT ONLY IN YOUR DREAM ONLY" I shouted after being aware of the situation, Bilal not far away I am sure he heard my cry that I regret why I was just silent and not evasive"Basic heart can not be invited to compromise, what do I care about the heart, for me is no longer meaningful .

"I DON'T CAREIIIIIII"I cried out once more, but the toilet was again like, 'Basic Bilal the traitor.

"When can I hold a cell phone?I asked as I finished reading the Barracks' schedule,I don't know where my cell phone is taken that I definitely don't hold a cell phone after cleaning my things at my aunt's house and say I have to live in a house that has been provided by the company and not long after that I was engaged to Barak, this time I remember that I had missed all my friends and also Kak Hima.

"After all the business is done, and____ the phone that you will hold will be connected to my phone so you do not dare to macem_macem"Like as usual full of threats

"No daring, I've been bound to you by a promise and must be kept , lest the promise be kept, don't my cell phone, you won't find me anywhere" I threatened him back,guess I'm afraid of what, you son of a bitch doesn't know the rules, he just makes me not hold a cell phone

    "May I go to my aunt's house?

"I miss my aunt"Barak raised his head from earlier he just lowered his head when he answered the question

"Just the same Auntie, right?

"Engga'..I miss Hima too"I spoke rather in the little frown, let the Barracks in front of me, beatiful.

"We'll be there tonight"

"Alhamdulillah.could meet Kak Hima"

"But wait a minute.."

"WEAAA..?

"You want to come too..?

"Of course I'm with Nabila, I won't let someone like you who looks tame but seems to want to pounce on me, out alone without the tamer" The long bicra parcel showed me his power

"You think I'm what animal..pake' show on tame_tame everything" I looked at Barak annoyed.

"It's up to you......."

"I'm sorry to hear Mr. Barak Boss tamed me but still looks like he wants to pounce" I rolled my eyes lazily looking at the triumphant smiling Barak

"I'm going to the cafeteria first ..lunch"

"Wait.I'll come along, I'll be done soon"Barak stopped my steps.

"I want to eat alone" I still argue

"Wait a minute or you can't get out without me"

"Uuurrrrkkkkhh"I braked to hold back my emotions

"As much as you....."I sat back down at my place, and cleaned the table while waiting for Barak

"Why.....all men close to me like to nempelin I continue..kayak nga' there are other women in this world" I grumbled indistinctly.

"Because you tuhhh...always make everyone around you, like you, so we as men are not willing if the girl we love in the lyrics or in the likes of other men_"The talking barracks still lowered their heads without looking at me

"You guys are the lebayyyy" I replied, but Barak just gave me a thin smile.

    That night according to my Barracks promise and he visited my Aunt's house, the house I used to live in while in college, Auntie greeted me enthusiastically he missed me so much, my uncle also happened to be at home, my mother also happened to be at home,the husband of my aunt named HILAL YUSUF is a businessman in the field of hospitality he and my Aunt who was formerly named FATIMAH FATAHILLAH but after marriage became FATIMAH YUSUF.

    They met in this city when my aunt continued her education in college, college friends met friends fell in love with each other, then after graduating college and working my uncle proposed to my aunt and married, and then I got married,thank God their household looks very harmonious, they only have Kak Hima in their lives.

   When I saw Hima coming down the stairs, I went straight to her and we hugged

"Still remember you are with your Hima sister" Sister Hima spoke as we hugged

"I really miss Hima"

"Sindu but do not want the real story, right....?Hima spoke in an angry tone, we spoke slowly, I was deliberately afraid Barak heard, his view had been watching me so I had to be more careful_careful

   We took off our hugs I lowered my head and said

"Sorry for this one I can't tell you yet" I've been crying from earlier my tears have been rushing

"Ngga' anything_do I understand really"Kak Hima rubbed my shoulder

"But I'm still waiting for your story"Sister Hima whispered in my ear she pretended to hug me again and rubbed my back

