Zulaikha's Last Love

Chapters. 4. Savingswoman

POVS. Zulaikha Al - Maira

"i can't possibly divorce Zulaikha, she just grieved over her father's death,"

Deg, I was on the spot when I heard what my husband said.

"ce-divorce?" I said with trembling lips and tears already hanging in my eyes. My heart ached like it was being pierced by thousands of needles simultaneously.

Mas Defin who probably heard my voice immediately turned around and he looked very surprised to see my whereabouts right behind him.

"Zu-Zulaikha." Brak, the phone in his hand just fell to the floor. Mas Defin's face looked pale with sweat flowing over him as I looked at him with pus.

"why-why Mas? you want to divorce me?" I asked softly, my breath felt tight as if stuck in the throat. My hand grabbed the wall to hold the limp body and would fall if I could not stand it.

"no Zulaikha, you misunderstood me," she seemed to have switched to holding my hand, causing my body to jerk.

For the first time my husband held my hand like this, but why ? why do I have to be at a time like this ?

"Mas, I clearly heard what you said," I said a little loudly, for the first time I raised my voice to her. The man looked surprised at my voice that might have changed a little, but what I heard at this moment was much more soul-shaking.

"no Zulaikha, I'm just-just-"

"just what is it? please speak honestly to me!" I cut him off and urged him to speak honestly, but he still wanted to avoid what I heard earlier. But no, my ears are clearly still functioning well. And I heard the word divorce coming out of his mouth.

"already, all is not important" Mas Defin turned and left me.

"what do you really think of me as, Mom?" I shouted with a cry that I could no longer bear. I looked at him pushyly, I really don't understand my husband's feelings.

Mas Defin stopped his steps, but he was reluctant to look at me.

"i'm your wife Mas, but why do you always think of me as someone else!" I felt really sick, and disappointed. I don't care about his position as my husband, I just want to express all the pain I've been enduring in my heart.

"for 5 months I waited patiently for you, I always hoped that you would see me as your wife. But what is Mas? what's?" I am getting out of control, it has been enough for 5 months that I kept quiet and became a calm woman in order to appreciate her as a husband. But he can't even be honest with me? what's the problem ?

"i told you, Zulaikha, I need time to accept our marriage,"

Right, those are the words he said when we were legal to be husband and wife. So why did he marry me ?

"why Mas ? why do you need time to accept me ?" I asked excitedly, looking like his face was very unhappy with what I was asking.

"i'm tired of Zulaikha, can we not discuss this matter anymore?"

Always, he always said he was tired when I asked. What exactly does it mean to me in her eyes ?

"right, you're tired. I'm sorry that I always bother you, I always make you tired.Housing with me makes your mind tormented, so you never think I exist," it was very clear from the look in his eyes that was so surprised to see my true nature. No, not my nature. Except my disappointment in him.

Suddenly I remembered something Sita pointed out, I rushed to pick up the phone that had been in my backpack since then. Perhaps if he saw the photo, he could no longer twitch.

"If Mas really doesn't want to discuss the matter earlier, fine, I won't force it. But, I want to show you something." I gave her the phone I had set up in such a way that she could instantly see a very amazing portrait.

"that's you, isn't it, Mas?" I asked, she still did not turn her face away from my phone that she was holding.

"you're following me?" he asked as if accusing me of being a stalker. But from his accusation, it is clear that he admitted that the photo he was looking at was a picture of him with another woman.

"answered Mas? is the man photographed you?" I screamed as I got no answer from the man who locked his mouth shut.

Mas Defin turned his face to the side, as if answering my question with his actions.

"Who? who's the woman you're with, Mas?" I clenched my hands because I was annoyed with him, what exactly is he hiding from me ?

"answer me! who's that woman?" the anger, the disappointment, the heartache became one in my chest.

"enough Zulaikha! you have no right to interfere in my affairs!"

I gasped when I heard what my husband said, as his wife I can't know what he's doing ? what good is it that I marry him ?

"i'm your wife, I deserve to know what you're doing. I also deserve to know your relationship with another woman," my body trembled with cold sweat drenching my palms. I close my body to the wall more and more, otherwise I might have fallen on the floor by now.

Really you've hurt my heart so much Mas, why can't you even be honest with me ?

Mas Defin then defied me with my darling, I really did not understand what the man did to me.

"pardon me, Zulaikha,"

Bruk, one sentence from him managed to make my body fall to the floor very strongly. My eyes were wide open with tears that kept flowing. My lips trembled as if to say something but the voice did not also come out of my throat.

why ? why Mas ? why are you doing this to me ? it was like being hit by a huge beam that destroyed my entire soul and body. Getting me dropped into an unknown hole to **********.

I squeezed the bag of stables that was currently on my lap, tears kept dripping making my hijab wet from the wound I was feeling.

Mas Defin squatted his body in front of me, he looked at my face which was currently also looking at him. His hands stretched out and he quickly pulled my body in his arms.

What is he doing ? why is he hugging me ? why did he give me a hug that I had been craving for so long but he gave it when he scratched the wound ?

I wanted to push him, but my strength was unable even to raise my hand. I wanted to ask more deeply about the meaning of the apology that was spoken from his mouth, but my tongue felt weak for me to move.

"forgive me Zulaikha, forgive me,"

Again he said an apology, what exactly has he done ? is he playing the woman behind me ?

I gathered all the remaining energy and pushed his body away from my own body. He looked at me sharply, as if I could have been split in two because of the eagle's eyes.

"why? why did you apologize to me? did you have a relationship with another woman?" I asked intermittently, I stared at him. Really Mas, if you knew how I felt about you.

"right Zulaikha, I have a relationship with another woman,"

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TBC.

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