YEARNING

ep 18's

A week has passed, this Monday is the first Monday after my leave of absence to care for my father during illness.Maybe this Monday also, the Monday that determines where my life is headed. life that has been determined and held by a man who might be said to have bought me more precisely bought my uterus with the label of a surrogate mother. I don't know if it's wrong or not that I'm going to bet my life on a father who gave me life, her sincere love affection for a little girl who was dumped by her own biological parents deliberately left me in a garden. it never bothered my innocent brain that I would be left behind.

20 Years ago I was 4 years old, faint in my memory...

"mama, tomorrow is my birthday, mama has promised to buy una big teddy beal, yes... my word with children's language that still does not fit in the letter R.

"yes baby, mama inget. tomorrow we buy yes..

"hoeee, benelan ma answered me with a happy face.

"yes baby...

"your dear mama's tuna while my little hand hugged my mama

"mama also dear una...

the next day my mother and I went to the famous shopping center in our city. my face was amazed full of happiness to see so many of his toys on display in the storefront.My eyes sparkled to see a row of teddy bears with various colors and sizes.

"my dear choose which one my mother asked me...

"mama Una wants that one I answered while pointing at the pink teddy bear.

"it really wants this one, it doesn't want a bigger one...

"i didn't answer with my head.

after shopping, my mom and I went around the mall and stopped at the fast food store. finished eating mama invited me to sit in the mall park at first mama looks ordinary just joking as usual while we look at people passing by in the park. before long she said she would buy me ice cream and I had to wait until mom came back but mom never came back.

until the arrival of Mahendra the figure who is now my father.

at that time the mall was closed I was still sitting in the park alone accompanied by garden lights that look beautiful at night. I'm a little una who's beginning to fear the dark and the cold. "mamaaa my isak, una fear...

Mr. Mahendra approached me "little grandpa why himself asked...

my eyes are breaking to see Mr. Mahendra feeling afraid of meeting strangers.

"fake not afraid father is not a bad person, adek house where let's take you home"

"i shook my head in response to Mr. Mahendra's question...

"yes, Mr. Temenin replied again.

"i nodded...

"son.

"sir, Una wants to find mama...

"name adek una tanya pak Mahendra...

"yes...

"mama una where...?

"mama said mama wants ice clim mama toruh una wait here but mama did not come.

"mama una buy her ice cream is long or just gone.

"it's been a long time.

"meaning noon..

"iyaa, that's the same mama bought a teddy bear doll in there (while pointing to the entrance of the mall that is now closed) late mama ajakin to sit here, telus mama said she wanted to buy ice clim there to wait but until dark mama did not come.

I heard the explanation of the little girl carefully and concluded that this little girl was deliberately left behind under the pretext of going to buy ice cream.

"yes it is how if now to come home first tomorrow we wait for mama una again here, una want it. said I persuaded.. after all, it is now night and start drizzling later to get sick if una sick to not be able to wait for mama here again.

the little girl's eyes looked at me as if there was doubt and fear from her eyes.

"nakkk, you are not a bad person, believe in the same father.my answer is to try to brush off the little girl's doubts and fears.

"father benelan is not an evil father is not a kidnapper, he asked.

I smiled holding back the laughter.

"no boy, I'm not a bad person, not a kidnapper I want to help you tomorrow we come here again waiting for his mama una. let's now come home father first we rest now it's night.

I extended my hand to the little girl, in her face a few moments after it was reached. I held the little girl's hand there was a warm feeling that spread to the bottom of the heart. a father's longing for his son, I guided the little girl to my parked car not far from the employee entrance.

my car drove splitting the night that was almost straight. not jammed as bad as morning and afternoon.I lyrics little girl in the chair next to me turned out she was asleep, she fell asleep, maybe this little girl is exhausted after a day of waiting for the woman called her mama. There is tightness in my chest - bartanya wonder what kind of parents deliberately and willingly leave her biological children... ahhh I don't know...

and now here is the little girl who is the favorite child of Mahendra Mahardika.given a beautiful name Kinanti Prameswari Mahardika.