"Thank you" I nodded slowly while saying thank you

"Ayooooo "The two of us stepped into the living room where there was already a Barrack and uncle who seemed to be talking about their business and beside the smiling Pan Bibi greeted us

"You guys don't know first if you want to come here, you can cook more, this is the first time Mr. Mubarak Hadi visited here"Aunti spoke kindly

"Aah....Aunty, don't call me formal like that, just call me Barak like when Nabila called me"

"O..iya Nak Barak sorry"

"Iya Bi.paman ,tadi happened to be Nabila suddenly she said she missed her Aunt so after from our office directly here"

"On the road we ate Bi ....."Barracks explained

"Actually Hima has always admired you and your lunge in Business....."

"Right"Barak looked at us

"Yes.candidate sister-in-law..I also send a job application letter to your office, but not accepted"

"O....so anyway, now Hima's working or what"?

"Udah sihh.

"But no' what _what a sister-in-law candidate, now I'm happy in my current workplace"

"Don't talk formally like that, and just call with the call that Nabila uses, soon we will be family"

"Yes.yes....Barracks yeah....."Hima nodded her head.

"Ting..tong....ting....tong..."The sound of Bel breaking our conversation.

     "It looks like there's a guest" I'm talking casually

"Hey..."Uncle nyeng

"That must be him ..."I cringed not understanding uncle's words

"He...Who is uncle....?I asked curiously

"You open Hima there"The uncle rules Kak Hima

"I follow Hima, I'm curious"I stood up, looking at Barak for his approval, I tried to relax I was really curious, I hope my guess is right, he meant by that uncle Ibam,I want to meet her I miss her so much.

   The barracks nodded in agreement

"Yes.here let uncle who won your fiancee, fear uncle eat yes.your betrothed, sampe' want to open the door just ask permission"Paman teased me.

  I also followed Hima

"That's Ibam"Aky grabbed Kak Hima's shoulder and whispered.

"Yes...."Hima nodded with a smile

"AHH____" I wanted to shout happily, but Kak Hima stopped me

"Ssuuttss you don't be noisy"

"I know you're on the same side as your fiancee, and you're not allowed to see Ibam"

"Sir Hima knows where it's from"?

"Know where......"Hima repeated my words

"Yes...I know for myself lahh..it looks very Nabila, Your phone is dead can not be connected, every time you get out of the office there are always guards who accompany and watch you"

"Sister Hima is indeed the understanding of "I put on a sweet face moved

"But we are waiting for your honesty Nabila,SE_CE_PAT_NYA_"

"VEP...."I pretend to pay my respects.

"When you came here I was shocked, I was sure Ibam must have been cool"

   We stepped in while talking, and arriving at the door, I immediately ran away and immediately held the doorknob ahead of Kak Hima"

"Ngga' sabarana kau"Kak Hima patted my shoulder

    Open the door and there was a man smiling sweetly my best friend Ibam, at first I saw him smiling sweetly but when I saw the me in front of me, the two gasped in shock

"CHAIRMAN...."Ibam yelled

"Suttssss" I stopped Ibam's screams of fear

"Waahh ...."I pulled Ibam's nose

"It's further now yeah ..."!I moved my pinch on his cheek tweezers

"Aduhhh.sak chief"Ibam grimaced rubbing his nose and cheeks.

"Hima..see chief pinch me"Ibam sulks at Sister Hima.

"You're afraid of him, let alone me"Sir Hima looked at Ibam lazily

"We've had a day Ibam, if I say yes....Hima's sister also said yes, if I say no Hima's sister must have said no too....he?I embrace Sister Hima

"SIIPPPPP...."We put our thumbs together

"But you guys are co______" My words stopped, what is this, he's here with Ibam, what am I imagining, I was immediately silent and fixated on staring at that person

"Assalamu aleikum Bila"He was Bilal yes he was Bilal and only he called me Bila, the one who had left me, he smiled charmingly as usual, he was,

     So they've met each other, Ibam and Bilal, surely Irfan and Roy have met Bilal too, and they must have met each other behind me without me, jealousy undermines my heart,they can be together again like before, while I'm stuck with people like Barak, I want to be like before, I want to repeat all our mischief that is able to make all the villagers geleng_geleng, he said,but all is not the same can not be the same again all changed, because the departure of Bilal who just left without explaining something

"Hehhh......"I laughed cynically

"You're together"The flowing tears can't stand.

