YEARNING

Whose property

In the hustle of the city and the crowded streets that afternoon made Damar difficult to chase the wife's car. Trapped in traffic jams and hqnya can be silent. The sound of another car's horn made him panic even more. I don't know what's going on up ahead until the road is completely jammed.

"Why the road is jammed so not as usual" he said as he looked at the left front left back. His car was really squeezed another vehicle until he massaged his forehead "Gosh why the front car is not yet on the road" Sangking panicked Damar was down from the car walking forward. After seeing there was an accident in front of there that made a long traffic jam. Two bikers clashed with each other's mouths because of the slowness of each and a woman lying in pain. Watching the incident Damar remembered the wife, what if something bad happened to his wife. He went straight back to his car.

Repeatedly tried to contact Olive but not once in response. Even the message he sent a few short messages, still not in response. The more panic the current Damar until finally the road slowly returns to normal. After making it out of the jam, Damar tried to call Mbok Inah"Mbok, Has Olive gone home?"

Mbok Inah is still in the kitchen cooking lunch, then turn off the stove because mbok Inah is frying sea fish so that the sound of Damar is not heard clearly "Sorry den Mbok Inah should not be heard repeated" While walking out of the kitchen.

"Has Olive gone home?" Repeat again while continuing to look forward, focusing on the steering wheel.

"Non Olive hasn't come home yet, Den. Is it possible that Non Olive is still in the hospital"

"So today's her schedule for pregnancy checks, Mbok?"

"It looks like it, Den. Earlier Non Olive said she wanted to go to the hospital to check the content schedule as well as the USG or how it is, I do not understand"

"Good, Mbok. Thank you" Immediately the phone call was cut off.

"Had he asked me this morning if I had an event or not, so today's the schedule for checking the contents" It didn't take long for Damar to go to the hospital where Olive usually checks the contents. From the beginning of pregnancy to almost five months of new pregnancy just a few times once Damar drove Olive. From that moment on he felt afraid how if the fetus in Olive's womb was not his. The fear made him ice cold and as calm as rainwater.

When Damar arrived at the hospital, he saw him around the parking lot looking for the wife's car "Looks like it's the car" Damar immediately entered and looked for Olive's whereabouts.

"I'm sorry to ask if there's my iatri, Olivia Sunandar?"

"Sir, sir, I'll take a quick look" while looking at the patient list "Ny Olivia Sunandar just came in, sir"

Damar went straight into the examination room.

"Who are you?" The USG doctor was surprised to see a man barging in while he was on duty. Olive who was lying down turned her eyes when she saw the figure of Damar.

"I'm the patient's husband" Damar said as he walked toward Olive.

"Well then, please sit down" After Damar sat beside Olive's bed, he saw the monitor in front of the middle showing part of the fetus. After the examination they left the room. Olive continued walking regardless of Damar behind her.

"I'm sorry" Grabbed Olive's arm as she was about to head towards her parked car.Without a word Olive also brushed off Damar's hand "OK, no problem, we're not your priority" He opened the car door but again Damar grabbed his arm.

"Listen to my explanation first" Damar forces Olive into his car despite the small resistance of his wife's snag but eventually he manages to keep her quiet in the car. Damar drives a car. At his side was Olive who kept staring to the side as if throwing her face and both hands were folded over her distended stomach. Sometimes Damar turned to his wife "I only made a pilgrimage to eat Fanya for a while, after that just to the hospital" Damar explained.

Olive did not budge, slowly Olive closed her eyes not wanting to hear the explanation. Not angry because Damar visited Fanya's grave but because this morning he asked if he was busy or not, Damar said he was busy there was no time. That's what made Olive hurt. Though Olive wanted to ask him to accompany the gynaecology check, but his intention was stopped because of Damar's busyness. Damar himself also does not know that today the schedule checks the content.

"Trust me I don't know if today's schedule checks content. I'm sorry" touch Olive's hand.

"That's not what I mean...."

"Enough! put me down here. I don't want to burden you with my whereabouts and my son's" Olive forced her out of the car, but Damar ignored her. The speed of the vehicle continues to accelerate without caring for Olive babble. Damar realized that he had lied to Olive, but he really did not remember that today Olive had a schedule of basins.

"Down me now" cried Olive.

Sontak Damar pulled the car away "What kind of apologies do I have to say until you forgive me? do I need to prostrate under your feet" he said in a high tone.

Getting rough treatment Olive turned her face, hiding her tears. The car glass next to Olive shows everything that is hidden from Damar. Damar closed his eyes while rearranging the emotions in his heart. Slowly he took off the safety and got out of the car, coincidentally the car stopped in a park that was not too crowded. Damar opened the car door "We talk for a minute"

"No, let me go" Will refuse Damar's invitation but his hand held tightly as if dragging him towards the park.

"Sit down first we speak well"

They both sat in the long chairs of the park. Olive didn't want to see Damar's face in the slightest. Damar tries to make Olive look at him but Olive always avoids eye contact with her husband.

"I admit that I was wrong. Please forgive me" Grabbed his wife's hands and kissed them.

"Stop all your drama. If you only knew what it was like to be me, you would not be able to stand it. Out there many people ask why always check up the content yourself? and many public assumptions are making a mental down. Not one bit of attention to us, ma'am. All this time I've been quiet when you've been cold, and I've been more concerned with your work. Okay, I understand that's your job. But why would you lie to me? why?" Olive's grief broke right then and there. Tears are increasingly decomposing along with sobs that are slashing. Damar himself did not deny the truth of Olive's speech, he realized that his attitude had indeed changed since that pregnancy.

"I just...."

"What's all, Mom? just feel the bimbag of the fetus who I am carrying at this time? okay, it doesn't matter if you don't admit that this child is your flesh and blood. After she's born, we'll do a DNA test to make you satisfied"Olive's been suffering enough for almost five months to get cold treatment from her husband. Until he got fed up with all this.

"That's not what I mean, it's just that I need time for that" Damar tried to explain.

"I've had enough of my patience for these five months. If only you knew how I endure pain and stress with this attitude of yours. Though all this time I want you to admit this fetus without but in fact Gilang is much more concerned than you" The more his anger overflows the more his speech can not be controlled.

"So long he was always there when we needed support and attention, he was also the one who kept quiet every month following me when checking up on the womb. He was the one who was always there for me and this kid, and then what are you doing?"

Hearing such a painful sentence made Damar angry "Enough, Live! the man you're proud of is a lot worse than trash. He made me what I am today. Do you think I haven't been in pain seeing you in his arms? Even beyond the limits. It's disgusting" To waste face considering how cruel the world has been toying with itself and his life.

Both of Olive's legs weakened until she sat back in the long chair. His face was pale and his right hand was stroking his stomach, trying to make his heart stronger.

"Well if we wait until this child is born again you will be satisfied with the results. Whoever's son is still my son, I'll protect him all my body's soul." Olive stood up again and left Damar alone.

"Darling, wait a minute" Damar tries to stop Olive, but is confronted by her repeatedly.

After Olive lost sight, Damar remembered all the words Olive said just now. Make him fixated in silence, swept away in solitude. Sitting alone lamenting the destiny of life.