Ustadz Ridwan's Dream

45. No Effort Force

In the evening, Ridwan returns home from the mosque as usual enjoying a simple dinner with his family.

Only the cooked anget rice is still steamed, with the chili still on top of the cobek, the flourless fried tofu tempeh and fried petai, as well as the yellow-spiced young jackfruit vegetable.

While Ajeng were children, as usual deliberately made other side dishes, beef eye eggs sprinkled with sliced fried onions and soy sauce.

"Wan, he said you wanted to tell me about the guest in Pak Haji Imron."

Mbak Wening said after the dinner was over and stayed Ajeng who was still struggling to spend his soy sauce.

"What's up to Wan?"

Mother asked, looking at her son who was sipping his warm tea wedang.

After sipping warm jasmine tea made by Mbak Wening, Ridwan then just answered the question of the mother.

"In fact, Ridwan is reluctant to tell it first, because Ridwan is not yet istikharah. Ridwan wanted to tell a story when he had the answer."

Ridwan.

"You want to be betrothed to one of Pak Haji Imron's children, right?"

Ma'am Wening suddenly interrupted the origin of the guess, making Mother who was sitting next to him stab her arm hard.

Seeing his mother being stabbed by the Mbah made Ajeng laugh.

"Mother to Mbah?"

Ajeng said as he fed the yellow cut of his cow's eye.

"Hmmm..."

Mbak Wening immediately glanced at Ajeng with a death glance.

"It's not about Ma'am's matchmaking, it's far away."

Ridwan.

"Keep what Wan?"

Mbak Wening is still the spirit of kepo,

"Wis to Ning, it's up to Ridwan to tell a story or not, why you're in charge once."

Said Mother.

"Who knows Ridwan also needs our opinion as his family, ma'am, let alone the opinion of Mother, it's definitely needed his son."

Ma'am Wening is doing family counseling happily.

"You love to talk about opo muter-muter."

Said Mother.

"Dark."

Mbak Wening bobbing head.

Ridwan smiled faintly, then...

"But Ringgih Bu, Ridwan think this should be told to Mom as well."

Said Ridwan at last.

"Well, what you said..."

Ma'am Wening was excited.

"What's Wan? I'm so scared, what do you really want to talk about?"

Mother looked at her son closely.

"Begini Bu, this afternoon the children of Mr. Suhadi asked Ridwan to come to the house of Pak Haji Imron. As Haji Imron said, there was a will from Mr. Suhadi when he was sick and would die."

"Evessels? What will Wan be?"

Ask Ma'am Wening impatiently.

"This mother, this will alone does not know, the will is the lamp of the will."

Ajeng said while shaking his head, and still with the bells, Ajeng got down from the chair and brought a dirty plate to the kitchen to be placed there and wash his hands.

The Mbah also chuckled.

In the kitchen of the simple house there is indeed a small box that is deliberately made to put dirty dishes and also for hand washing or it could also be for ablution when going to pray tahajud at night day.

Ajeng who has finished washing his hands seemed to wander into the room, he would read books instead of talking to adults.

After all, I also like long-time angry Ajeng if Ajeng joined the chat.

"Pak Suhadi whose rice field here is how many hectares is Wan?"

Ask Mom later.

Mother nodded.

"Opo Wan's will?"

Ask Mom again,

"Pak Suhadi wanted to waqf the land as well as make the foundation Bu. The foundation that houses tahfiz houses and huts for orphans who don't have."

Ridwan.

"Oh, then what?"

Ask Mom anyway,

"These were intended to be sent to Pak Haji Imron so that he could manage, but because Pak Haji Imron felt that he was as old as possible, afraid that later he could not carry out Mr. Suhadi's will to the fullest, he said, so Pak Haji Imron put the will on Ridwan."

"Well cool Wan, thank you then."

Wening looked excited.

But Mother who is sensitive and knows very well Ridwan is not the type of person who likes to meet finally asked, whether Ridwan really wants to accept it or how.

"Honestly this is also one of Ridwan Bu's dreams, having a special cottage orphans who can not afford so they can continue to study, as well as tahfiz house."

"This means your reward is Wan."

Ma'am Wening.

Ridwan nodded slowly,

"On the one hand it may be true Mbak is sustenance, but it could be on the other hand this is also a test for me."

"What a test."

Sister Wening frowned, Mother sighed,

"The test is not only when we are given the distress Ma'am, the more severe test is when we are given a lot of spaciousness, a lot of advantages, and also a lot of opportunities, like me. I'm afraid I'm insecure, madam, so scared that something's wrong and then I'm guilty of it."

Ridwan.

Ma'am Wening looked at his sister while sleepy,

"Then, it's true that you better be Istikharah Wan. That you may be instructed what God says is good for it."

Said Mother.

Ridwan.

"Enggih Bu, Ridwan does plan to ask for directions first. If it is good and Allah is ridho, inshaAllah Ridwan will try to do it as much as Ridwan can. Meanwhile, if it turns out that according to God, it will be bad if Ridwan takes care of it, for example, Ridwan will also become takabur and even insecure, yes better Ridwan just back away from the beginning."

Ridwan.

"Hmm you are indeed different from most other Wan, even though Mbak heard, That Mr. Ustadz Sholeh also received a waqf to build a cottage, but not walk."

"Hhhhhh... Don't like to talk about other people. It's no good, sin."

Mother reminded.

Wening's mother was embarrassed.

I looked at Ridwan again,

"Yes for Mother, as a parent, of course, Mother can only help Wan pray, I hope you can later become a trustworthy person, whose knowledge can also be useful not only for yourself but also for the people."

Said Mother.

"Aamiin O God, all of course at the prayer of Mother, Mother. It is the prayer of the sholihah Mother, who is able to lead children to the blessings of the God of the world and the pleasure of Allah in the Hereafter."

Said Ridwan.

"Then rest, so that night may begin to be directed to ask for guidance, that the best choice may be given from God's side."

"Come on the Mother."

Ridwan.

"Mother is relieved that you do not put forward your own desires, you still put first what God says is good, and yet you still put what God says is good, not necessarily accept the offer to carry the trust that may be at any time will trap you in arrogance and negligence."

Her eyes glazed over because she felt so grateful to see the figure of Ridwan.

"All because God is guarding Ridwan Bu, God who still leads Ridwan to still be careful, we humans can actually be good because God is capable."

Said Ridwan.

"Lahula wala quwata illa billahil aliyil adzim, indeed man is powerless without God's help. Even for worship, we can also be given the ability by God."

Ridwan.

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