"YOU MADE GOOD...."I screamed hysterically

"You've been together without ME of course.....YEAH.YES...."I'm still talking cynical

"Chairman of terror first"Abam grabbed my arm trying to calm me down,Son Hima was silent as well as Bilal, he probably realized that he had been too deep to hurt me, so that the depth was unable to be covered by his arrival, he may have realized that he had been too deep to hurt me,I miss..I miss him a lot, but the pain he has inflicted I can not just throw away, the wound is still very impregnated very imprint.

"He who left us Ibam, he cast us out Ibam,

YOU KNOW THAT, RIGHT"?

"Yes..iya.iya.iya ....chairman.I know that and I realize"The priest approached me and tried to calm me down.

"Then what is this?

"I can't stand the chairman ...."

"The chairman looks far away, the chairman is not reached, I worry ,we ...all very worried, we need help, we are injured to see the chairman like this"

"I'm not hurt Ibam I'm fine"Ngga' I thought we were arguing at the door,fortunately the distance between the living room and the front door is a bit far and invisible so I'm sure the Barracks won't hear this 'unless the Barracks are here right now.

"I don't trust the chairman at all...."

"Hehhhh...the chairman I know cannot be that much as destroy someone, let alone someone like Sajad who is so good"I lowered my head to hear the words of Ibam, Ibam,I am famous for how much I value others, and if it will destroy myself, I will still put people's self-esteem before others.

"Sajad destroyed the chairman ...he looks very shaky, I can wait for honesty until the chairman is willing to tell his own story, but Sajad I'm sure he will be destroyed_his destruction if waiting for it"Ibam mentioned Sajad's name,I believe Sajad met Ibam and issued his complaint to ibam

"What's his relationship to this" I'm still talking sobbing

"Because I'm still convinced of its effect on the chairman"

"You're funny Ibam, that influence was gone when he kicked me out of his heart"

"Please let us try"

"Chairman.do what the chairman wants, and let us figure this out"

"Please..chairman.... I beg you, I was forced to, again, accept him"Bam glanced at Bilal who had seen our debate.

"Yes.yes.yes"Bilal looked at the lazy Ibam.

"It looks like you've started to dare me Ibam" Bilal half-mocked Ibam

"I'm not afraid of the boss...."Basic Ibam, he was forced, but he still called Bilal with the call of the Boss ...

"Truly not afraid....?

"Yes.iya it is, I will never lie, again our relationship has been broken"Ibam.and Bilal even betdebat like a couple of lovers who are fighting again

"Kok I'm so horrified huh...?Hima's sister was blabbering

"What connection do you mean" I looked up at Kak Hima's face

"Benefit Hima, preferably Kak Hima thinkin again, about Taaruf Kak Hima and Ibam" I embrace Kak Hima, while igniting the fire of emotion at Kak Hima

"Rhh ...Bilal ...."Hima pointed to Bilal, I smiled happily at Hima, Bilal and Ibam were in disbelief.

"It was enough that Nabila became the third person among us and now added again with him and the severity of him _man"

"This is my fate...Hiks...hiks...."Kak Hima was seen once pretending to cry, while putting his palm on his forehead

"Kok I also brought Kak Hima" I pointed at myself, the protest did not accept.

"We'd better get out first.we're going to finish our business" Brother Hima pushed me out, Sister Hima gestured to Ibam to push Bilal out as well, and I saw all of that.

"But..but ...Sister Hima, Brother Hima don't.gini dong"

"Sister Hima this isn't funny" I tried with compassion

I still survived but Hima managed to keep me outside as well as Bilal, and now I'm both with Bilal outside.