Ustadz Ridwan's Dream

68. Heart Matters

Mr. Haji Syamsul finally left the area of Uswatun Hasanah mosque after Pak Haji Imron asked strongly that Pak Haji Syamsul did not make the problem even bigger with his baseless accusations against Ridwan.

After the departure of Mr. Haji Syamsul, Ridwan seemed pacified by Mr. Haji Imron so as not to get emotional, besides that the meeting with residents was finally forced to disband because the atmosphere became uncomfortable.

"Sir Haji Syamsul is indeed arrogant, everyone also knows his character."

Said one of the residents whose age is quite far above Ridwan and included in the caretaker of the mosque Uswatun Hasanah.

"True, indeed anyone also knows that Pak Haji Syamsul is like the earth and sky with Pak Haji Imron."

Tell the other.

Ridwan sipped the glass of water once again until it ran out, his heart was now very slashed, remembering what Haji Syamsul said just now and also remembering what Pak Haji Syamsul said to Mbak Wening as told by his brother, it felt like Ridwan's heart wanted to hold a grudge because of such a great anger.

Astarghfirullah...

But Ridwan tried istighfar, he felt immediately remembered the advice of Abah Yai in pesantren, that it is not good for a Muslim to hold a grudge.

"Better for Ridwan to rest first, son, tomorrow long with a teaching schedule is not it?"

Mr. Haji Imron said, looking Ridwan nodded.

Ridwan finally left the assembly, he chose to go home.

After saying hello to everyone, Ridwan said goodbye.

Along the way to the house, Ridwan occasionally looked at the sky to try to hold back his tears so as not to spill.

Astarghfirullah...

Astarghfirullah...

Ridwan continued to beristighfar, he was as strong as possible not to be overwhelmed by anger and annoyance that was very much on Pak Haji Syamsul.

Really, thanks to what Pak Haji Syamsul did, it felt like Ridwan was awakened from sleep and a dream that melenakan.

Yes, Ridwan realized that living in this world too many people who want to respect and be good to other humans is because it depends on Social status.

Ridwan also felt like he wanted to blame himself for allowing his heart to crave Anisa a long time ago.

Yes, Anisa, that girl, the prettiest girl Ridwan has ever known.

The first girl who entered into a dream, the first girl who made Ridwan's heart tremble while looking at the opposite sex.

Until without feeling Ridwan finally arrived in front of his small house again simple, whose walls are still partly made of wood, the floor is also still only from cement, cement, windows and doors also began to porous wood.

Ridwan paused for a moment, his heart slashed again, imagining that his social economic condition which was very far adrift with Anisa made him hurt.

Astarghfirullah...

So should a noble person look down on a man who does not have as much wealth as he?

Is that as low as a worthless person in the eyes of those who feel they have succeeded in their lives?

Even though no human wants to be born in difficult conditions, but why is there always a feeling that poor is a disgrace that ultimately makes it so dwarfed, debased, underestimated.

Ridwan sighed, he again stepped his foot towards his house.

He went up to the porch, then opened the door handle of his house.

"Assynoltom..."

Ridwan said softly, sayup heard the sound of TV from the middle room.

Ridwan went inside after locking the main door.

Seen in the TV room, his mother was sitting leaning against him on a scrap metal bed. I fell asleep with the TV still on.

It seems that he was exhausted today for helping Ms. Wening take care of his banana chips.

Ridwan sighed, he also saw the room mbak Wening and Ajeng who had deserted the sign they had slept.

Ridwan finally decided to go into his own room, he sat for a moment on the edge of his bed, rubbed his face with both palms.

He returned all the words of Pak Haji Syamsul that were painful in Ridwan's ear.

God, may there be a time later, I can prove that the boarding school can also be successful.

Success is God who gives. The ability to achieve success and the opportunity to achieve success is also God who gives.

If there is a creature of God who is arrogant to other creatures of God, it means that humans do not know the meaning of success itself.

They just know the skin, the cover alone, do not know the essence of what success is, to dare to look down on others.

Ridwan whose heart is still so mixed, finally decided to take the water only, then he will pray hajat only, then he will pray, asking Allah that there will be a time when he is in the same position as Pak Haji Syamsul, but he wants to not be arrogant like Pak Haji Syamsul.

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Meanwhile, Iis at her house seemed to be preparing materials for her to teach tomorrow morning when her phone call came in.

Iis who put his cellphone on the mattress, while he himself was sitting in front of the study table finally moved for a while to see the call of who did not enter his cellphone.

Looks new number listed on the screen hp her, Iis who is actually lazy if there is a new number into her phone, this time seem unable to ignore, her mind somehow directly to Anisa.

Iis picked up the call from that new number and...

"Hello..."

There was a voice from across there.

Ogre, but Iis was still clearly able to hear it and recognize it.

Anisa, yes of course Anisa, she knew very well that the voice belonged to Anisa.

"Snakes..."

Call Iis, please,

"Is. yes it's me."

Said Anisa from across there.

"We where is Nisa? All the panic come on you Nis."

"Mbok Rat find me, huh Is?"

Ask Anisa.

"Don't Mbok Rat, I just saw you until the crossroad, everyone I asked, so worried I'm the same you tuh."

Iis.

"Yes Is, I know you're really good with me, you're the only person who really cares about me other than Mbok Rat."

Lirih Anisa's.

"Where are you now? Let me pick you up."

Said Iis who forgot his motorbike was in the workshop.

"No Is, I'll stay here, even if I seem to be asking to be moved to a place further away, which doesn't have to go home again at any time."

Said Anisa.

"Nisa, don't be so Nis."

"No Is, my decision is hard."

"Sina..."

"Is, I can only remember your number, the other number is on my phone and I won't use it until when. But obviously, please tell Mbok Rat not to worry about me anymore."

"But what if Mbok Rat asks where you are?"

Ask Iis.

"I think it's important I'm okay Is, just say so."

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