Ustadz Ridwan's Dream

111. Grey night

The night was late, the rain flushed after the drizzling maghrib had fallen specks even if only briefly.

Ridwan was seen in his room still awake, sitting in front of his wooden table and reading a book by Buya Hamka.

Actually, Ridwan had long wanted to take the time to read the book of one of the scholars he admired, but this time he had a chance to read, but now he had a chance to read, apparently even Ridwan could not focus entirely on the book he was reading.

Ridwan sighed.

Of course he could not focus, because what continues to cross his head at this time is his conversation with Pak Haji Imron and Vishnu.

Yes Vishnu...

That young man.

A young man is successful, intelligent, charismatic and also humble.

For Ridwan, who is a fellow man, it feels like seeing the figure of Vishnu is certainly a perfect husband candidate.

Not many men are created with such complete advantages, and Vishnu is certainly one of the lucky men because it has so many advantages.

"So, should I be more following Mom's orders?"

Vishnu asked earlier, when their conversation was not finished in the mosque foyer.

"Peggih should indeed be so Mas Vishnu, because the main obligation is the same with Mother, right son Ridwan?"

Pak Haji Imron turned towards Ridwan who looked gasp.

Ridwan who since Vishnu called the name Anisa was immediately failed to focus, where his thoughts and feelings were immediately chaotic like there had just been a green balloon erupting.

"Oh... Uh... Yep... Oh... How about Haji?"

Ridwan.

Mr. Haji Imron who had never seen Ridwan before was of course so surprised.

However, Mr. Haji Imron certainly will not discuss why Ridwan seems to be failing to focus.

For Mr. Haji Imron, of course Ridwan is a lot of thoughts at this time is normal, because he is facing the burden of responsibility is heavy enough to carry the great trust of the family of the late Haji Sahudi.

"This is Ridwan's son, Mas Vishnu wanted to be given advice for the attitude he had to take in the face of two difficult choices. Where he wants to help the woman he loves without having to force her to marry him but not allowed by his mother, if it still wants to help yes they should get married."

Mr. Haji Imron repeated, then...

"But if it is not helped, the woman may go somewhere, because she does not want to go back to her own home."

Haji Imron said.

Ridwan was silent for a moment, he looked at Vishnu.

Looks Vishnu who had first looked at Ridwan because waiting for the wise words of the young Pak ustadz is now smiling, this makes Ridwan feel really frustrated.

On the other hand, it is clear that Anisa is now in a completely unsafe state and only Vishnu can actually do something for her.

The figure of Vishnu with all its advantages, it is clear that there will be no parents who have daughters who can reject Vishnu as a prospective son-in-law.

Moreover, Ridwan saw clearly how the two eyes of Vishnu who radiated so much love when telling all the problems faced by Anisa.

Ridwan who also long loved Anisa, and also had a dream and hope to be her husband also seems not to reach the level of feeling as Vishnu felt in Anisa.

Yep...

Ridwan hasn't got to that point yet.

Love may be yes, Ridwan falls in love completely with the beautiful girl, but loves her so deeply, it turns out Ridwan has not yet arrived there.

But...

Ridwan sighed, though,

But why to say Vishnu better marry Anisa feels so heavy? Wh why? Batin Ridwan.

"Does Mr. Ustadz think the same as Mr. Haji? That it's better that I marry Anisa because only in this way can I protect and help her with the support of her parents?"

Ask Vishnu finally, then,

Ridwan who had been silent since then, finally very heavily decided to nod.

Yes nodded, an attitude that Ridwan might regret throughout his life.

Vishnu seemed to nod in understanding, then...

"Then can I ask Mr. Ustadz for help?"

Ask Vishnu well-mannered,

"Yes Mas Vishnu, ask... please about what?"

Ridwan asked Ketar-ketir, afraid of a request for help that was too heavy he failed.

Although it is finally...

"Tomorrow, can Anisa and I meet Mr. Ustadz. I mean I want Mr. Ustadz to explain why I should marry Anisa first, so that she doesn't think of anything and isn't comfortable getting married to me."

"Flame...But..."

Ridwan looked doubtful,

Mr. Haji Imron looked at Ridwan who looked increasingly confused, and suddenly Pak Haji Imron just remembered that the other day Pak Haji Syamsul came to the mosque just to curse Ridwan because his daughter went and accused Ridwan who took him away.

Ah...

Could it?

Mr. Haji Imron will just talk to Ridwan not to force himself if he can not,

But ..

Ridwan suddenly spoke again ahead, before,

"Yes, tomorrow I'll take the time to just come to the panjenenengan place, just give me the address."

Ridwan.

The decision was either because of what he was desperate to take it, but whatever it was, which is clear now Ridwan felt sad all night.

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