Zulaikha's Last Love

Chapters. 32. Selfish Man

"did you know Mas, that all this time I loved you so much?"

Defin raised his head to look towards Zulaikha, a sweet smile emanating on the woman's face.

"i'm happy, I can marry a man like you. I'm happy to spend my days with you, and I'm happy to see someone I love all the time,"

Defin looked at Zulaikha tearfully, his body trembling with regret upon hearing all the confessions thrown by the woman.

"and now, I'm also happy that Mas can take you off willingly,"

"no Zulaikha! I-I don't want us to be apart!" defin exclaimed, his hand tightly grasping Zulaikha's hand made the woman startled and stiffened.

"i realize that all this time I've been doing you a lot of wrong, I've hurt you a lot. I-I have also betrayed the sincerity of your love, I was wrong Zulaikha. I was wrong," Defin's lips blurted out while looking at Zulaikha softly.

While Zulaikha was just silently staring at Defin's hand, she wanted to pull that hand but her little heart felt unwilling.

"Oh my God, I've made a decision. Please give me the strength to let go." Zulaikha slowly pulled his hand which was in the grasp of Defin's hand.

"Mas, what has passed let it pass. We can only take wisdom from every memory that exists between us." Zulaikha smiled and woke up his body to stand up.

Defin who saw Zulaikha also stood up, he could not say anything more when he saw the girl's sad face.

"live happily, love her as you loved her long ago. Forget about my presence that has plagued your life, and suppose I am not among you," Zulaikha continued, wiping a circle of tears that managed to fall from the corner of his eye.

"i said to Mas, assalamu'alaikum," Zulaikha said later, he turned around and was about to leave the place.

"can't you give me a chance, Zulaikha?"

zulaikha's steps stopped when she heard Defin's words, she turned her face towards the man by commenting on the smile on his face.

"Mas, I don't want anyone to get hurt between us, me, you, and him. We both have feelings, and our feelings are like two swords hurting each other" Zulaikha said, turning around and facing Defin again.

"both me and him, will never willingly see the man we love together with another woman. Not a single woman is willing to be matched, Mas. Including myself, I can't afford to take heaven on such a path" Zulaikha continued.

"but I love you Zulaikha, I want to be with you. I-I just realized after you left me, that I've fallen in love with you," Defin revealed all the feelings he had in his heart all along.

"then, what about Agnes?" zulaikha asked, she pulled the corner of her lips into a smile.

Defin was surprised when he heard the question from Zulaikha, he did not expect that the woman would ask about Agnes.

"i-i'll scatter-"

"that's it, Mom, you're breaking up and connecting the wedding ropes!" cut off Zulaikha, he took a step forward to get closer to the man.

"after you fell in love with me, then you planned to divorce Agnes. Then, how else is next? if someday you fall back in love with Agnes, or another woman. Then you'll definitely come back to divorce me!" zulaikha continued, she chuckled softly as she thought about what she had just said.

"wedding isn't that simple, and marriage isn't that easy either, and you're breaking up! for me, marriage happens once in a lifetime. In the presence of the Divine, I vow to keep my marriage until death do. And now, in front of the Divine as well I let go of my marriage ropes sincerely" continued Zulaikha, while Defin was silent and fixated on his current place.

"Don't be a selfish man Mas, who only thinks of his own feelings. Think about the feelings of people who love you. How many more, the wounds you're gonna cut on them? and how many more tears do they have to shed in order to cry over the situation? try to understand!"

While Defin was still stuck there, his life seemed to have been taken out of his body as all the words from the bottom of Zulaikha's heart were spoken.

Tears seemed to flow in the corner of his eyes without being able to prevent, his legs also felt weak to make him sit on the ground.

"forgive me Zulaikha, forgive me," Defin felt very sorry for what he had done.

Had he been able to act more decisively to choose between Zulaikha and Agnes, they would not have been hurt like this.

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The days have passed since the divorce of Zulaikha and Defin, now they have undergone their activities as usual. Though sometimes the memory of the past still always crosses the minds of both of them.

Currently, Defin lives alone in the house he used to live in with Zulaikha. Although Agnes always forced to live with him in that place, but Defin refused and said that he would buy another house to be their residence.

"Def, I want to stay with you and our son!" agnes said while in the company Defin, the woman forced her way in to meet with Defin despite being blocked by Irham.

"this is Agnes' office! can't you wait for me to come home?" jolt Defin, he was dizzy thinking about the current job problem.

"no! I can't wait any longer, you'll always be tight-lipped and shy away if I talk about this matter" Agnes said. Ever since Defin and Zulaikha divorced, she had been preparing to move into that luxurious mansion. However, Defin stopped him and forbade him to stay there.

"i'm pregnant with your son Defin, but why won't you stay with me?" sagging Agnes, her eyes glazed with her hands stroking her flat stomach.

Defin rubbed his face violently, not wanting another woman to stay in the house other than Zulaikha.

"Agnes, I will buy a more luxurious and expensive house from that house, and we will live there," Defin exclaimed, lowering his tone of voice so as not to return to his emotions.

"why? why don't you want us to stay there? do you still want to live with that woman?" accuse Agnes, she stands right in front of Defin while putting her hands on her waist.

"Jawab, Defin! are you going to marry that village woman again?" Agnes pushed Defin's body with her hand.

"enough, Agnes!" snapped Defin while blocking the hand of Agnes who continued to push him, he then slapped the hand until it made Agnes pushed into the table.

"luck!" agnes shouted as she hit the dead table behind her, she then held onto her aching stomach and sat down on the floor.

"Agnes!"

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