Ustadz Ridwan's Dream

59. Reality Painful

Ridwan stared at the letter paper that Mbak Wening had placed on the dining table near Ridwan's old lunch plate.

After lunch, Mbak Wening did finally tell everything he experienced this morning at the house of Pak Haji Syamsul on Ridwan.

Of course, this was a very extraordinary blow to Ridwan, he really did not expect if all this time why Anisa did not answer the letter was because the letter reached his brother.

Ridwan sighed, seeing Mbak Wening who told him while crying made Ridwan feel great sadness and pain.

It does not matter what he was insulted like, but the insult was inflicted on the brother, obviously making Ridwan's heart feel so slashed.

Ridwan grabs a letter he once left to a friend to give to Anisa.

The letter he wrote from the deepest heart, because indeed Ridwan felt he had to write it to be relieved before he left for the boarding school and he could focus on learning only.

"Why don't you tell me that you have a relationship with Anisa's mom? If only you told me, of course Mbak did not need to go into that house to be a Household assistant."

Ma'am Wening.

Ridwan sighed, though,

"I never felt we had a relationship, Ma'am, all this time there was only me who wrote a letter, even then there was never a reply."

Ridwan.

"It's only fitting that Anisa's mother often asks about you, she knows your sister's mother."

Ma'am Wening.

Ridwan shook his head slowly,

"I don't know Ma'am, I don't know who Anisa understands from."

Said Ridwan, Ridwan's hand holding the paper letter he had given to Anisa was trembling.

"If indeed Mr. Haji Syamsul intends to insult me, he can immediately call me."

Lirih Ridwan regretted why Mbak Wening had to bear everything.

Ma'am Wening looked to wipe away her teardrops that were on her cheeks.

"Mbak just don't want them to talk in front of you Wan, never arrive, really Mbak not ridho, Wan, forget it Anisa Mbak, there are still many more women who will be able to accept you, neither himself nor his family."

Ma'am Wening.

"Did Anisa also insult me, Ma'am?"

Ask Ridwan,

Ma'am Wening looked at Ridwan.

"Wan, no matter if she's insulting you or not, her family's already blatantly rejecting you, accusing you of loving Anisa only for her gold shop inheritance, that's more than enough for you to make excuses for not having to think about Anisa anymore."

Ma'am Wening was fiery.

"Remember Wan, they not only insult you, but also insult everyone who graduates pesantren, they demean the santri people, who should be Muslims just to boast of them santri people."

Ma'am Wening.

Ridwan nodded in understanding.

To be honest, as an ordinary human being, Ridwan also now feels like a burning chest of anger and also pain after hearing what was told by Mbak Wening.

However, Ridwan tried not to get carried away with his emotions which would only make the shetan laugh out loud.

"So, Madam Wening is officially not going to work again at the home of Pak Haji Syamsul?"

Ask Ridwan.

Ma'am Wening nodded.

"Make what Mbak works in a place of arrogant people like them."

Said Mbak Wening anyway,

"Wis Ning, we can't dislike what they're doing, but don't hate them as humans. They are, after all, creatures that are also created by God."

Mom finally made a sound.

Ridwan nodded in agreement, though,

"Maybe this is also God's way for you to start another way of seeking sustenance, haven't you long wanted to work enough from home? Now that your wish has been affirmed, it may indeed be granted the wish of the way is not as we want, but still there will certainly be a lot of Ning wisdom. Be patient..."

Mbak Wening sighed and finally nodded slowly at what the mother said.

"You also Wan, actually if Mother, will not regulate your feelings, of course your heart is your own, will lean to where, want love to whom and so on, is of course your right, is your right, I will not try to interfere. Mother's job as a parent is only to give blessing, if there is advice, I will give as a provision you walk forward."

Mother looked at Ridwan who nodded in silence.

"But..."

Mother began to slip the word but, a sacred word whenever it was her parents who said it, she said it,

"But you also have to remember, that the name of the marriage does not only involve two people. There will always be parents and brothers on both sides, and you can't ignore that."

Said Mother to Ridwan.

"Mother, Ridwan also understands that very well."

"That's why, if your heart still wants to keep fighting for Anisa's love, you have to convince yourself that she has a family that can't accept you for who you are."

"Hmm right."

Ma'am Wening nimbrung said his mother.

"For example, you go and then wander, it turns out that in the wild tried and successful business, you come again to the family of Anisa. Once you've received their new success, it also shows that they're not accepting you, but your success."

Ridwan stared at the paper in his hand.

Anika...

Though only yesterday they began to close after they had not met for a long time,

Just yesterday, they just exchanged phone numbers and had a chat even though they only said hello.

Yep...

Ridwan thinks their relationship will be able to start fission since yesterday, could be close and can get to know each other more.

But...

In fact this life always has its own way to play puzzles, and Ridwan did not expect if all that is not okay turned out to be like today.

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