“I'm Not Your Destiny”

Chapter 43 - Full Moon “tears and hurt”

if life is full of tears and wounds, which one would you choose as your way of life?

Will a second chance always be a hope?

Is death always the first choice?

Then can a person be said to be capable if he manages to live hand in hand with a wound? 

24 Hours passed by now the day has changed and the weather has shown it will soon be night, not a sign of life in a Valery that has no clarity at all, the woman was lying in a hospital bed with all the tools almost attached to her thin body, all of that is done so that the thin body does not continue to lower its body temperature which is already equivalent to chunks of ice cubes in the south, close up, slowly if this happens to humans it will turn their bodies more bluish but that is not the case with Valery.

A woman's body looks as normal as ever, others will not know if the woman lying there is struggling to save her life which continues to be snatched away by time, between conscious and unconscious Valery could not do anything as he tried to open his eyes by force, in bed many times Valery gave a signal if this was not the thing he needed now, valery shouldn't be here. All these tools won't help Valery.

Because according to Hwando's theory, Valery prefers this path to face ’full moon’ which will happen in 6 hours, by letting his body temperature drop with the power of Aster that Valery already keeps, by letting his body temperature drop, this way his blood will stop swiping along with his heart which will continue to slow beat. If Valery succeeds, he will again experience a period of crisis to normalize his body, in a few days the woman will just lie down without being able to move her body or just to open her eyes, or can be said to be in a coma.

With energy drained and time running, Valery tried to release all the tools in his body that felt so painful if released by force, and might cause other dangers. I don't know the most important of all Valery has to go as far as possible from this all-white place. In plain sight can be seen if Valery's physical begin to change as has happened before.

Hair that has begun to change color to gray, with eyelids that now change color to dark blue. His skin has now turned more clear and very white, it can be said that Valery is experiencing the climaphase of being a real AfroChild, he said, in a few hours Valery will look beautiful in a white dress like an angel without wings.

Wouldn't it be hard if Valery passed by himself tonight?

After all the hospital equipment that is now lying on the floor, and Valery who is hard-earned to guide his body so as not to fall when will step closer to the open window and enough for Valery reachable. From outside the window directly connected to a forest that only needs to cross to get there.

If there is no very dark place to hang out, then the forest is not the wrong choice to face ‘Full Moon’ which will happen in 4 or 3 hours. That means now time has shown at 5pm, with hospital outfits starting to swap in white dresses, she said, Valery tried to climb the window of the ER room which if we jump from there might make his body dislocate if the landing is not right.

“I must be able to survive, let's Valery you who choose this path you also have to finish also” Valery told himself as motivation to continue doing things that have never been done, Valery said, maybe after going through all this Valery just hopes the good guy will be willing to find himself and accommodate himself for a few days.

Valery lifted her dress after she could jump well from the window, the dress was too long if Valery let it drag and come into contact with the ground. At first glance the crown began to appear on Valery's head with a moon pendant, with Valery's bare feet stepping down the road that would immediately meet the highway, Valery is grateful if the road is not many vehicles passing there.

Valery has to make sure that if there aren't many people around him, he doesn't want to risk meeting his Uncle's men, perhaps now that the Aster within his body was making preparations for his growth process, it could be felt if the Aster absorbed the remaining Valery power and began to shine.

After arriving there Valery was surprised because it was not a forest but it was a city park that did have many tall trees. There is not much time left if Valery to an area far enough from here, inevitably Valery was forced to choose to step into the city park that is already deserted. It was getting dark and Valery had to hide in a city park that might have a very dark place there.

“Valery!” 

The faint sound of someone calling her from across the street, Valery knows if it's Woojin's voice but all plans will fail if she lets the man follow her, Valery continued to run even though his feet began to hurt by stepping on some pieces of wood, he continued to run into the city park that had many trees in it. Valery fell down because his dress was stuck in a chain of fallen trees.

“Come on, I beg you!” valery said while pulling a white dress that was very difficult to remove, with the forced to tear the dress and immediately hide under a fairly old and large tree, he tries to use Aster to trick others not to see him with the illustrations Valery made.

“Valery, I know if you're hiding but can you let me come with you?” woojin said, while the man was still behind the tree where Valery was, but with the illustrations that Valery made him unable to see the big tree.

