Ustadz Ridwan's Dream

120. Not a Mate

Ridwan took his steps with gontai into the house, so the glass of his heart and mind at this time, he even forgot to say hello.

The mother who happened to cross paths with Ridwan in the doorway of the boundary of the middle room and the living room so who said his greetings first,

"Assynoltom..."

Mother said, surprising Ridwan who seemed once drowning in a vortex of his own mind.

"Astaghfirullah's..."

Ridwan looked very embarrassed as soon as he found the mother now standing in front of him while looking at him.

"Waalaikum... Ma."

Ridwan finally answered his mother's greeting.

Mom smiled, mother,

"What bothers you to forget to say hello?"

Ask Mom concerned.

Ridwan looked down, it felt really embarrassed and regretful, how could the world things to neglect him over the things he used to do?

Astarghfirullah...

Ridwan had to repeatedly say Istighfar in his heart because he was so inattentive today.

"If there's such a heavy burden you hit alone, tell Mom, who knows you can help, or at least it can reduce your grief, son."

Mama said softly,

Ridwan immediately looked teary, his heart felt shuddered with excitement and at the same time there was a point of gratitude because he had convinced himself to make a decision that was so heavy for his heart.

Yep..

Especially if it's not about letting go of one of her biggest dreams over Anisa.

Having a girl as beautiful as Anisa, her first love. The girl who makes everything look so beautiful when she thinks about it.

The mother gently grabbed her son's arm, taking him to the living room to sit on the chair of the room.

"Sit down, and tell me, that you may be relieved. So that in Asar time your burden will be slightly reduced, and can focus on worship and serve again to share knowledge with many people."

Said Mother.

Ridwan who sat next to Mother seemed to sigh, calm his heart before he finally began to tell her.

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Flashbacks, flashbacks,

"Can I talk to Anisa for a second?"

Ridwan asked permission to Vishnu, which of course answered a nod by Vishnu.

Ridwan then entered into the old house of Vishnu again.

Anisa is no longer there, she seems to have chosen to go into the room or maybe to go back to the side terrace where she used to sit there.

Vishnu succumbed to enter first into the inner room, asking Anisa where on the Mbok.

"Bak Nisa in the gazebo behind Mas, crying."

Said the Mbok.

Vishnu then walked to the backyard, where there is a small swimming pool that used to be used for Vishnu swimming training while still in SD.

"Sina."

Call Vishnu with his soft voice,

Anisa wiped the tears that soaked her face, she seemed to try to avoid the gaze of Vishnu's eyes.

Vishnu brought his steps closer to the gazebo where Anisa was, then sat down next to her,

"Ustadz Ridwan wants to talk, I think you should talk a lot Anisa, so that you are equally relieved. I'm sure there's a lot you want to say, even with him."

The word Vishnu is so wise and so gantle,

"If she's decided to be with Iis, why talk to me again."

Lirih Anisa's.

"And why did you ask him to come?"

Ask Anisa wonder.

This time Anisa seemed to dare to look at Vishnu with both eyes puffy.

"I don't mean anything, even I just found out that that special man is Ustadz Ridwan who is coming now."

Anisa sighed,

He obviously can not say anything more, because in fact he can not blame Vishnu about this.

"Give time for Ustadz Ridwan and also for yourself Anisa. We as people who are growing up and learning to mature, must get used to solving problems, not avoiding them."

Said Vishnu again.

Anisa again sighed,

Heavy heart and really tight in his chest, getting the reality Ridwan suddenly came with Iis.

Yes Iis, a friend whom he had considered his own brother.

Wh why?

Why should Iis?

Even though he is not a match with Ridwan, why should the woman Iis?

Anisa's heartache.

However, the words of Vishnu that he heard had a point as well. That at least Anisa should be able to give time for Ridwan to explain everything, as Anisa also has to give herself a chance about everything that actually happened.

Until finally after she thought everything well, Anisa then decided to nod her head

"All right."

Said Anisa,

Vishnu smiled, he patted gently on Anisa's back,

"Everything is gonna be okay."

Vishnu said,

Anisa seemed to be trying to nod again, even though her chest felt almost broken.

Vishnu got up from the gazebo where he and Anisa were sitting, looking as the young man walked into the house to return to meet Ridwan who was talking seriously with Iis in the living room.

"Sir Ustadz, please."

Vishnu said politely to Ridwan.

Ridwan also briefly excused Iis to go inside to meet Anisa.

Vishnu escorted until the door to the backyard, pointed towards the gazebo where Anisa was, then after leaving the adjoining Ridwan stepped towards Anisa.

"Assynoltom..."

Said Ridwan,

"Goddessalam..."

Anisa replied softly by still choosing to bow in her seat.

Ridwan took no place to sit in the gazebo.

The young man still chose to stand alone, nor did Anisa intend to let Ridwan sit in the same gazebo with him.

So, with a distance of approximately two meters from Ridwan standing and Anisa sitting in the gazebo, Ridwan decided to talk,

"Anisa, I don't have much time, but obviously, I want to apologize for everything first. Sorry for anything I did intentionally or unintentionally that you think was wrong, included was when I decided to send a letter that might seem presumptuous because it was not aware that our family status was very much different."

"Anisa, actually I was asked to come by Mas Vishnu originally was to help him convince Anisa, that the only way to protect you that Mas Vishnu can do in the blessing of parents and the pleasure of Allah is to marry you. I feel that Mas Vishnu is a totally impeccable man, of course this is a gift for you Anisa."

Ridwan's voice was trembling, Anisa who heard so much.

"Really, as a man who loves you, taking you off with Mas Vishnu is the best thing I can do. I'm sure he's much better than I am in every way, not only does he have a sincere love for Anisa, but he also has a bright future, and having the ability to protect you for real isn't just a dream."

"Then how are you? Is there nothing you want to do to fight for me?"

Lirih Anisa is sad,

"Is it all because of my family?"

Added Anisa.

Ridwan sighed, then...

"What lies between us is the blessing of your father who is your martyr Anisa, and I am also the blessing of my mother, which of course is above all because it is related to the pleasure of God."

Ridwan's voice grew more and more trembling, Anisa rubbed her tight chest,

"Think of Anisa, we are not destined to be a match. I'm fine, because I know you'll be with a man far above me for his good."

Flashback over,

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