Ustadz Ridwan's Dream

118. Single-minded

"Please Mr. Ustadz, I really want to know what exactly is going on? Why do you know Anisa?"

Vishnu asked so finally he and Ridwan sat on the porch of the house.

Out there, the sun still shines with its scorching, hot like atmosphere in the old house of Vishnu today.

Ridwan took a deep breath and then exhaled his cleavage. Only then, trying to remain calm, did Ridwan finally start to open his voice,

"Mas Vishnu, sorry if since last night I was not honest with Mas Vishnu, but I have tried to refuse to come to the house of Vishnu, one of which is because of this."

Vishnu seemed silent, he chose not to comment or ask anything first, he wanted to listen to all Ridwan's narrations until it was finished.

"Sorry Mas Vishnu, I do not want to say honestly from the beginning that I know Anisa, it is also hard for me to decide to keep coming because it has been promised to the panjengan."

Ridwan seemed to try to regulate his breathing again, trying to calm down again, until later...

"Sorry Mr. Ustadz, let me interrupt,"

Vishnu said to keep his adab in front of Ridwan.

Although their age is certainly not too far apart, but Vishnu respect Ridwan whose status has clearly become an Ustadz. A naji teacher, a pretty knowledgeable person.

Although Vishnu himself was also a religious scholar, but still Vishnu was well aware, he was, that the knowledge is not as high as the graduates of pesantren where they from morning to evening focused on learning religious knowledge from many books, not to mention they also get some kind of blessing from the kyai in their boarding school demanding knowledge.

"Excite Mas Vishnu, monggo."

Ridwan invited Vishnu to speak,

"Sorry Mr Ustadz, what is this banjenengan meant by a man close to Anisa? Excuse me... So sorry..."

Vishnu who felt that the question was actually disrespectful was thrown so very unpleasant. But, how else, Vishnu really curious about the position of Ridwan.

But...

Ridwan seemed to sigh, before finally shaking his head, Vishnu frowned.

"Look at Vishnu, let me explain first,"

Said Ridwan at last.

Yes, clearly Ridwan knows what Vishnu is feeling now, and certainly a lot of questions that exist in Vishnu's mind that need to be answered.

"I have known Anisa for a long time, Mas Vishnu, and I..."

Ridwan momentarily fell silent again, somehow it felt difficult for him to talk about what happened between himself and Anisa in front of Vishnu.

But, seeing Vishnu who looked patiently waiting for Ridwan to speak again, finally Ridwan also solidified his heart to continue his sentence that stopped, he said,

"I am the one who sent a letter to Anisa when she was just graduating Junior High School, but the letter was never replied by Anisa, there is no closeness between us like other young people, he said, we never reply to letters let alone go together, never."

"Sir Ustadz doesn't know Anisa actually loves you?"

Vishnu asked suddenly, making Ridwan's heart of course tremble,

"That's why, even if you don't seem to have anything to do, Mr. Haji Syamsul is acting, because he knows his daughter is falling for the man who sent her the letter."

Tandas Vishnu.

Ridwan was silent, it was difficult for him to react, this between him having to be happy but also sick at the same time.

"I would be very happy if Mr. Ustadz could do something to save Anisa now. Of course, I also love Anisa, I also want to do something to make her no longer suffer so that she does not need to go back to her house that does not make her comfortable."

Vishnu said, Ridwan seemed silent in his seat, his heart now seemed to be slapped by Vishnu with a very hard slap.

"It is also if Mr. Ustadz still loves Anisa, but if..."

Vishnu was silent for a moment, he saw Ridwan who was so agitated in his place,

"But if Mr. Ustadz turns out to have other options, it's okay, let me do everything for Anisa, your relationship is the past, so I assume everything is done, so I assume it's done, and I won't take it."

Vishnu said with such an adult attitude.

Ridwan sighed, listening to the words of Vishnu so firm and straightforward, showing he was indeed a man who was amazingly confident and at the same time also very firmly held to his own principles.

Vishnu was clearly well educated. He is the type of leader who will obviously be a good priest for his household in the future.

Admire Ridwan's heart for the person of Vishnu that way.

"Panjenengan sincerely and ridho right Pak Ustadz, if I finally marry Anisa?"

Ask Vishnu finally, then,

Ridwan stared at Vishnu for a moment, which of course there was no reason for Ridwan to shake his head.

Yes, no matter how heavy Ridwan's heart, in fact Ridwan must release Anisa for Vishnu.

Isn't this a real test?

Ikhlas let go of the love and dreams he has had for so long with his girlfriend.

Replacing his love and dreams is now only with God.

"inshaAllah, I sincerely Mas Vishnu, it is clear that Pak Haji Syamsul does not approve of me, although maybe I could have tried to achieve that blessing, but the insults and insults of Mr. Haji Syamsul also hurt my sister, and certainly my mother. Besides, I'm sure Mas Vishnu will be more capable and able to do a lot for Anisa than me."

Vishnu who heard Ridwan's words looked down, he as a fellow man knew very well must say all that was very heavy for Ridwan, but it seems Ridwan was very fond of his family, indeed, what Pak Haji Syamsul did that hurt his family is what seems to make Ridwan prefer not to fight for his love anymore.

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