The Wasted Bride

Dilemmas

The sudden arrival of Attalaric is enough to make the performance of Arwaa's heart work faster. If he used to be ordinary when he was with Hanna and Attalaric. Now it is precisely Arwaa feels they are already like a real small family.

Indeed, Arwaa could not stop condemning her who was constantly lulled just because of the small attention Attalaric gave. As much as possible Arwaa tried to set the expression so as not to be so visible if his cheeks always reddened every time accidentally collided with Attalaric. He must not have fallen too far just because of the expression of love from his former brother-in-law.

In a sense, if I may be honest there is bitterness in the heart of Arwaa due to Aldair's absence at their current dinner. The man told her he would not return to the apartment until the next morning for ambiguous reasons. Arwaa himself feels guilty about the possibility if he has damaged the relationship between the Aldair and Attalaric brothers who have just been re-established after a past incident which is also because of him.

Should Arwaa give up before trying to interweave the household ark offered by her former sister-in-law? Logically told Arwaa to step down, she no longer wants to be a thorn in the Arsawijaya family who has sincerely loved her since she became Aldair's wife, even now their affection is still the same, even though their love is still the same, even with her status that is no longer the daughter-in-law of the family.

But his heart could not lie about the vibrations of love that began to grow since Arwaa realized the attention given Attalaric not just attention to his sister-in-law alone. Coupled with the expression of Attalaric love that managed to tear apart the high walls that he had built in him a new love since his separation with Aldair.

"She. waa..."

"Yes...?"

Attalaric and Bu Hayya were stunned to see a drop of tears rolling down Arwaa's cheeks. The worry is clearly reflected in the mother and child's partner.

"You crying?" Attalaric's Tanya awakens Arwaa from her long daydream about the incongruity in her love life.

"Sorry. I'll go to Mom's room first, Mas. Assalamu'alaikum."

Arwaa immediately moved after she wiped her slightly wet cheeks as tears casually came out.

"Wa'a.laikum..salam..."

Hanna looked at her mother's back confused, then turned to Daddy and his Grandmother who looked at each other. There was a clear wist in their eyes when Hanna asked, "Mother why Nek, Dad? Mother sick?"

Ma Hayya threw a gentle smile at the granddaughter, "Yes, Mommy is not feeling well anymore. So tonight Hanna sleep with Daddy first yes let Grandma drug her Mother first. Hanna is also sick if she likes Grandma medicine," lied Miss Hayya who immediately embraced Hanna without saying much more.

From the Arwaa gelagat who since the arrival of Attalaric looks to be more quiet, as well as the hue of his face that turned moody. Bu Hayya thinks that Arwaa is in a dilemma so she needs time to calm herself down because that's why Hanna was placed with Attalaric so that Bu Hayya can be a place to confide in Arwaa.

"Hanna Abisin ate it. Grandma wanted to treat Mommy first," Ma Hayya stroked her grandson's hair before turning to her eldest son and whispered, "Mom will talk to Arwaa. You go with Hanna!"

"Yes Ma'am," replied Attalaric, there was a speck of fear in his heart of Arwaa's changing attitude. He was only afraid that at the end of his feelings he would not be able to dock in the heart of the girl who was already considered like his own mother by Hanna, his daughter.

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Geck... Geck... Tok

"Arwaa, can you come in?"

Arwaa awoke from her position, which she had put herself on the bed. Her eyes were red as she had indeed cried ever since returning from the dining table.

For a moment he looked at the door of the room with nanar. But a second later Arwaa moved and opened the door for her mother, "Come in, Mom" Arwaa said, forcing her smile.

Ma Hayya looked at Arwaa's face that was clearly visible if she had finished crying, "Thank you dear. I sleep here. Hanna wants to sleep with her Daddy," the pinta of Arwaa's ma'am Hayya.

"Are you okay, son?" Ma'am Hayya asked as soon as they sat on the bed.

Arwaa looked at the face of a middle-aged woman who was decorated with fine wrinkles, but still looked beautiful even at her age who was no longer young, "Hmm," Arwaa murmured.

"What is this about Aldair and Attalaric?"

"Sorry," the great-grandson of Arwaa looked down. Great concern in him if he becomes the destroyer of the Arsawijaya family.