“I don't know what happened .. but please go Valery”  

“I'll say all Valery has about my life and also my feelings” Woojin said sadly, she's too stupid if she lets Valery go just like that. Shortly thereafter Han the assistant comes to see Woojin to take him away from the city park which has been closed for several years because it is no longer maintained.

“Mr Huang, maybe Miss Valery went the other way, didn't you say Miss Valery was afraid of the dark? That woman won't be able to go here” 

“forgive me Woojin, I can't involve you about my life! Let all this be a secret for me” 

Now that Valery can only hide there, his body has begun to relax if forced to walk. Valery looks at the watch, which is set at 7 p.m., just an hour away from the agony Valery never imagined would happen, usually if ‘Full Moon’ happens Valery will do strange things whether it's approaching a lot of men to make them crazy.

“I have to endure!” 

As it is written in the old book, the Aster flower located behind Valery's back will slowly emit light if Valery takes good care of it but if Aster shows it will die the light will easily dim and continue to hurt the owner. Now Aster has started to take over his body in accordance with the seconds that continue to move towards 8 o'clock.

Valery groaned in pain as the Aster tried to emit light but could not, so it felt unable for Valery not to curl up on the ground while hugging his body so tightly. The cold temperature in his body continued to fall until Valery could not feel his fingers or feet that began to freeze. “help me!”

Valery for a moment felt if he was made dead but the next second Valery was forced to wake up again from his death “akhhh!! It Hurt!”  

When Valery opened his eyes the first thing he saw was a darkness that had no light in each direction, all of this is not just something that can be said to be good for Valery but instead fear begins to surround Valery. The woman was so afraid of the darkness that she was faced with all her fears. 

Who is playing himself?

The next second there was a sound like a car horn that directly pointed itself in front of Valery like it was going to hit him, seeing that of course Valery dodged but his body was hit by a tree behind his body until Valery realized if he did not go anywhere and just stuck in another illustration.

“akh!!! Pain!!”  valery said just when the clock was showing at 8 pm when Aster also began to do growth which of course immediately failed, many times the light was dim again, but many times also Valery felt if he was like inserted into a river that is very cold to be able to turn off the nerves of his body repeatedly.

This pain process will continue for 5 hours, that means every pain Valery does will be worth cutting his age to be faster, which means every hour is equivalent to one year his age. Valery's tears began to pour down his cheeks in turn, in the garden of this city there would only be a torment so painful but could not be helped.

“you must be strong! Remember one thing in exchange for life in the future Valery, if the time you now have can not be with the person you love then do not let in the next life you lose himself” Valery said to himself in this difficult time, he keeps letting Aster drain all the energy he has, though maybe Valery will vomit blood even if he won't let Aster grow.

‘Woojin I love you for now and in the next life, if I don't live again after this Full Moon ends then wait for me to another 1500 years’ 

Valery smiled as blood began to pour out from his mouth to dirty the white dress, only an hour passed it felt like Valery could not feel his body capable, it felt like the cold temperature on his body and the burning sensation on his back continued to destroy his mind and soul, until Valery again lay on the ground with a hand that continued to pull the grass to vent this pain. “Tell me!”

Furthermore, Valery felt if his heart began to slow beat until all the movement of his body was no longer a new pain, until Valery finally coughed with blood splashing in all directions, all directions, how hard to get up still the skinny body will fall again with the face that hit the ground to make blood flow from Valery's nose.

“i can no longer” said Valery, he saw his hands filled with soil and blood, his nails blackened as a sign that Aster was going to die soon, the veins in his body also blackened as it would soon die, Valery is sure if now he can successfully stop the growth of Aster.

“we will be parting soon like” 

Tears flowed back, not the pain that kept Valery crying but these tears were her sadness that was unable to accept if the memories with Woojin would run short would soon be over, as the old book said if Aster died Valery would not be able to live a normal life, his body would be vulnerable to pain and would also be easily sick. He also cannot be exposed to the sun for too long or in a very cold room.

As time went on, the pain Valery felt continued and the worse it was, her body was not as beautiful as AfroChild when facing Full Moon, the woman was filled with blood as well as black, Until finally the suffering ended when the time has set at 1 am.

Valery closed both eyes in peace and a feeling of relief that was so overwhelming.

Note: what do you think of this chapter? Please write at the moment yes 😘 sorry if for example there is still a shortage in writing this chapter. sorry to update late also because I just wrote this morning, for example, and ask crazy up sorry yes I can not because this story I really wrote impromptu gk I can prepare many chapters for once up 🙏