“I'm Not Your Destiny”

Chapter 32 - What it is 'Aster' ?

The streets and the very cool air hit Valery's face as the roof of Woojin's sports car opened, he enjoyed every second of the time that passed as the car made its way to his apartment.

Should I stay by his side? It will continue to take away my death as well as his health

Valery was silent for a moment as thoughts continued to divert on 'Aster' so many risks and also of course challenges, Valery did not understand anything on the image of Aster on his back. He only knew if it would light up when the full moon came, then that Aster could make others submit to him with just a single blink of his eye, and make others hypnotized like crazy, that's all it is? Valery believes if this Aster has a lot of losses and advantages for others but that does not mean this is very good for him, even this is a burden that Valery cannot be up to or at least slightly ignored.

Because when Valery gets out of control while making love to Woojin, then the man will become constantly dependent on him. It made Valery even more afraid, afraid of all backfiring for him, not to mention that his heart had harbored feelings that were already beyond his limits.

This can't happen!

Then how should Valery? Life full of Mysterious like this will continue to haunt dreams and other bad days, when all Valery predicted would happen, then he also had to take a heavy risk, right? If Valery's departure changes everything about him and Woojin then it's a good decision, right?

As said in the book that Valery just read, if in this world there is a difference and also there is a need that is not opposed by anyone, he said, however Valery cannot be said to be human nor can he be said to be any other creature, his birth alone was a mistake for his mother and father. 

Life so miserable?

“Nona, we've reached”

A pat on the shoulder removes all of Valery's thoughts on his life, he thinks too much and doesn't realize that they've stopped at a not-so-good but decent apartment to live in, Valery picked up a small bag and walked out of the car when Han had already opened the door for him.

“Master is waiting for you to have dinner at her house, does Miss Valery want me to help you in preparing your goods to move to Mr Woojin's house immediately?”

“give me 30 minutes”

“what does that mean Miss agreed to stay with Mr?”

“I didn't say if I was willing”

Resentfully dragging her suitcase to the elevator waiting for her, Valery is still overwhelmed with confusion over her life's purpose but power makes things difficult to control, Valery is a typical person who is not easy to adapt to something involving the heart and also work, he still does not understand what makes Woojin continue to make Valery nearby, he said, if you look at them as just a superior and subordinate, there is nothing worth saying as a relationship whether it is a lover's relationship, or a more serious relationship.

Until finally Valery stopped at his apartment that has been occupied for almost 4 years. With the identification that Valery took out of his small bag, he was able to open the door of his apartment, quickly pulling the suitcase back inside.

The first thing Valery was looking for was a book given by the mother that had not been found for a long time, he still remembered if he kept it in his wardrobe which contained a drawer, a drawer, leaving her suitcase for granted Valery runs towards her messy room she left behind, opens the closet and takes it all out because it will take her also to Woojin's house, Wait? Does that mean he's willing to stay with her?

And sure enough, the book was still the same as the dust that now covered the cover, Valery immediately took the book out of his room and put it in his suitcase, then back to her room to pick up some clothes and makeup, why is my mind so messed up?

After changing his clothes Valery immediately brought his suitcase to get out of his apartment, still when the door a Woojin stood there with a towering body there, she was still wearing the clothes she was wearing when she was coming back, with her flat face she picked up Valery's suitcase without asking.

“when did you come?” valery asked, she was not surprised by Woojin's sudden presence in front of her apartment, she immediately locked her apartment.

“10 minutes ago, what Han said was true?”

“What?”

“if you want to stay with me?”

“Woojin, I didn't say if I was willing, I had my own reasons that made me have to stay with”

The footsteps came to a halt as Woojin held Valery by the hand as she stepped into the elevator.

'ain't it! I'm willing to stay with you because I still need your protection from my uncle!' 

“that's not the reason!”

The elevator opened again and the two stepped inside after a few seconds there was only silence there, just to head to the first floor felt so long as Valery tried to distract him from Woojin who made himself continue to feel cornered by that sharp gaze, 

could it be that the man was upset with her?

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Until the night arrives with heavy rain that makes the temperature cooler than usual, it is very comfortable to sleep with an atmosphere like a thick blanket that covers both people who sleep in the bed, the atmosphere reminds Valery of that night, the night that he took control of Woojin's consciousness with Aster, and it makes him even more attached to himself unconsciously.

Under the light of the sleeping lamp Valery opened up sheet by sheet on the old book, trying to solve all the questions he had in mind, he said, the thing he wanted to look for was a solution to eliminate the cold temperature in his body when Valery finished wearing the Aster.

Just when the 10th page had a title that made Valery sure it was the thing he was looking for.

' control Aster '

' *Aster is a power that is almost owned by an afro child, you could say this is a characteristic of their differences with other creatures.

From a theory that says if an afro child uses that power more often then there are effects that are not good for his body, whether it will easily make him tired or depend on others*.

*From the afro world, Aster is not something that can be cured or eliminated, because again it is a characteristic of them, Aster is not something that can be cured or eliminated, but that does not mean Aster is useless but instead behind it is lucky if you understand and deeply everything about Aster.

If when using excessive Aster will give a cold effect on his body to continue to make body temperature decrease like ice, if it happens to the afros one way used is to warm each other up with another afro* ….' 

“Wait? That's the reason why my conscience immediately leads me to seek warmth?” ask Valery to himself.

Valery is surprised by what happens to him, how he can do that when he experiences it, he once forced Woojin to do that when he experienced the effects of his Aster. Curiously Valery returned to the next page and tried to find clarity from this Aster.

'There is a possibility if Aster will disappear if it happens when you fall in love with humans, but Aster will only disappear in the body of Afro and will settle in the body of the fetus, the fetus, a lot happens to the Afro and eventually they kill their child and their loved ones, it's a way to keep Afro out of the human world.

*If Aster falls on a human child then there will be many casualties and also misery in his life, if a baby crosses from Afro and human, if a baby crosses, then the Aster that has is not too big and when it is easy to be seen by having intercourse without using the Aster itself, and when it happens then the Aster can be lost, the Aster can be lost, but the loss of Aster will also take over some of that human life.

In the sense that Aster has a strong relationship with his body, love is also one path to eliminate that Aster*.

Valery finished all the activities of reading the book, it was very difficult for him to accept the fact that Aster was so risky to be in his body, it could be said that it was so disgusting that it was said to be a fact that Valery could not avoid, not to mention if the effects of Aster were so dangerous for Valery to have to seek warmth from others, not to mention if the effects of Aster were so dangerous for Valery to have to seek warmth from others, if Valery continues to be near Woojin and often uses Aster it means that he will also have sex more often?

What should Valery do now?

She has no choice for now and plans ahead, it's hard to say if Valery should make Woojin fall in love or at least make herself pregnant, but isn't it hard because Woojin's too much to keep Valery from getting pregnant.

Valery was tired, he put the book in a drawer, then pulled a blanket to force himself to sleep, she is grateful that tonight Woojin is preoccupied with her work from Valery not having to face her or exchange greetings with her.