"Hm... I'm really sorry Mom, because my presence actually makes the bonds of sisterhood of Mother's children become damaged," Arwaa's tears began to wet her cheeks again making Miss Hayya smile pity.

"Don't talk like that, baby. You didn't ruin anything. The brotherhood of Attalaric and Aldair. They're old enough to choose how they behave,"

"Mom knows, the fact that Attalaric harbored a taste for you must have hurt Aldair. But what can be said, he or we do not have the power to choose whom we fall in love with," said Bu Hayya made Arwaa look at him deeply.

"It's not that I'm siding with one of the two kids. After all, both of them are Mothers and Mothers want the best for them. Mom and Dad married Aldair to you because we thought you could turn Aldair into a better man, but he hurt you, in fact,"

"Since the first time Mother and Father did not allow children to establish a special relationship before marriage. If there's a girl they like, Atta and Razi they're always open to Mom, but not Aldair. Until in the end we never knew if the child was already in contact to that extent with the non-muhrimnya, especially he has married you," Bu Hayya's eyes began to dew.

"If only Aldair would open up and tell us about the woman. Surely Mother and Father will not marry you who eventually become bad memories for you. Forgive Mom and Dad for failing to educate him to be a good priest."

Arwaa was puffed up and hugged her former in-laws, "Mother what has happened this time is not the fault of Mom and Dad. Didn't you say that we can't choose who we fall in love with? Similarly to Mas Genta, he could not choose who he wanted to give his heart to. Mas Genta who fell in love with his lover was a natural thing, but what should not happen is Mas Genta was too blinded by his love so as to forget the real love, which is love for the Creator,"

"Mas Genta never treated me badly either. Genta is very kind and responsible. And what happened when I was brought home by him at that time was because Mas Genta was being exposed to emotions for a moment because of the accident that befell his lover," said Arwaa intends to calm her former in-laws but instead make the heart of Bu Hayya more sick with the fact so soft heart Arwaa because after what happened to her because of Aldair, the heart of Arwaa, she kept talking good about her ex-husband.

"You sincerely accept what Aldair has done to you son?"

Arwaa. Single-minded? Right, that's what has always haunted him. If you say sober, of course Arwaa is aware of all his good words about Aldair because indeed Aldair is a good man if it is not too blinded by his love for humans so forget there is more entitled to love.

Right now, in this situation. Arwaa is at a crossroads, where she must choose to step back, of course with a sincere feeling of her past.

For a moment Arwaa closed her eyes and smiled gently as soon as she reopened them.

"Inshaallah ma'am I'm sincere. What has happened in the past will be a valuable lesson in the future."

Ma Hayya looked calmer with a small smile on her back.

"Then what about Attalaric?"

Arwaa was a little surprised by Bu Hayya's sudden question. His face involuntarily flushed red from the instantaneous embarrassment. Seeing that Ma Hayya smiled, "You also have the same feelings for the eldest son Mother son?"

Arwaa tried to take a breath and take it out slowly to calm herself so as not to misbehave. She looked at Bu Hayya with sadness and said, "I don't want to hurt Mas Genta and damage Mother's family," said Arwaa, making Bu Hayya's hand gently stroke her head.

"Honey, what is planted is what will be harvested. Same with Aldair. He does not instill love in you but rather the pain he gives, so he reaps the results now even with the state of the heart that has been leaning on you, but that's what he should get. Given how you always supported Aldair and defended him even when he was with other women. Let him now learn what has been and will happen for his own doing. Like you said to be able to make the past a lesson, not a memory" said Hayya.

"Attalaric himself has conveyed his feelings and good intentions towards you to all family members, including Aldair."

Ma Hayya smiled at the sad look that was still always depicted on Arwaa's face.

"Honey, you deserve to be happy with the person you love. Do not push yourself too far for the happiness of others. It will only hurt you," said Bu Hayya gently wiping away the tears on Arwaa's cheeks.

"My real mother's goal here is to propose to you for Attalaric. How dear?"

Ma Hayya smiled. He was already so confident in his decision to support Attalaric. Not to hurt his other son.

He just wants to make Aldair realize that life will not necessarily go according to the wishes of the heart which if forced it will even hurt. Then there is no other way to calm him than to give himself up.

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