You, Me And Our Memories

Conscious

.Ferdi was still in his place. He still felt weak all over his body.

"Diya, why did you marry Ivan? Have you forgotten all of our sweet memories? Is that young you forget all about it. Diy, I don't know how I should live my life. Can I live without you, Diy?" Ferdi said to himself. His gaze was still empty, his heart completely shattered at this moment finding reality extremely painful to him.

"Lad....." Junior's shout stopped Ferdi's daydream.

"Junior" He said. Seeing her little angel smiling while running towards her.

Ferdi forced himself to smile welcoming Junior in his arms.

Well, it's true that his heart is currently being broken and it takes a warm hug from someone to calm his troubled heart.

Ferdi hugged Junior warmly. His heart felt a little calm and relieved when embraced by his little angel.

"Papa, you just got home?" Ask the plain boy.

"Dear dear papa just came home" replied Ferdi with a smile that seemed forced.

Ferdi did not answer. To be honest he didn't know what to give his little angel a reason for.

Well, he admitted lately he's not home. His self is always looking for busyness to accept this reality all. And in the end Diya the girl he loved had married Ivan, his own friend who could be said to be his brother.

"Papa, when the hell papa there's time we're together again. I miss when Papa is home. I miss eating at ready with papa. I miss playing ball with papa. I miss papa bacain I told you before going to bed" Junior complained.

"Papa angry with me huh pa? Am I now such a bad boy that you don't want to be with me anymore?" Ask her again. Now her eyes began to glaze over.

"Darling, baby don't talk like that. Junior is a good boy. A smart kid too. Papa is not at home because there is a job that you have to finish son. Papa is busy, papa is working because for Junior and mama is also dear. Papa's looking for money to meet our needs in this house son" Ferdi's reason so that his son does not blame himself as before.

"Pa, Junior doesn't want any of this. Junior just wants to be with papa and mama. We both spend three hours like yesterday." Reply Junior.

"Dear, papa promised me you'd try to make time for you, son" said Ferdi, kissing his son's forehead warmly and hugging him tightly.

"Have I been wrong all this time, God? I had expected the girl who now belonged to someone else so I ignored my son and wife. Sorry to God. I have sinned against them. I didn't realize I had wronged my family and made my innocent son blame himself for my selfishness. I'm sorry papa, I'm sorry papa. Papa promises papa will fix all of this" Ferdi said inwardly and increasingly embraced Junior tightly.