The Wasted Bride

Divorced?

"I want to get divorced."

Arwaa was silent, thousands of prayers rained down on her long broken heart when she heard the word divorce from the man she loved so much. All her struggles to maintain their marriage had been futile all this time.

"Fani's pregnant."

Arwaa's views are blurry, he wants to cry but should not, because he knows that this is the consequence he will receive when married to a man named Aldair Gentala Arsawijaya.

"Then...?"

He squeezed his robe trying to withstand the surge of pain that came so great.

"I have to take responsibility. Fani's pregnant with my son."

Arwaa froze to hear this, although she had expected this before, still her heart was broken.

"Please leave it."

Aldair was surprised to hear his wife's reply. He thought Arwaa would cry bitterly when she found out about this.

"But not now."

Arwaa smiled sweetly making Aldair uncomfortable.

"I think you should understand this better. Is not in Islam should not marry a woman who is pregnant, if you want to be responsible by marrying her, you must wait for Fani to give birth first. Am I wrong?"

Hearing that Aldair looked into his wife's cold brown eyes.

"I really sinned a lot at you. This all happened because I could not be a wife of prayer as I wanted so that mas stuck in obedience." Arwaa smiled bitterly.

Aldair remained silent, not wanting to reply to his wife's words, because he felt that what his wife said was true.

This was all his father's fault, if only his father had not betrothed him to the daughter of the one who had helped him, then this would never have happened.

He will not be reckless like this, doing relationships that are forbidden by his religion, in order to be with the people he loves.

"Mas can divorce me when Fani has given birth. And while waiting for that day, I want to treat me as Genta's wife. I want us to live in one house, and live like a typical husband and wife. I don't want you to see Fani just yet because I'm afraid you're going to do something you can't do anymore, it will only add to God's wrath. If you want to do it, come to me, because I'm your wife."

A sweet smile never faded from Arwaa's lips, though in her heart she cried out hoping that someone would release her from the pain.

"I hope Fani will give birth to a boy mas." Arwaa again.

"Mas knows that until Fani gives birth to a daughter, it will be very sorry for her fate." Tears began to drip down his cheeks. Whether it's tears of sympathy for the future son of the husband or tears of pain.

"No problem with inheritance, you can give it as a grant. What I'm thinking about is that with clarity, you won't be able to be her guardian later either." He stared at the eyes of Aldair who was seen clenching his hands.

"There is no need to talk about things that are not yet clear. Just pray that Fani give birth to a son." Said Aldair trying to calm down while drinking coffee order.

"Of course." Arwaa smiled wryly.

Suddenly Aldair stood up and thrust out his hand for Arwaa to hold it, acting as if there had been no serious talk before. Arwaa who saw it smiled bitterly, but she still received her husband's cold hand with a fake smile.

***

Arwaa, who had always hoped that their marriage would continue until only death would separate them, could only smile bitterly looking out the car window. Who would have thought that marriage that has not even two years will soon be over.

Since the meeting with her husband at the Happyfam cafe earlier, no one started talking again between the two of them. Yes, because in fact despite being married they do not know each other at all. But maybe not for Arwaa, a little bit she knows what her husband likes and dislikes because it was told by her mother-in-law.

"Yes..." Arwaa let out a tired sigh making Aldair turn his head for a while before he refocused his gaze on the streets.

"Why?" Aldair asked in a tone that did not seem as cold as usual. Yes, the man often just ignored the wife, if even talking to Arwaa only as necessary of course with a cold tone of voice.

"Hehe's okay. This is we go straight to the house or to the apartment first to take his clothes mas?" Just like Aldair, Arwaa acted as if they were normal husbands and wives in general.

True, their relationship is not normal. Because a husband and wife who should live in one house but not with both of them.

Since I spoke from Aldair's lips, they have never spent time alone except at his parents' house. Because after their marriage was over, Aldair immediately drove Arwaa to the house he had prepared, while he himself returned to his apartment. This is their normal life as husband and wife.

"No need. I'll take you home, and I'll go home tonight to get the clothes and supplies that I'm bringing home tomorrow. It's okay, right?" Ask Aldair.

Arwaa raised both eyebrows, she felt strange with this change in her husband's attitude, really, if her husband was an artist, she would definitely become a famous artist for her acting.

"Yes, um." Arwaa replied with a sweet smile towards Aldair, while the man immediately turned his gaze in the other direction reluctant to see the smile of the wife.

***

BRAAK!

Aldair closed the door of his apartment violently causing a deafening loud noise. He shuffled his hair in frustration.

All of Arwaa's words kept spinning in her brain. True what he said, what if Fani gave birth to a daughter, but even if the boy remains the same, does not make him bound to the nasab.

Although Fani was no longer a virgin when they did the illegal relationship, but the guilt he had was even greater in his lover than in his own wife who he had long ignored.

Tears began to flow down his cheeks. Whether since when his heart froze, it had been a long time since he had not carried out his obligation to worship. All of this is because he continues to blame the Creator who had destined him to marry the woman he did not love.

Not to mention the great sin he had committed with a woman who was not his mahram. He could not imagine how his parents would react if they knew what he had done.

Ignoring his wife, even though he always gave birth to a living but not with his mind, they did not even live together. Even if they met only when spending time off at his parents' house, once a week, that's also if he doesn't reason about his busy job.

And during the marriage if he was wanting to have a husband-wife relationship, not his wife Arwaa whom he came to, but the woman he loved, Fani. Aldair even bent his knees before Fani apologized for forcing him to have the relationship.

But what would you say, his heart has been petrified, and the temptations of Satan continue to caress his soul at all times, making him a sinner every day.

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