Ustadz Ridwan's Dream
56. Mother's Heart Wounds
"Assynoltom..."
Mbak Wening said his greetings while entering the house, Mother who was in the house was busy making condiments for emping melinjo brightly shocked to hear the voice of Mbak Wening had gone home.
"Goddessalam..."
Replied Mother who had not had time to move from her seat on the lesehan mat on the kitchen floor had seen Mbak Wening enter the kitchen.
Ma'am Wening seemed to cry, he rushed towards his mother and hugged the mother who was of course more confused.
"What's up to Ning? What's up?"
Mother rubbed the back of Mbak Wening so that Mbak Wening could be calmer.
"Oh God, Mother... It hurts, it hurts so much, why are we destined to be poor?"
Mbak Wening said on the sidelines of his deep sobs.
"Ning... Drink first to calm down, drink first..."
Mother said as she took off Mbak Wening's embrace,
"That'sfar... Istighfor..."
Said Mother again, whose hand then reached out to her drinking glass and then gave it to Mbak Wening.
Mbak Wening received it and gulped it while still shedding tears.
After drinking, then beristighfar several times, Mbak Wening who then felt better seemed to sit in front of Mom.
"Lady..."
Lirih Mbak Wening,
"Come, why?"
Ask Mom in a subtle tone of voice,
Ma'am Wening wiped her tears on her cheeks,
"Mom, this is very painful Ma'am, this morning the family of Mr. Haji Syamsul has given such great humiliation to our family and also to the pesantren."
Said Mbak Wening,
"Why? Insult what?"
Ask Mom who doesn't understand the meaning of what Ms. Wening said.
"That's Mom, Ridwan."
Mbak Wening then took Ridwan's letter paper to Anisa when both were still young.
"What's this?"
Ask Mom anyway, when Ma'am Wening reached out the paper to Mother.
"Ridwan's love letter to Anisa, formerly Bu, when Ridwan and Anisa were just graduating Junior High School, when Ridwan was just about to enter the boarding school."
Said Mbak Wening,
Mother then looked at the paper in her hand, a neat hand scratch Ridwan seen there, neat writing that of course to express her feelings to Anisa Larasati.
"Mbak Faizah and Pak Haji Syamsul accuse Wening of entering their home to work because there is another purpose Bu, the purpose of helping Ridwan to be close to Anisa and later when they can get married, Ridwan will also enjoy the legacy of Anisa, which automatically Wening can also enjoy."
"Astaghfirullah's... Asterghfirullah..."
Mother who heard immediately limp,
Ma'am Wening stroked his chest which still hurt.
"How can a Hajj say that bad? Asterghfirullah..."
Mother also shed tears, her heart was so bad when she heard what Ms. Wening said.
"Wening was directly defending Ridwan and of course defending the sanctity and good name of the boarding school Bu. What can Hajj do for our people and our religion? Compared to pesantren people it is clear that Pak Haji Syamsul is nothing."
Mom nodded her head.
"Pak Haji Syamsul is the same Hajj as Pak Haji Imron, but like the earth and sky. They are completely different from nature, word and so on."
Ms. Wening said so emotionally,
The mother is seen crying, imagining Ridwan being insulted as if the child is a man with no future.
"Wening officially resigned today ma'am. Wening would never want to work with arrogant people like them. How could? Such arrogant people live on the earth of God?"
"Yes Ning, your decision is correct, do not continue to work on people who are arrogant to the poor, especially to the religious warriors he is also arrogant, arrogant, that's obviously we can't keep up. It is still better to associate with people of other faiths but he is kind and respectful of our religion, than with fellow Muslims who just do not love his religion well."
Said Mother.
Ma'am Wening nodded, though,
"Only once they think that the Pesantren must have no future, will not work in a place that can make them successful, do they not think that our vice president is just a santri? Astarghfirullah... Wening hates Ma'am Faizah and Pak Haji Syamsul Bu."
Said Mbak Wening.
"Vice... Let Ning, let them be immersed in their pride, if Allah loves them, there will surely be events that can make them able to obtain guidance, but if Allah let them remain in pride, then, rest assured that everything they say today will be held accountable by God in the hereafter."
Said Mother.
Ma'am Wening nodded.
"Ridwan came home at what time Mom, I can't wait to see the boy, so I can forbid him to love Anisa again. Better to find another woman alone, can not Wening if you have to see Ridwan later insulted Ms."
Mom nodded her head, though,
"Yes mother also certainly will not allow, better to find a woman who matches us, who is simple, so that ordinary life is concerned, rough living, rough living, and rough, not confused if you have to live like Ridwan who can not be excessive."
"Mother's, leres."
Ma'am Wening.
Mother sighed, her heart that seemed to be slashed with pain was eager to push her mouth to say the oath of sarapah.
But, the faith in Mother's heart seems to have taken root so well, that she still can not take out her oath even though she wants and she can.
Ms. Wening then decided to go to the bathroom, she wanted to take her body to take another shower, relieve her remaining emotions.
"Yes, go take a bath, and take ablution, it will make the shetan will go and stop making us want to say the oath of sarapah. Believe me Wening, even without it Allah has recorded every gesture of attitude and speech of His servants."
Mother said anyway.
Ma'am Wening nodded.
"Yes Mother, Wening also did not say the oath of sarapah earlier, even though Wening originally wanted to."
"Instead of cursing them, we better pray that Ridwan will be able to mate a sholihah woman, who is good, and can accept Ridwan as it is, as well as the exit of the woman."
"Sweep Ma'am, inshaAllah Wening must always pray the best for Ridwan. Even Wening will pray that Ridwan can be successful, anyway so that Ridwan can make people like Pak Haji Syamsul and Mbak Faizah who demean the graduates of pesantren so do not want to talk anymore."
Ma'am Wening.
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