“I'm Not Your Destiny”

Chapter 56 - Love is not over

No love is wrong, no meeting is planned and no destiny is made.

Every love always gives two choices: let go or endure. 

Which is more painful than both? 

Survive it? Let go? It all depends on the situation, we can not immediately decide a choice without thinking, sometimes two different things can have the same meaning let alone a choice.

Valery, he always expressed gratitude in his heart to be back. But his feelings were now different - something was slowly disappearing in his heart and the power of his love. 

Maybe it's a phobia or just something else, a lie if Valery still doesn't think about Levin who might be undercover again, although now Valery knows Levin's real face but before the man showed the real face he was once disguised as Woojin, right? Even if it's only three months.

Valery still observes Woojin's sleeping face in front of him, after passing the day that all the stories Valery told him now only one story that Valery has not said, Valery has not said, she is too scared if Woojin doesn't believe the story, let alone this was a long time ago long before Valery disappeared.

Her tiny hands brushed away the hair that covered Woojin's face, the dark circles under her eyes explaining everything that the man would have rarely slept regularly, Valery thought about what the man was saying as he lay in bed and the daily life that the man had missed without him.

“i always ask how is our next story? Will there be happiness after this?” valery said, he deliberately shrank his voice agara did not disturb this calm atmosphere.

Not even a year to know Woojin, it feels very long to be by the man's side, it feels like a lot of moments that occur without Valery ever think about, he said, from the initial purpose of wanting to change his life for the better he was even given a life challenge that may rarely occur, but who would have thought all of those events gave one memory of his own in his life.

Despite all the responsibilities that were still waiting for her, Valery still wanted to stall all of it just to stay in her warm embrace, she said, if it is going to end soon let all this be her sleep delivery before Valery finally has to wake up again.

Behind a thick blanket and in Woojin's eyes, everything gives emotion in Valery's feelings, can he say if Valery really wants to stay like this? 

Can she have at least one child for the man she loves so much, to introduce him to her son if he has a good father and Valery hopes to make Woojin understand what's going on. 

Valery's got tears in his eyes, he won't be sad. Now is the time to restart their relationship, at least until Valery chooses, or until Valery feels happy enough. 

Woojin opened his eyes when he felt Valery was moving too much and disturbed his sleep a little, while looking at the girl's face was just a smile that he showed, it felt like Woojin was dreaming because it was normal when he opened his eyes he only saw Valery who was standing by his side. 

But now he could see that face with his beautiful eyes.

“why?”  he asked, the voice was so hoarse and soft that anyone always wanted to hear it again and again.

“Hm?”  Valery tries to hide his current feelings, as much as possible he looks ordinary in front of Woojin. “aku?”

“why? You can't sleep?” woojin asked again, this time he was a little more spoiled by pulling Valery's body to get closer, immersing his face in a cut off Valery's neck.

“how can I sleep if you just don't want to let go of me”

“what's wrong? I just hugged you, why did you say as if you wanted to go?”

Woojin slightly moved away from her body, she flipped her body to turn her back on Valery. It's not like a child who if the candy is taken will be angry.

Valery approaches Woojin's body, hands her tiny hands to hug Woojin's body from behind “forgive me”

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Bend day …..

Today Woojin and his grandfather have plans for other affairs so that when Valery opens his eyes he does not see Woojin by his side. 

Once again Valery is still not used to this situation, so when opening his eyes he is sometimes seen to maintain the condition around, so that when he is open, usually if in the world ‘Shadow Soul’ when opening the eyes Valery will find the figure of Levin who is either sitting on a couch or just standing in front of a window. 

Valery rubbed his face, he had to make memories about life in the world ‘Shadow Soul’, if like this continues Valery may be difficult to adapt, if Valery will have difficulty adapting, Valerh may be haunting Woojin like in the world of ‘Shadow Soul’.

In front of the wasrafel Valery pulled out all his stomach, his stomach felt so cramped that it made Valery unable to stand. ‘I can not continue like this’

Valery looked at her face in front of her, what she now had to do, the fact that she was pregnant was not a problem for Valery but it also scared her if Woojin did not believe it. 

Valery was pregnant before she entered the world ‘Shadow Soul’, she knew it when she entered the hospital before the full moon, the doctor who examined her body said she was pregnant but Valery decided to hide it and forbade the doctor from telling Woojin the truth.

But after that Valery did not know what the fate of the child when he was in a coma, Valery was afraid that the baby could not be saved, because during the coma automatically Valery's body did not receive food and vitamin intake, and Valery was afraid that the baby could not be saved, is the baby still holding up?

It could be that this nausea occurs because of other effects not because she was pregnant, this is past three months, is pregnant women still past this period?

When Valery closed the bathroom door, he accidentally saw one of the servants who entered his room. 

“Nona is awake, I came here because of Young Master's order to make sure if Miss is awake, what breakfast does Miss want?” said the waiter.

Valery let go of his hand that was rubbing his stomach, he hoped the woman would not hear what was going on in there, with a little awkward Valery moving away from there “k-where did Woojin go?”

“Young Master is having some business outside with Mr. Hwang, they will be back at lunch”

“Oh, I'll have breakfast with the one you guys made”

“ alright, then I will-”

“No!! You don't have to drive him here, I'll drop”

Valery again felt nauseous, he wanted to immediately make the maid leave his room before things got complicated for him. 

“well, I will prepare in the dining room” said the waiter, he immediately left the room.

Valery ran to lock his room before returning to the bathroom, if this was how he could do the checking, royal residence was more troublesome than living in the usual environment. 

“actually what is going on?” 

“really you still there baby?”

She notices her body has not shown anything, although it seems that Valery lost a lot of weight but her stomach can not lie even though she is still small but if Valery wears undergarments will look distended stomach.

“I hope, he still survives here”

After cleaning herself up, Valery prefers to wear a dress that's wide enough, she'll figure out a way to get out of here to go to the doctor. 

Note: does anyone know if Valery is pregnant? Is that baby still there? I'm more curious about Woojin 😳's reaction.

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